You know your pupils dilate, when you see the key to your heart's gate.

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<< raqeeba's p.o.v >>

*Buzz*

Ugh.

*Buzz*

Ughh!

*Buzz*

Fuck off!

*Buzz*

I said fuck the shut up!

*Buzz*

I swear to God up shut already!

*Buzz*

Ughh

I cursed under my breath before roaming my hands around the bed searching for the damn buzzing object.

3:30 AM

First. Who the fuck got my phone here because I clearly didn't!
Second. Who put an alarm of 3:30 AM! That's like my prime time of sleeping!
Third. What's that horrifying wallpaper!? And where on Earth is my husband!?

I sat up looking at the huge block capital words on my screen as my wall-freakin- paper.

DON'T
FREAKING
SLEEP
AGAIN
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wake up

I frowned. Why is my screen screaming?

I looked at the direction the arrow pointed at, that is to my left and immediately felt my breath get stuck up in my throat.

What. The. Actual. Fuck.

Trails of candles lit on each sides of the rose petalled path making sleep almost vanish from eyes. I could hear the loud beating of my heart as I finally got down from the bed, stepping straight on the floor, letting the softness of flowers touch my skin.

Oh sweet Mousses!

Following the light I stopped at the end of the stair which led up to the terrace, and looked at the post-it there.

DON'T BE LAZY
climb up <3

I couldn't help but chuckle at those words before again following the path of flowers and candles until I finally came to a stop right at the center of the terrace.

There was pin drop silence everywhere and all I could see at that moment was darkness. But for some reasons I didn't fear it anymore, maybe because of the moonlight that casted upon me. I looked up smiling at the fresh air and the shinny moon light as it hit my face before turning around and carefully examining the place.

We had our pool on the terrace so I made sure that I was extra aware of everywhere and everything I stepped on, for I of course didn't just want to drown myself to death.

Just yet.

A shiver ran down my spine the moment cool breeze hit me right on my back making my hair a bigger mess than what it initially was. I rubbed my arms, crossing them in front of my chest, thank God I was wearing my plush fluffy pajamas today.

Looking around the place I tugged a few strands of my hair behind my ear as I slowly started walking around the place. I had forever been afraid of the darkness to a point where I didn't even realize how peaceful and calming it can be at times.

I smiled.

Out of every lesson I learned from him. Being okay with yourself and for yourself no matter when, where or how is one of the biggest of all times.

Walking alone for a moment, my smile immediately dropped the minute some absolutely familiar smell hit my nose.

No...

My head frantically moved from one side to the other as my legs increased their pace on its own. Please tell me I'm not dreaming. I kept sniffing my way around with my eyes searching for the culprits behind my sleeplessness now.

Where on Eart---

I jumped the moment bright light came out from my left all of a sudden making me shriek. Wait what? My mouth dropped the moment it landed at our huge ass pool which literally glowed from the light coming from inside it.

You've got to be shitting me!

But that wasn't all that caused my eyes to literally buldge out from my sockets, it was the god-damned perfectly set up table right in the middle of the pool that caught my undoubted attention. And as if that wasn't enough I found my mouth drop at was on it.

Food.

Tons and tons of food. Starting from drinks to starters to main course to deserts. There was food everywhere all over the table. An excited shriek escaped my mouth as I jumped and jogged my way to the edge of the pool. I looked at the million dollar table that stood right in the middle of the pool making me curse under my breath. There is no way I can afford to reach there without having to drown in there!

Ughhh!

I sighed biting down onto my bottom lip. Oh god. Hell I wasn't even that great at swimming! My eyes landed on the little post-it that stood right near the steps of the pool on the railing which I immediately reached to and pulled out.

Can't get wet for your sausages can you?

I gasped reading those words hell yes I can! And I will!

Giving one list look to the table of my dreams, I cursed under my breath before shaking my head.

It's now or never, Raqeeba!

For the love of food. You HAVE to do this!

Taking a deep breath I shivered as the cool breeze hit me right in the face. Not even bothering to open my night suit I simply tied my hair up in a bun before grabbing the railing on each side of the steps that decended down and slowly dipped my leg down immediately pulling it back up. To my surprise the water seemed pretty much warm making me realax but the moment cool air hit my leg it made me shiver.

