Dear Jordyn,
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Jordyn, I'm sorry I'm not perfect. We are different. We come from two different places, stay in different appartments. But it's you, I've found myself happier with. From the day I have known you. You've always made my life seem like this beautiful aura, this majestical fantasy that I don't wanna come out of. I'm so sick and tired of playing hide and seek. I'm so tired of seeing the person I could keep with myself - her being around other people, knowing fully well about how things might've gone through between us if we were that close. 

I keep on getting so emotionally attached to you. You let your guard down for me and what I did was just keep you away from me everytime. I never realised your feelings for me. You kept saying it, thinking that we could make the greatest twin flames of all times. But what I did was betray you, desert you and just come back to you as a friend. I swear my mind is whimsical. I keep on wanting to be near you but the inner demon jokes about my weakness for you. It tells me to stay away from being too close to you. I know everyone knows us as friends but maybe...someday m̶e̶ a̶n̶d̶ y̶o̶u̶  m̶e̶  we could be something from just more than friends.

I failed us. I never thought of you. I ignored you, kept you away from me and I always kept my distance from you, never loved you like a lover, rather friend zoned you, hid my emotions and created this mess now. I don't want you to be hurt. I'm aware of your feelings for me. I knew about it all before this. I created a hellfire and burnt my self consciousness in it.
You're a charming young lady and I'm so late in my own work.

You're a shooting star that I didn't make a wish to, since I didn't believe in mythology.

I'm sorry, Jordyn. Maybe you deserve someone better than me. I wanted to love you but I couldn't because of the fucking way I am. The moments we spent are forever stored in my mind. Remember the time you called me from the telephone booth while I stood outside, talking to you on my cell phone? That deep stare from your eyes made my heart fluttery. I couldn't keep calm but just get lost in your fits of laughter. Everytime I made a lame joke, you'd make it seem like it was alright but laugh at my foolishness. Remember how I promised to be your closest friend forever and you said that we could maybe - think of ways to take it to the next level. I faked a smile and walked away to the subway in the rain. This tantalizing feeling in me is eating the soul out of me. I betrayed you, Jordyn. But I love you.

I'm not sure if you'd love me again after the fight we had at the party last night. I'm a shipwreck. I never write like this but I just don't know - I had my emotions take the best of me. I fucking care about you. I didn't realise that deep stare was a sign. It was a sign to hold you close and never let you go. But all I thought was -

Hey, friends don't look at friends that way, don't they? Lovers do and we aren't so. We aren't some goofy teenage lovers from the '80s.

Little did I know, I hadn't mentally grown out of it. I needed your presence and I still desire for it. You might not forgive me. But I love you, Jordyn. This intellectual dork out here loves you and wants you in his life.

I hope you're taking care. I don't want to ruin your Sunday. But I just thought I should send this to you. You need a break. I'm always here for you, Jordyn. You're a mystery I never solved carefully. I love you, sending you my love and all my support.

Yours sincerely,
Spencer Reid.

I hope you liked it !

Woah, Spencer Reid is dominating the book. HE IS RUNNING TOWARDS WORLD DOMINATION NOW. But I hope I stayed true to the theme you told me about. I know I have some other requests to do but I did the Spencer Reid ones today since I was in the mood lmao.

Lots of love,
Anurima