I know I said, "Goodbye," and, baby, you said it too
But when I touch her, I feel like I'm cheating on you
I thought that I'd be better when I found someone new
But when I touch her, I feel like I'm cheating on you

.....

......

<<nuraan's p.o.v>>

Fucking hell.

I can't believe that I actually thought that this girl would be those quiet and shy type who doesn't speak. Cause well... Let's just admit it she speaks....A LOT!

I rested my head back on the head of the Couch as I simply closed my eyes, I pinched the bridge of my nose as I could feel a headache coming up. I stayed there roted at my spot until I heard the door of the walk-in creak a bit open, but I did not bother opening my eyes and continued to stay static. After what took like hours I could here those slow sounds of someone tiptoeing around the room and it doesn't take a genius to know who it was.

I slowly opened my eyes but did not bother moving an inch. Her head bobbed from left to right before she did a mixture of tiptoeing and hopping around the room and finally plopped herself on the bed without a thud? How much does she weighs again? I saw her make a blissful expression before she threw herself back and within seconds she was dead asleep.

I couldn't help but chuckle at the animated character she was as I slightly shook my head. I looked at the time to find it's 1 in the morning. I look back at my laptop to see the upgradation still going on. After going through the entire stock exchanges for today I wait for my it's completion and just rest my head back. I could feel my eye lids get heavy which was so rare nowadays and I was thankful so before I know I was already fast asleep.

Can this day get any longer?

.....

My eyes shot open the moment I heard a faint scream. I looked around until my eyes landed on the small petite figure with a panic expression covering her features. Her eyes were still closed but she kept muttering something which with all honesty wasn't clear to my ears. Her hands in a fist as she kept it close to he chest.

I jolted up from my seat cursing under my breath as I jogged to the bed. My brows frowned looking at her face which was glistening with sweat.

"No. Please please please Dad." She kept repeating those words and throwing her hands around in an attempted to probably push someone away.

While me being me had simply no idea of what I should do at such a moment.

"Hey" I tried grabbing her hand but as if my simple touch has burned her she roughly pulled away.

"No! D-don't touch me!" I could see the way pool of tears kept flowing down her closed eyes, Her nose red and the corners of her lips tugged downwards and she kept on weeping. She cries like a baby.
At this moment I'd be lieing if I say that I didn't panic. I was freaking out! I have never been good at consoling anyone. Hell I have never had to!

She face palmed and kept shaking her head "I-I will always listen to you but please don't send me to the bad guys." At that moment I knew that this was going way too far so I did what I felt would be the best solution for such situations. I grabbed her hand and tried to pulled her up to which she tried to pull back again but this time I was prepared.

Moving a bit closer to her I sat on my knees. Grabbing her left wrist from my right hand while my other hand travelled all the way behind her back as I slowly pulled her up almost making her sit.

"Shhh shh shh it's ok, it's okay." I kept muttering those words as I slowly rested her left hand around my neck and wrapped my arms around her back pulling her closer to me. My right hand rested at the back of her head by which I kept soothing her soft hair while I held her on place with my left hand behind her back. She tried to free herself again but I just tightened my grip on her.

"Shhh baby it's okay. It's just me, it's me." I kept moving back and forth and that's when I realized how she was already sitting on my lap with both her legs on either side of me. I gulped at the realization and a sudden urge to pull away came to my mind, but as soon as it came, it was again thrown out of my mind as I felt something wet at the left side of my neck.

Shit.

"Please don't leave me alone." He words came out as a whisper and I tightened my grip around her. I don't know what came into me because the next thing I know was how my lips pressed onto her earlobe before I whispered back

"I would never." My thumb kept drawing circles on her back and when I felt her nerves calm down a little I repeated.

 
"I would never leave you."

As if those were the only words she wanted to here and the only thing she needed, I could feel her breath calm down and the next thing I know was the way her arms wrapped around my neck and she dug her face closer at the crook of my neck.

"Me neither." She whispered

To say I was left stunned by her words would be an understatement. I had a sudden urge to pull away and check if she's actually asleep or not. For some reasons those words left a mark. At that moment I realised, that it's not just her who wants someone to stay for themselves...

but Me too.

I stayed that way for a moment holding her in my arms until I could feel her stable breath. Turning a little to my right I gently lay her down on the mattress before fixing her pillow. My eyes rake through her soft features as I gently reach out my left hand to her face and rub my thumb below her eyes where I could still see traces of her dry tears. She didn't have the same panicked expression anymore instead her features were now calm like she was at peace.