"God be my resting place and my protection--" with that I started chanting my prayers as I squeezed my eyes shut and started ascending down the five or six steps, but of course given the kind of clumsy as fuck kind of a person I am. I had to slip down with a pretty much healthy-splashy manner making me fall right on my face and my sink in the water.

"OHMYGAWD!OHMYGAWD!" Panicked, I quickly steadied myself, already being drenched from head to toe as I looked finally ducked my face out and snapped my head towards the table.

Please let my food be safe!

I sighed in relief looking at its stable form. Thank God. From taking daddy long steps to trying to float like a plastic to doing a vomit worthy attempt to swim, I finally ended tip toeing my way to the treasure I call food.

FINALLY

I thanked my lady luck the moment I saw the perfect sized and tall under water bench. That was there on the either side of the table. Jumping inside the pool I finally managed to get myself seated.

Oh god.

The things you do for love.

I grabbed the little towel on the table wiping off my face as my eyes glowed at the amount of food that was all placed perfectly in front of me.

Lasagna, burger, pizza, sausages, cheese balls, meat balls, noodles, steaks, fried chicken, juices, pastries, ice cream, pasta, coke, fries, fried rice, tacos, tiramisu and what not. You name it and you'll find right here.

I'm an elephant or what?

You are.

Ya but he doesn't know that!

He cooked for you for a week.

Ugh whateverrrr!

I'd be lying if I say that this isn't my dream.

And even though I know I won't even be able to eat even 10% of the food here. I can't help but be thrilled about the fact that I have them all to myself!

Call me I'll mannered but the thought of waiting for that specific someone didn't even cross my mind once as I grabbed the fork and knife before immedietly cutting a portion of lasagna out and placing it on to my plate.

Heaven.

I thought and grabbed a fork full of it and was about to devour into it's taste when my hand stopped right when the food was an inch away from my mouth.

Holy mother of dumplings!

My mouth dried as my eyes trailed all the way down from his pure blue eyes to his straight nose, pink lips, perfectly chiseled jaw, prominent Adam's apple, down to the extremely toaned and well defined six pack abs and finally landing on to that oh-so-tough v-line located right where the obliques meet the transversus abdominis muscles before his bottom disappeared right inside the clear water below. Now that ladies and gentlemen is nothing but a perfect physical display of all his hard work in the gym and discipline in the kitchen.

THIS SNACK IS MY HUSBAND YOU ALL!

Blood rushed all the way from my arms to my neck, ears and cheeks before they settled into a warm red hue.

Why am I feeling hot again?

I'm right inside the pool filled with water for calling out loud!

Scanning him for what seemed like the hundredth time, this time my eyes finally settled on those plump pink lips as I saw them slowly turn into a smirk making me immediately look away.

Oh god.

"Someone looks red."

Okay if I wasn't literally red then. I so fuckin undoubtedly am now. Something about his voice made my toes curl as I pressed my thighs together.

What the heck, Raqeeba!?

I swear I have nooo idea what's happening to me!

Passing him a small shy smile I looked down at my plate again before immedietly shoving the food in my hand inside my mouth. I moaned at the amazing taste of the lasagna burst through my taste buds as I closed my eyes.

Heaven.

"Like it?" My eye lids shot up at his question before I grinned at him.

"Love it!" He just chuckled at my words before muttering something on the line of 'of course you will'.

Grabbing another spare plate from the side I filled it with the food before finally placing it on the other side of the table towards him.

"Bon appetit!" He just smiled at my words, making the dimple at the corner of his mouth pop out or dig in? Whichever makes sense.

"Bon appetit." I giggled at him before reaching out for the fries and shoving them inside my mouth. I could feel the way his eyes never left me, making me conscious as I shivered under his gaze,but that didn't stop from tasting each and everything on the table whatsoever.

Shyness is different but this is food we're talking about. Duh.

"By the way." I chewed on my food as I narrowed my eyes at him to which he nodded me to continue

"What's the occasion?" I cringed at how hopeful I sounded all of a sudden. I mean it's not that he remembers right...

Right?

Plus my official birthday has just begun anyway. Hardly four hours from midnight.

I waited for him to say something, but instead he just shrugged before tilting his head to the side, like he was in some deep thought.

"Nothin. Just a thank you? Plus you didn't have dinner."

My mouth formed an 'O' as I nodded.

Oh...

"Why?" He asked.

