After a little bit everyone left besides Uraraka, she was just helping me get a grip of what happened.
She was currently lay across one of the hospital chairs telling me everything.

"And yes, that's pretty much all that happened."
I nod before stare directly at the chair the was right beside me, the one Uraraka was is wasn't as close.
"Oh yes that's also the chair Todoroki sat in, that was until her left."
I gulp at the realisation.

He must be extremely angry at me. Wasting his time and such, he must've been waiting for me to wake up so he could have a go at me.
Oh dear.
I'm so dead once I see him again.

"And as he left I'm pretty sure Yaoyorozu went with him. She looked rather unbothered by your situation, so I asked before they left why she wasn't going to stay to watch you. She replied in a very rushed and sorta.... weird way, she said something along the lines of she had something to take care of, or something I can't really remember. And surprisingly they left together, in the same car and everything. They looked rather close."
I feel my eyes darken at her words, I grit my teeth in anger.

Damn her. Damn her and her pretty face, damn her amazing body. Damn her perfect grades. Damn her family for being rich and.... well normal. Damn her being strong. Damn her having a good quirk.

Damn her for being someone Todoroki wants.

I scrunch up my brows, tensing as I feel warm liquid roll down my cheeks.
I let my hair fall in front of my face like a curtain, my fists clenched tight.

It didn't need to be said. I know what they are doing. It was as clear as day. And I know Todoroki as a person. He always had to take his frustrations out on someone, normally that would be me. But it seems Yaoyorozu got lucky. She wouldn't get a beating, she wouldn't get burnt, she wouldn't get thrown to the side like trash. She would get the rest of the night full of filthy, and intimate things. Things that I've been craving for for years. And all she had to do for it was wave for her limo, and she had fallen into his arms. It was that easy.

So why?

Why am I sitting in a hospital bed all alone?

I could be in his arms, held tight like I've always dreamed of. Basking in his warmth, as we spend the rest of the night in each others presence.

But it seemed like I got the short end of the stick once again, just like always. I'll sit back as I let the man I love steer my life in any way he pleases, I don't get to choose. I never do. But I want to make my own decisions this time. I want him. But it seems the one chance I got to fend for myself got thrown into the ditch.
Thrown aside. Useless, worthless nothing.

That's exactly what I am.

Maybe I don't deserve him. Just like my own life, I don't deserve to live.
Maybe if I step aside and let Yaoyorozu, the one he seems to love whisk him away, things will be easier.
I could become a famous pro and marry someone who truely loves me, someone who will cherish me as a person. Love me to no end. That's the life I want.

I don't want this tiring and one sided love, I want something new. Something big and beautiful.
Just like my flames.
I want my  love to burn bright, brighter than everyone else.
To fill me with a passion so large I could never let go, no matter the circumstances.
That's the life I want.

But first have to get through the biggest barrier of them all.

Todoroki.