"I'm not even half, as pretty..."

Weekend came.

I packed my bags, bidding goodbye to my parents as I dragged Kenma on the hoodie of his jacket. Our mom gave us ride snacks and even prepared lunch for the whole team.

Honestly speaking, I really don't know what to feel. Should I be excited or happy? Or mad? Disappointed? I don't know. We're going to a beach again, with Kuroo. As much as I hated to admit it, memories about the past flooded back into my mind last night like everything just happened yesterday. The wound itself is still fresh.

I shook my head, hiding my phone inside my bag, now paying my attention to my brother.

"For Pete's sake, can you stop playing for a while?"

I whined at Kenma, watching him play his video game on the cellphone. He might trip on his own foot, you know? I will just laugh at him when it happens. He shrugged his shoulders before quitting the game, stuffing his hands on the pockets of his jacket afterward and silently walked beside me.

The group and I decided to meet at the train station at exactly 9 in the morning and looking at my wristwatch, it's just 30 minutes before the said time. When we arrived at the station, everyone was already waiting for us. I guess they're excited too! Some of the members brought coolers and inflatable vests, totally ready for swimming.

"I bought our tickets," Kuroo explained. "Let's go?"

"Yoo-hoo!"

Lev cheered like a big baby, raising both of his hands into the air, followed by Yamamoto and Yaku. Kenma and I followed them silently as I noticed Kuroo walking in front of me, hands hidden inside his pants' pockets. I felt my heart ached a bit, making it harder for me to breathe for a moment.

His top, his pants, the shoes he's wearing...

...that's the exact outfit he wore on that day.

= = = = =

"We finally arrived!" I exclaimed, putting my bags down. I looked around as the cold breeze hit my face, making me close my eyes. It's calming my nerves down, relaxing my whole system.

The whole team immediately rushed to the water, splashing it at each other faces. They didn't mind taking a rest first but it's cute though, they're like small kids having their first time on the beach. Smiling, I fished out my camera out of my bag, capturing stolen pictures of them. That's when I mindlessly pressed the zoom button, only to focus it on Kuroo.

He's smiling, he's laughing. He's so handsome, so hot, and his laughter is like a melody to my ears.

Unconsciously pressing the shutter, I got a total of 30 shots. Slowly putting it the camera down, he accidentally looked at my direction so I immediately looked away, busied myself fixing my things.

What the hell am I even doing?!

"Y/N," I watched Kenma set his bags beside mine so I immediately hid my device inside my carrier.

"Aren't you going to join them?"

He shook his head, turning his phone on again, only to click the application wherein he failed to continue his game a while ago.

"When are we going to start the practice?"

I checked my watch. "At 4, I think. Maybe it's not that hot anymore. Thus, we're about to eat lunch."

"Okay," and then he focused his attention on the game.

Taking a heavy breath, I sat at the nearby chair in the terrace, subconsciously clutching my shirt near my chest. As much as I wanted to take a rest because of the long ride, it seems that my body isn't that tired yet. I just want to look at the boys playing at the water, skins shining as the sunshine hits it.

That's when Kuroo and my eyes met again, making my heart skip a beat.

Only if you knew, how much I liked you...

The way Kuroo moves, the way the wind blows his hair, everything is still mesmerizing. I want to hate him, I want to get mad at him. But as the days pass by, no matter how hard I try to avoid him, at the very end of the day, he's still on my mind.

Why would you ever kiss me? I'm not even half, as pretty.

As I realized, it's been roughly four months since everything happened. It's been four months since I told him directly on his face that I love him so much, that I don't want to play his game anymore, and instead, I want it to be serious. It's been four months since I gave myself to him since I surrendered under his touch since I moaned his name since I fooled myself that he liked me too.

But how could I hate him? He's such an angel...

He's such an angel, wearing a devil's costume.

I sat on the sand, looking at the starry sky above me. I can't sleep. We ran volleyball practices and played a game with three rounds. Looking at their movements earlier, they're having a hard time running and catching the ball at the sand. But, once they get used to it, it'll be easier for them to play on the court. One more practice tomorrow before going back to the city and we'll be fine.

I also made the team ran ten laps around the whole island, no joke. They came back, almost lifeless, collapsing on the sand. Well, I'm the manager and the coach also agreed to this so they can't object. Now, even Kenma is sleeping soundly at the respective rooms.

"Can't sleep?"

I looked up, only to see Kuroo without any top on yet a towel is wrapped around him. He's standing good three meters away from me, probably noticing the way I avoid him.

"Yeah," I whispered under my breath, playing with the sand below me.

"Can we talk?"

From my peripheral vision, I saw him glanced at me for a second before looking at the ocean stretched in front of us. I knew what he's talking about but I still asked him an,

"About?"

He bit his lip. "The past."

Sighing, I shrugged my shoulders. "Go ahead."

To be honest, I don't want to open up the topic anymore. Especially that it's just the both of us now. I feel so uneasy, uncomfortable. The atmosphere stirring between us is awkward.

"I'm sorry," he started as I bit my inner cheek. "For everything, I did to you, Y/N. I'm sorry, for breaking your heart. I know I hurt you so much yet now you're still here with my team, helping us to get to Nationals. You're still here, doing everything you can to support us. You can back out, you can decline, you can ditch us, but you didn't."

He sighed. "I don't deserve you."

Mindlessly, a tear escaped my left eye but I'm quick to wipe it away as I didn't mutter any word out.

"I took everything away, Y/N. But still, in the end, I pushed you away. I'm too scared for commitments at that time. As much as I wanted to accept your feelings, in reality, I'm not yet sure about myself. I don't want you to get attached to me then in the end, I'm just going to break up with you. It's much more painful, right? I'm so sorry."

"But now, I want to prove myself to you. That I'm not the same Kuroo you knew before. I changed myself for you and I'm not the same playboy who used to play with your heart. Not the same playboy you fell in love with. I want to be better for you, Y/N. But considering your actions, you're avoiding me already. I know you're scared of me, scared that when you get attached and eventually fall in love with me again, I'll leave you hanging once more."

He stifled back a cry.

"I made you join the team so I can prove it to you. And, shameful for me to ask you this but I will swallow my pride for you, Y/N..."

As he stopped for a while, I stared back at him, seeing those tears falling from his eyes. He's not lying at me, he's very sincere. Under the moonlight, those tears falling from his eyes reflect its light.

"Can you give me a second chance?"

"I..."

I bit my lip, finally letting the tears I'm trying to hold back, stream down my face as I ran to him, giving him a very tight hug. I cried on his shoulders, wishing to never let go of him again. I don't want to lie at myself anymore, I don't want to restrain these overflowing feelings for him anymore. For once, let me be honest with myself.

"Kuroo," I touched his face. "I'm giving you a second chance..."

Watching him blink twice, a very beautiful smile appeared on his face. As he was about to say something again, I put my index finger above his lips.

"But promise me you'll wait for me."

"I will, Y/N!" His voice turned louder, while his left hand rested on my waist while the other one supported my back.

"I will, I promise, Y/N. I'm never letting you go again."

That's the only answer I want to hear.

I closed my eyes, catching Kuroo's lips, snaking my hands around his neck as tears kept falling down our faces. He gave back the same energy and sensation I'm giving him using the connection while he pulled me into his body more. The kiss isn't that hungry and lustful instead, it's full of love and affection.

Promise me you'll wait for me...

...because I will surely come back for you.