I shook my head giving him a tight lipped smile.

"Nothin. Just love it!"

His eyes slightly widened, while I looked down at my plate continuing to eat. There was silence for what seemed like an eternity before he almost inaudibly whispered.

"Do you?"

"Huh?" My head snapped at his direction as I frowned.

What did he say?

I looked at him with questioning eyes while he just kept staring at me, as if capturing me in his gaze before repeating.

"Do you love it ?" My breath stuck in my throat the moment those words escaped his mouth. For some reasons there seemed to be some way more insights to his question.

Questions I wasn't afraid to answer.

"Yes." I whispered. Looking straight into his eyes.

Oh god.

"Y-yes, I-I do." This time I quickly looked down at my plate filling my mouth with anything and everything my hands could reach for as I tried to hide the redness of my cheeks and the smile threatening to escape my lips.

Taking a quick glance at him, my heart couldn't help but do somersaults at the sight of him smiling while looking down at his plate too, biting the corner of his mouth.

He's not smiling for the food right?

"I'm flattered." He replied.

With that we just sat there, having random small talks and laughing at how silly we were when we were young and dumb.

He told me how Mom used to scare him and the kids everytime they nagged for going closer to the waves, while they were at the beach, saying that they were  nothing but monster's tongue which  would slurp the three of them away. While I told him how everytime Mummy went on a trip to India she would get those hena because it used to scare the shit out of me and stop me from throwing tantrums while eating.

I had never seen Nuraan, so carefree and content. Like he had no care of the world and was actually enjoying the time we were spending.

Everything was going fine and perfect until I as usual decided to kick it at a different notch.

Ugh.

"Mhmm" I moan escaped my mouth the moment the chocolate from the pastry literally melted on my tongue, making me close my eyes at its deliciousness.

HEAVEN

"Ahm" I heard him clear his throat making me open my eyes.

"Oh my gawd Nuraan, you HAVE to try this!"
He just kept looking at me before shaking his head.

"That's chocolate."

I couldn't stop myself from making the 'are you dumb?' face.

"Soo??"

"I'm not having that, Wife."

"Yes you are."

"Nope."

"Yes please!"

"I don't even like chocolate."

"You'll love it! Trust me."

"No."

"Pleasee"

"Nope."

"Just a little!"

"Nah."

"Please Nuraan... Please please please please. You know I HATE sharing but more than that I hate people hating something I love. And because I'm from the 'forever team chocolate' squad. I'm not at all comfortable with letting you go with not having it! You HAVE to like it! At least try!"

I'm not being dramatic I just have this thing with me...

He just sighed rolling his eyes. "Fine."

I shrieked.

"Just a little though." He butted.

I shrugged before just taking a tiny amount of pastry in between my index and thumb before stretching my hand to the other side of the table.

He looked a bit taken aback at my action before his eyes shifted to mine and a smirk formed at the corner of his mouth. Uh-oh.

Why didn't I take the spoon again!?

My eyes serched for a clean spoon and as soon as I found it and I was tempted to pull my hand back and that, I did. Untill he grabbed a hold of my wrist stopping me.

I couldn't feel my breath get stuck in throat the moment he took in my fingers in his mouth sucking on it. Quite literally. His eyes didn't leave mine once before he pulled back licking his lips.

"Mmm. Love it." He said and I swooned at the sudden huskiness of his voice.

"But I guess I need more...to taste. If you know what I mean." I didn't miss the playful glint in his eyes as a deep red hue settled on my cheeks right from my neck.

I literally feel hot despite being in this pool.

The playfulness and admiration in his eyes as he looked at me made a sudden sense of confidence rush through my veins and before I know, I slowly pulled my hand back before, putting my index in my mouth sucking on it all the while staring square at his eyes.

His widened and I didn't once miss the way they darkened all of a sudden.

Pulling my finger out in what I attempted to make in a little 'sexy' manner, I let it linger on my lips.

"I think you've had enough--" I said as I grabbed the orange juice in the wine glass, drinking elegantly as I continued "--to taste. Unless..."

Keeping the glass back I grabbed the spoon finally taking the last bite of my pastry as I said.

"You wanna eat it."

Wait what?

My eyes widened the moment I found him choke in his saliva.

Shi shit shit shit.

WRONG WORDS YOU DUMB BITCH!

