I sat up on the bed after having another nightmare. I took a deep breath and looked over at the clock in the nightstand, it was 6:16 am and it was still dark. Since it's winter, sunrise is almost at 9 am. Crazy, I know. I'm used to having the sun out by 6 or 7 in the morning.

I decided to get up and put on a jacket before walking out of the room. I used the bathroom, brushed my teeth and then I tied my hair in a ponytail before I headed downstairs.

The guys were dead asleep still and the house was filled with pure silence. I went to the kitchen and decided to make some coffee and while I waited, I walked over to the shelf that was in the dining room. I looked over at the few pictures that Nick had there and I smiled a little. They were pictures of me when I was younger, alone, with him and/or with Maria.

I gotta say, I'm really grateful with how everything turned out and I'm very thankful that Nick took me in. Who would've thought, Nick Fury adopting a girl after rescuing her. He's such a softie, don't let that tough guy act fool you.

When the coffee was done, I poured some in a cup then I put some creamer and sugar in it. There was obviously enough coffee for the guys for when they wake up. I grabbed my cup and then I went outside, it was snowing a little. I sat on the porch and I just stayed there, thinking about everything and nothing at the same time, as I finished my coffee. I heard some noise inside and I just assumed it was one of the guys, probably Steve since he's an early bird. But I realized I was wrong when I saw Bucky walking out of the house.

"Morning." I said

"Hey, you." He looked at me "You're up pretty early."

"You are too." I said and he sat next to me

"Well I think I slept enough." He sighed

"Still having trouble sleeping?" I looked at him

"Kinda."

"It's the house, right? It creaks at night, it makes it hard to sleep sometimes."

"It does creaks." He let out a soft chuckle "But it's not that."

"Is it the bed? The pillow?" I asked "Does Steve snores too much?"

"You know what? He does snores, it's insane."

"I know, it makes me nuts, you would think that after 70 years of sleep he would learn not to snore."

"I concur." He chuckled

"Well you could sleep in Sam's room."

"Hell no."

"My room is available if you want." I said and he looked at me arching an eyebrow "I didn't mean it like that, oh my god." I ran a hand over my forehead kinda embarrassed

He laughed a little. "Then how did you mean it?"

"I meant like, I don't mind switching beds with you, you perv." I said and he chuckled

"Relax, I know."

"Well that." I said "My room doesn't creak."

"Tempting." He nodded slowly "Thanks, doll, but I think it's okay."

"Well suit yourself." I shrugged "I made coffee, by the way, in case you want a cup."

"Thanks for telling me."

"Of course."

Bucky stayed with me for a while until he went back inside to go grab a cup of coffee, but I decided to stay outside for a few more minutes. I was there for a while, till I started to get cold so I went back inside. I washed the coffee cup and saw the time on the stove. 7:32 am. It was still early so I just decided to lay on the couch and watch tv and I did find a channel in English thank god. Although it was just the news, but I don't care. At least it wasn't in danish.

Like half an hour later I heard some footsteps coming down the stairs and when I turned my head I saw Steve.

"Hey, you're up." He said walking towards me

"Yup." I nodded

"How are you feeling?" He asked lifting my legs so he could sit on the couch, then he placed them on top of his "You woke up pretty early."

"Yeah, I think that I'm still a little anxious." I replied "But I feel a little better than yesterday."

"That's good."

"I made coffee."

"I know, I could smell it from the room."

"You know? You snore too much, you don't let your poor friend sleep in peace." I told him

"What are you talking about?" He looked at me

I chuckled. "I'm kidding, it's just that Bucky said that he sometimes has a hard time sleeping and we were saying that it's because you snore."

"I do not snore." He shook his head

"Yes you do."

"I do not."

"You do." I nodded "It may be kinda light, but you do."

"Oh my god." He rolled his eyes

"And with Bucky's super soldier hearing, I bet the poor man can't even close his eyes."

"You're so exaggerated." He said and I just laughed.

