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Earlier today I wasn't really sure of what today would bring and what I would bring today.

I need to finish my mission, so maybe I should text Hoseok and tell him to text Yoongi, visit Namjoon or eat lunch at the restaurant Jin works at.

My mission was not done yet, my watch would be beeping so I still had things to work out, but really I didn't feel like it.

This morning when I woke up, I knew what I was supposed to do, but I didn't want to.

As unprofessional as it seems, I don't want to go back. I want to stay here.

I've only known Jungkook for 12 days, but he's dug a deep hole in my heart that only he fits in. In my 25 years of living, I've never felt this attached to a person.

At first I was sure it was something I was only imagining. The butterflies, the tickles, the happiness he brought me, the sadness that his sadness provoked. I thought it was something I made up because really I'm fucking lonely as well.

I've never had a boyfriend. I've had a best friend, but it turned out to be one sided. My parents are amazing, but I moved out at a young age, feeling the need to have my own space. I'm not good with people, I'm better by myself.

But with Jungkook, I feel comfortable, happy, serene and secure. It feels as when I'm in my home, I'm alone, but with someone.

As time have passed by and I felt my mission closing in, I've slowly realized that it's not something I'm imagining.

I like Jungkook.

I think he likes me too.

And I hate myself for it. I despise myself for all of it.

For falling for Jungkook, knowing I'll have to return to my cold and lonely home and for letting Jungkook fall for me, knowing that I'll have to leave him, because I can't stay.

I've been taught about this, have had meetings on the topic and lessons about what could happen if something like this happened. Because I'm not the first case.

We don't have many female travelers at TravelTen and there's one reason for that, women feel.

There's been multiple cases in which a female traveler has turned a blind eye to their mission, wanting to stay with their client, live a normal life in another time zone, forgetting all about their past and just be with the one they love. But it always turned out the same. Their light turned red, their mission failed and when they arrived back in the time they came from, they were fired and fined for risking to change the history.

I never thought I would become like those women. I'm better by myself, I don't like most people and most people don't like me. That's also why I'm one of the most trusted women travelers in TravelTen. I'm reliable, determined and professional. The company trusts me a lot, which again makes me pissed off that they got me a team leader that sent me off to a mission with the wrong informations.

However, we all surprise ourselves every now and then and not everything will go as planned, even though I was pretty confident in my abilities.

I've ended up exactly like those girls.

Jungkook has swept my feet from beneath me and I don't want to ever stand up again.

But my wants are insignificant in this case. If I choose to stay with Jungkook, I'll maybe have a few more weeks with him, but some time I will be pulled away and sent back to 2109. I have no say in this and it suffocates me to know that.

This morning, when what I wanted to do least was finish up my mission, Jungkook called me and asked me to come over.

I didn't hesitate to say no this time like the others, which annoys me. Now that I've admitted it to myself that I like Jungkook, I should try distancing myself. I should not add fuel to the fire and make myself fall even more and potentially make Jungkook fall too. I have to leave and I'm only making it worse.

I sigh as I look at my reflection in the mirror.

My hands are on the sink and I'm supporting my body on them.

I'm in Jungkook's bathroom. He told me he wanted me to come to his house and then he wanted me to meet someone. I wasn't sure who it was, maybe Jimin which would be awkward since I already met him yesterday.

I straighten up and stand on both my feet not leaning against the sink anymore. I take a deep breath, trying to forget my worries and focus on preparing myself for whoever I am going to meet. I put on a thin layer of makeup, only a faint eye liner, mascara and lipgloss. I'm touching my hair, contemplating on whether to tie it up or let it stay loose as it is right now.

I hear foot steps approaching and Jungkook suddenly appears in the mirror behind me. His eyes are locked on mine but I don't return the eye contact at first. I watch as he moves closer to me and feel his arms snake around my waist as he pulls me into his chest.

"You okay?" His voice is low and close to my ear and his arms hold me tightly against his chest. I can't lie, it makes me feel slightly better.

"I'm okay." I breathe out. I meet his eyes through the mirror and send him a smile, "Just a bit nervous." I reason why I seem a bit distant.

"Why?" He chuckles and leans his cheek onto my head.

Looking at us through the mirror my whole body starts to tickle and it's almost as if I don't even remember my worries anymore. We've only kissed once, but he's holding me like we're a newly made couple.

"I don't know, you won't say who you're introducing me to!" I reason and let out a giggle afterwards as he digs his face into my neck.

"You have no reason to be nervous." He whispers into my neck and starts pecking it gently. I tilt my neck, giving him more access as I feel his soft lips graze my neck, "They'll like you, I'm sure."