THAT IS NOT HOW I MEANT THOSE WORDS TO COME OUT I SWEAR! UGH!

OH SHUT IT.

YES PUHLEASEE.

WE BOTH KNOW WHAT YOU MEANT.

NOO! UGH!

DIRTY BISCUIT HEHE.

SHUT UP HEARTY!

YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE WATCHED 50 SHADES THAT DAY.

WTF!?

I was internally screaming inside my head for saying the wrong words at the wrong time.

What was I thinking??

Eat it. Ughh.

I could see all the confidence I had in me earlier drowning away with the move of water. Fuck fuck fuck. I clenched my jaw ignoring the wild beating of my heart as I sneaked a look at him.

I could see the way he stiffned at my words, his calm hands which rested on the table earlier were still there just that they were balled into a fist now while his his gaze was fixed on me in an unnatural manner. The man wasn't even blinking!

Gulping I quickly put the spoon down, slowly.

I'm sleepy...

Coward.

Fuck off.

Clearing my throat I jumped down the bench immediately sinking under the water until it hit my chin.

"I-I'm don---"

Before I could even complete with my words I saw him get down too and as if at a speed of lightning he was inside the water getting under the table before swimming his way right in front of me, making me shriek as I pushed myself backwards, immediately falling back.

Arms wrapped around me in a secure position, pulling me back up with a jerk making me instinctively rest my hands on his chest as I gaped. Oh god.

"You're done?" He asked, making me nod as I meekly looked up at him through my lashes. I couldn't help the loud thudding of my heart as my eyes landed straight into his dilated orbs which looked back at me with unbearable intensity.

"Good." Was all he said before his arms completely sneaked around my waist lifting me up as he dragged the both of us effortlessly to the very edge of the pool away from the deep end, making me gently rest down on my feet cornering me and rested his arms on my either side caging me in them, while my back was pressed against the edge.

I bit onto my bottom lip as my eyes landed on his. Oh how I wanted him to close this distance already. His eyes mirrored mine before I finally felt him lean closer making me immediately close my eyes waiting.

"You'll catch cold, Wife."

I couldn't help but frown, still not opening my eyes.

I swear to God for such a successful businessman he sure beats around the bush A LOT!

"Lets get you out of this, shall we?"

Or not.

I stopped breathing the moment I felt him slightly tug at the top of my night suit making my eyes snap open.

I could feel the way his eyes searched mine for some kind of hesitation in them but I am pretty sure he'd find none because let's face it. For some stupid reasons I wasn't feeling insecure about my body as much as I usually do.

I didn't say anything, as I simply looked into his eyes before lifting my hands and resting them on either side of his torso before slowly pulling him closer, all of a sudden feeling shy at my action as I looked down before gently resting my forehead on his chest.

At this point I don't even know what I'm doing but I hope he takes the hint.

A smile formed on my lips at the satisfaction of hearing his heart beats which were as accelerated as mine as he pulled me closer before simply placing a soft and tender kiss on my temple, making my stomach go bazzinga.

I gasped in excitement at the feeling of his slender finger slightly brushing through the bare skin of my waist, while he gently pulled up my drenched top above my head, while I raised my hands up, letting him.

My eyes followed his every move, while his never left mine. Not even glancing down at the skin he had just exposed leaving me only in my plain and boring black cotton bra. Ugh! I mentally cursed myself. Why do I not owe one, ONE lace bra for calling out LOUD. What the fuck!

Gently keeping my cloth, beside the pool, I could feel the way his fingers brushed through the waist band of my pajama. I gulped trying to calm my breathing down as his eyes met mine while he gently tugged them down before pulling them out and stacking it with its pair, until he was finally done.

I was honestly impressed at his not-gonna-creep-you-out experience. In fact I was pretty much very thankful for him to not eye ball me yet and just look into my eyes. His fingers brushed through my inner thighs making me squirmer at the touch before he again rested them on either side of my waist pulling me closer until our foreheads were resting together.

"Close your eyes." He whispered, to which I immediately obeyed.

A small shriek escaped my lips the moment I felt his hands behind my knees and at the back of my waist until he hoisted me up bridal style while I wrapped my arms around his neck as he got us out.

"Don't open until I ask you to." I nodded with closed eyes. I felt my brows crease the moment I felt him sit me down on something soft beneath. I knew we weren't at our rooms yet. I could still feel the wind and I for a fact knew we didn't have anything like that in our terrace.