(...)

* hours later *

"Cat, there's some mashed potatoes left in the microwave if you want more." Steve told me

He was in charge of dinner and it wasn't too bad. Mashed potatoes with bacon bits and cheese and some nuggets. 9/10 because he didn't make gravy.

"Thanks." I answered as I drank a sip from my water bottle

"So what's Cat short for?" Bucky asked "Is it for Catherine?" I was about to talk but he interrupted me "But you don't look like a Catherine.. unless it really is your name of course.. is it?."

"No, I'm not a Catherine." I shook my head

"Cathleen?"

"No."

"Catrina?"

"Kinda close, is Catalina."

"Is it really?" He said and I nodded "I like it."

"It's too long." I crinkled my nose

"It's a pretty name."

I shrugged. "It's okay."

"Why Cat and not Lina? That would be a good nickname too."

"Well Cat is shorter and cuter than Lina."

"Lina's nice, nobody calls you Lina?"

"No, it's just Cat."

"But why?"

I chuckled. "You don't like Cat?"

"I mean it's okay, I guess, Lina is prettier."

"Why Bucky and not Jamie or Jimmy if your first name is James?" I asked and he tilted his head "Ah? Gotcha there."

"Bucky sounds cooler."

"It does." I nodded "Nobody has called me Lina, like ever, it's always been Cat."

"Well Lina sounds better."

I rolled my eyes laughing. "Whatever you say."

"Good, then Lina it is."

"Don't call me Lina."

"But why? I like it."

I just sighed. "Alright, do whatever you want, I don't care whatsoever."

"Good."

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* hours later, let's suppose it's late night already *

It's 11 pm and the guys are watching a movie. Although Cat is not really watching it since she was doing another word search. But Sam and Steve are the ones watching it since Bucky is helping her to find the last word, which she can't find and has already gave up saying that the word is just not there."

"I swear, I think they forgot to put it." She said "It's not there."

"Can you be quiet for a second? I'm trying to concentrate and your voice is distracting me." He said to her while he was still looking for the word

"You're not gonna find it."

"Shh."

After a few minutes, Bucky ended up finding the word.

"Give me that." He took the pen out of Cat's hand and circled it "I found it."

"Oh my god! Half an hour later." She said taking back the little book "Thanks, by the way."

"You're welcome." He said watching as she wrote the date on the top corner of the page

He noticed the little tattoo on her wrist. It was a little semicolon that had butterfly wings on its side.

"How many you got?" He asked pointing at it

"Like nine, I think." She replied

"Where?"

"Um, right here." She lifted her other arm showing him the rose she had tatted in her wrist "And here." She lifted her pajama short showing him the phrase she had there

It was high so even if she had shorts, it couldn't be seen unless she lifted up a little bit. It said "and here you are living despite it all".

"And I have a few more, but those are in places that I usually have covered." She said

"When did you get them?"

"Well my first one was the rose and I got it when I was 17, I went with Natasha since I was a minor." She replied "The rest I got them at 18 and 19, the last one I got is on my ribs. Is very small."

"Are they all small?"

"Kinda." She shrugged "I think the biggest one is the one I have on my back."

"Did it hurt?"

"That one yes, like hell." She nodded "You like tattoos?"

"Well I don't hate them."

"Would you get one?" She asked

"I don't know."

"It'll heal fast because of the serum."

"What if it also ends up fading away?"

"Wanna test it out?" She tilted her head "With some stick and poke?"

"You're crazy, absolutely not." He said almost instantly, which made Cat laugh "I don't trust you to do stick and pokes on my skin."

"What do you know? What if I'm good?"

"Well something tells me you've never done it before, or am I wrong?"

"Well no, but.."

He cut her off. "It's not happening."

"Ugh, whatever, dude." She rolled her eyes laughing "Suit yourself."

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A/N:
Yes, I will be posting a photo of Cat's tattoos later on lol I put the butterfly one at the beginning