The light filters through the blinds, small dust particles could be seen drifting through the stream of light. the rustling of leaves could be heard outside the window next to my hospital bed, birds happily chirping away oblivious to the struggles some suffer from.

Then I come into the picture.

I sit still atop the crisp white sheets, dressed in a light blue hospital gown. The tight white bandages wrapped securely around my thigh, a small patch of red was starting to seep through. My hair was tangled and matted down with dried sweat from a couple of hours ago, dried blood that soaked into my skin sat on my hands. They didn't even bother cleaning me. The sight of the red sending me back to the mall.

Flashback

I continued to fade in and out of consciousness, pain increasing and decreasing at rapid speeds. I just wanted to pass out. Someone get rid of the pain. It was burning, so so so much. It was like my quirk had gone haywire, burning everything in its path. please help me.

"y/n...... 15.......please"

I listen to a faraway voice speak, it was dancing around my head causing my mind to ache. I groan lightly trying to reach up as massage the area. But when my fingers brushed my forehead they felt cold, wet and unpleasant. I reel back only to find my fingers weren't clear, they were blurry and fazed out. What? but there was a beautiful red drenching them. what is that?

Flashback End

I just blankly stare at my fingers, so that's what I saw. I'm so stupid. maybe the pain was making it hard for me to think straight?... who knows. ill never know. maybe the people that were there do. but no one's here. I lay alone in a cold empty Hosptial... by myself. with no one.

I sigh out loud before slight shuffling to slide off the side of the white bed, my feet meet the cold tiles and I pull back slightly before continuing on with my journey to leave this horrid place. Not like anyone is here to stop me.

I see my old clothes on top of a chair, I snatch them up before slipping back into them. Careful of the bandages. The grey sweats were no longer soft and a nice color, Instead they were all gross with an extremely large patch of dried red. I quickly look away before slowly walking out the sliding door. Funnily enough, this hospital is the same one Rei is staying in. so I just slowly shuffle towards her room, wincing every now and then.

I slide the door open and weakly smile at Rei, she turns before smiling back at me.

"Hey, Rei.''

I decided against going to class the next day, I just couldn't find the strength to get ready my leg throbbing uncomfortably. But thankfully Rei was more than helpfully. changing my soiled bandages and making us both some amazing tea. So thanks a lot to her.

Now I walked towards my class with all my stuff, ready for the trip. But when I get closer I notice that there are two classes.

"Y/N!!!"

I hear Mina screech from somewhere in the huge crowd, many turn towards me before staring slightly. Must be because I look like the girl that got in the news because when that unfortunate event took place some witnesses took some rather bad photos of me stumbling towards the fountain where Uraraka and MIdoriya were, blood leaking through my fingers. Anyway. I hesitantly placed my stuff down before opening my arms, knowing damn well I'm going to get squeezed from a hug. Oh... here she comes. She's shouting random things, and now shes wrapped herself around me tears rolling down her face.

"I'm so sorry I didn't help you!! IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY-"

I laugh before running my hands through her hair, a gentle smile adorned my face.

"It's okay.. I handled the situations pretty well by myself anyway."

I say pulling back and flexing my muscles, Mina giggles slightly but a rough voice cuts in.

"You're lucky you only got shot in the thigh."

I raise a brow at Bakugo, and he just crosses his arms looking down at me. He approaches me before picking up my stuff.

"Don't want you to hurt yourself further."

I laugh before patting his back.

"Nope you just love me"

He mumbles something before growling at me, I laugh and follow after the angry blonde completely forgetting about the happy pink-haired friend I've made.

I sit in my seat on the bus, lazily sitting back with my legs resting across Bakugous. I was just lowly mumbling some lyrics to a song, completely zoned out when I hear Baku ask something. "What??"

He rolls his eyes before asking where I know that song from.

"Oh it's a small lullaby thing my mother used to sing to me before I got-... yes, it was a song my mother sang to me." Bakugo nods before looking back out the window.

Truth is.. well-.. i.... it is a song from my childhood, it's just that I sung it to Todoroki when things were easier.
I remember those happy memories so vividly, he wasn't all smiles or anything but he just wasn't.. violent or aggressive.

Flashback

I hold the small mismatched haired boy in my arms, slowly singing a lullaby that my mother sang to me.

Shades of yellow, orange and red
Fallen leaves much widespread
A sunset sky all shades of rose
Afternoon skies with arched rainbows
During this time my love I met
Much like Romeo my Juliette
So much beauty she did gleam
Was she real or just a dream?
Her skin just like the sunset sky
Her voice a soothing lullaby
Ringlets the color of the leaves
Moving gently with the Autumn breeze
A sense of warmth she radiated
Heat the colors of Autumn created
It was then she stole my heart
An Autumn romance from the start

Of course I couldn't pronounce some words or understand the meaning, but tune seemed to slow down time. Bring our two little souls closer as I sung the scared boy to sleep, protecting him from the outside world and the lurking monster that spewed fire from his hands.

Flashback end

I just lean back a sincere smile plastered onto my face, I miss those times. I miss them so much...

But I shouldn't, I can't. It's wrong. I should just forget about that disgusting song that's been tied down by so many memories, yet I just... need to listen to it. It bounces around my mind like a ball. But he wouldn't like it.. would he? Maybe he misses those simpler times as well, yearning to go back there just one more time. Maybe he misses the feelings he gets when I sing to him, filling his body with so much emotion it's hard not to smile. Maybe- no.
I can't.

Im just stupid for getting my hopes up, I stupid and dumb for thinking like that. He has someone else now. He's got her. She can be the one he counts on when in need. They demonstrated that perfectly in the exams. So I don't know why I'm still hung on him. He's got someone else. He has a chest to lay on, someone to love, someone to lean on, someone to cry to... I'm not in the picture, I never was. So I don't know why... why am I like this? I've been trying to force myself into that picture, but It was no use. I'm not fit for his happy little future, for the Todoroki name.

I'm nothing to him. So why is he everything to me?