However, my attempt to knock my brain stopped the moment I felt him dry my hair with a towel making me click my tongue.

"Nuraan--"

"Shh" i decided to obey again as I simply kept my eyes close while he did nothing but wipe me dry, entirely. A blush settled on my face as I wonder what must have went through his mind as he literally wiped my entire body which was just in a flimsy boring cartoonish underwear and a cotton black bra. I could feel the way he wrapped a robe around me before pulling back, making me smile. There was silence for a while until I heard some shuffling.

"Now."

I stopped breathing the moment his hot breath hit my ear. He's so close. Biting onto my bottom lip, I slowly fidgeted with my fingers, waiting  for a while, before finally opening my eyes.

A gasp escapade my lips the moment my eyes took in the surroundings.

What the actual fuck?

My jaw dropped looking at the perfect white canopy bed at the very corner of our terrace, in which I was currently seated on. Bright yellow tiny lights lit the darkness of the place perfectly, like the beautiful twinkling stars that elevated the beauty of the dark sky.

When?

How?

Why?

Trillions of questions filled my head as my eyes wondered around in search of that familiar face until everything stopped the moment my ears perked up at the strings of the guitar.

Snapping my head at the same direction from where the music came from, I fought the erge to breathe as my eyes zeroed on that extremely familiar figure which sat comfortably on a stool at a distance of six feet apart from me, with a guitar in his hand and eyes focused right on me.

Breathe.

I could see the way his grip on his instrument tightened, before he slowly licked onto his bottom lip, looking down at it and started jamming a music until his eyes met mine again.

"You gave me a shoulder when I, needed it."

I froze the moment those words left his mouth.

Wow.

"You showed me love when I wasn't feeling it"

It took me a moment to realize that maybe there were meanings to the words that escaped his mouth.

"You helped me fight when I was giving in."

For some stupid reasons my insides churned at his words. His eyes were closed as he sang those words while his hands played effortlessly along the strings.

"And you made me laugh when I was losing it."

At that moment I couldn't help but smile at his words. To say that his voice is as gorgeous as his features is still the annoying factor at the back of my head.

Why does he get all the perfection?

"Cause you are, you are. The reason why I'm still hanging on. Cause you are, you are
The reason why my head is still above water."

His eyes snapped open the moment those words escaped his lips making my eyes widened and my smile drop at the sudden heaviness that stuffed at the back of my throat.

" And if I could, I'd get you the moon, and give it to you. And if death was coming for you, I'd give my life for you."

I always thought it was stupid and utmost dramatic for people to cry when they were happy. Probably because I had never really been in a situation like that. Ever. However, today, as I was fortunate enough to sit right in front of the man I loved and watch him sing for me, I couldn't help the tears that escaped my eyes.

As much as I wanted to hit him for being so depressing I couldn't help but for once feel special and loved by him and the emotions that swirled through his eyes.

"'Cause you are, you are
The reason why I'm still hanging on
Cause you are, you are
The reason why my head is still above water
And if I could, I'd get you the moon
And give it to you
And if death was coming for you
I'd give my life for you"

I didn't know what other turn our relationship would take in the future. And honestly I don't even want to. And even if I was given a chance to go back in time, there's nothing I would change. Absolutely nothing. I wouldn't change our fights, or misunderstandings or anything in general for it was all those little things that made us who we are and what we have.

And there's nothing more I could wish for, or would wish for.

"And if death was coming for you, I'd give my life for you."

I looked at him as he slowly kept the guitar aside, before standing up and walking to me in all his glory, it was then did I realize that he was already dressed in a sweatshirt and shorts while his hair was still slightly damped with the water. He looked so fresh with his glowing face as he slowly stood right in front of my sitting figure before leaning down and gently taking my chin in between his index and thumb, softly tilting it up before leaning forward until I could feel his breath on my lips.

"Happy birthday, Mrs. Khan."

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Ughhh I'm nervous af!
Lmaooo.

Anyway I've nothing to blabber about today except...

MY CRUSH TEXTED ME YOU GUYS!
hehe. I'm blushinggg

Lol. Kidding that's literally NO big deal.
Like NO BIGGIE AT ALL
Huh, whateverrrrr
Like I care.
😏

Lastly!
HOW WAS ITTTT?🙈

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