I don't know why but everything about her never fails to amaze me. She's like a walking book of mystery with a tinch of anime touch in her. Something I least expected her to be. The moment she saw me with Anusha her expressions were calm, the time she was cursed for being the vamp in a relationship she was calm, but then according to my day's observation of her the only time she panicked was when she was left alone in the hall, where probably everything was quite and silent and the other was now.

A part of her mystery, is how she's calm in the storm and anxious in the quiet. I look at that innocent looking face which surely holds more secrets than one can imagine, and even though a part of me wants to unravel them all but there is always the other side of me which is holding me back. The sober part of me the rational one which just wants me to stay away. The part which knows that mystery creates wonders and wonder is the basis of man's desire to understand. I know that if I want to unfold this mystery I'd have a long way to go. I know after each secret I discover I'd want to uncover more. I'd want to know more, I'd want to be a part of her life which I sure as hell am not ready for.

I tuck a loose strand behind her ear as I couldn't help but take in her appearance. What could go wrong with such innocence? What could be the reason behind such extream terrified emotions? Dad? Does she mean Mr.Hussain? By the looks of it during the entire ceremony it's not difficult to understand that that man loved his daughter. Then who? Is she.. Is she adop---

My thoughts come to a halt when I see her stir in her sleep. I quickly pull my hand away from her face and just as I was about to get up I realize how her small fist cluched to my vest as she slept peacefully with her lips in a pout. I looked at the clock only to find out that it was already 3: 00 in the morning. So with a sigh I slowly laid down beside her on my right arm with our faces facing each other.

I kept my eyes closed for what seemed like hours while sleep was no where to be found. I opened my eyes only to find a not soo familiar figure in front of me. I was so accustomed and used to Anusha sleeping beside me that everything now feels a bit strange, and even though I hate to admit it I feel like this turn that my life has taken is all my fault. I gulped, just a month ago I had the girl I loved, the girl I was committed to with everything in me but no I wasn't a married man. And today I still have a girl beside me and I am a married man but.... I'm not exactly committed to her.

I remember how I always used to hold Anusha's hand in mine every time I went to sleep but now I have no one to hold on to.

That's not true.

Shut up.

Why did she have to do that to me?

I cleanched my jaw as her memories kept flashing by. Maybe that's the reason why I have lost my sleep. Because she's no more here with me. Or simply because I still can't bring myself to believe it completely that what we had is no more now. That she was my past and I have to move on.

But how?

I froze the moment I felt a hand wrap around my torso and something soft and silky under my chin. I looked at my wife only to find the side of her face pressed against my chest while her arms were around me. The fresh yet chocolate like smell from her hair filled my nostrils and at that moment I had no I idea of what I should do. Of what was rational and what was not.

I could easily move her hand away from me I could easily pull back but I didn't. Instead what I did filled me with shock as well. As if on instinct or some kind of reflex mechanisms my hands reached out for her waist as I pulled her closer to me caging her in my arms. It felt wired at first and I could feel the beating of my heart getting Wilder. It wasn't because I hadn't hugged a girl before but because there used to be someone who had this position earlier. If you would've told this thing to me a month ago then I would've laughed at you but today, I'm just left speechless at how quick life and people change.

I didn't realize how my grip on her tightened until I could actually feel the beating of her heart. I slightly pulled back to find her brows joinied together lightly. It didn't take me long to realize that she probably might feel a little uncomfortable so I delicately raised her head from my left hand and placed my right arm below her head and encircled my left arm around her waist. Her soft, calm, peaceful and even breathing somehow made me calm down too and I could feel my eyelids get heavy.

At that moment I knew. I knew that what I was doing was wrong. I knew that this probably is one of the most selfish I could be. I knew that the only reason I was holding on to her was just because of the comfort she offered and nothing more. It may seem like I'm taking her as some rebound but that's not true because she wasn't someone I intend to continue using. Never.

Today was the first time we ever spoke. And I can't help the feeling I got from her touches...

It seemed like I was drowning....

and she was the only live jacket that could save me.

And I held on to her....

Like she was the only thing I need.

°°°

Sooo... I was just thinking who will be better for Nuraan's role?

1. Ian Somerhalder.

OR

2. Nick Batemen.

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