I don't pay much attention to his words as I'm focused on his lips and his breath brushing my neck and his arms squeezing my waist and pressing me against his chest.

Jungkook pulls away from my neck and places his chin on my shoulder, locking eyes with me through the mirror. His eyes move down a bit. He's checking out my body and I don't miss his the way his tongue pokes the side of his cheek—and I don't mind it at all.

I'm wearing a tight silk skirt that hugs around my legs and reaches just above my knees with a reversed v cut making the skirt look separated. I have chosen a simple but cute crop top to go along with it and a cardigan on top, but currently it's laying on the sink as I felt hot in it earlier.

This is the prettiest I've dressed up since I came here so far and the first time I've even dressed up. I just couldn't help but dress up a little nicer than usual as this is an obvious opportunity—and maybe I want to impress Jungkook a bit, which seems to work.

"You look absolutely beautiful, you know that?" He speaks in a low voice, recreating our eye contact but I break it and look away. His words make my cheeks burn and I can't look him in the eyes.

"You don't look too bad either." I joke and turn around in Jungkook's arms so I'm facing him. His arms won't let go, but loosen so I'm not squished against him.

I admire his outfit, starting at the black button up shirt which is not completely buttoned up as the two top buttons are loose. I move my eyes a bit down to his black pants, briefly wondering if we're going to a funeral with all the black clothes he's wearing. Honestly, I think it's really attractive and the color suits him well. His hair is down and messy as always. I almost want to tie it back as I tried to the other day.

I don't miss Jungkook's eyes that are glued to my face as I'm admiring his soft looking hair and his attractive features.

"Y/n?" Jungkook almost whispers and I look into his eyes, obeying even though he didn't directly tell me to look at him.

"Hm?" I hum, raising my eyebrows as I wait for him to talk.

But he doesn't. Instead, his eyes wander over my features for a while just as I did with his seconds ago, before he cups my left cheek and pull me in for a kiss.

I close my eyes and comply immediately. The kiss is gentle and innocent, different from our first kiss. He doesn't use his tongue, but simply moves his lips across mine and I do the same. Jungkook's thumb strokes my cheek gently which makes it burn. His other hand is still at my waist, holding it firmly and when he squeezes it I moan into the kiss, which comes as a surprise to me.

The kiss was not even heated, why did I moan?

Jungkook pulls away slowly, but not far as our faces stay close and our breaths mingle. However I feel my face grow hot and I have to look away. I don't know how, but he makes me feel so fucking shy. I can't look into his eyes. I want to hide away from his strong gaze, yet I still want his hands on me.

I can hear and feel Jungkook's breathy chuckle. He probably loves the effect he has on me, which only makes me even more embarrassed.

He puts his index and thumb under my chin and pull on it, making me look up at him, "You're really cute when you're flustered you know." He chuckles again.

I try to face away as before, but Jungkook forces me to stay facing him. I bite the inside of my lip while I observe as his eyes scans my features for a while before he lets go of me with a smirk and I dig my head into his chest, hiding my face.

Jungkook lets out a laugh, but squeeze me tight into him and rests his chin on the top of my head. It feels good, it's like I fit perfectly into his arms, as if I'm meant to be here.

"I guess that didn't help making you feel less nervous." Jungkook chuckles. I don't reply feeling small in his presence and I just dig my head deeper into his chest. Why is my whole body growing hot?

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"You're really quiet." Jungkook mutters, cocking his head at me.

"Well you won't tell me who I'm meeting or where and it's making me really nervous Jungkook." I admit, tucking my lip back between my teeth and biting on it as soon as I'm done talking.

Jungkook grabs my hand which makes me stop my nervous lip bite and instead I turn to look up at him. He gives me a closemouthed smile and entangle our fingers. A warmth spread from where his hand links with mine and up my arm where his arm touches every now and then as we walk and throughout my entire body.

We've gotten off the bus and Jungkook has literally told me nothing. I don't know where we're going, I don't know who we're meeting and I'm not so sure if I should be spending my work time doing everything else than work.

"We're going to a restaurant, it's not too far away from here." He explains and I scoff. That information is useless to my insatiable curiosity.

I start getting worried that this may be someone important to Jungkook...

"Am I meeting your parents?" The question pops out of me before I get to think about it, but I'm just really eager to know who it is. It just can't be his parents.

It would be terrible. It should never go this far and it will only mess with the story line if I make a good impression. I can't meet his parents. His expectations about me would get too high. I know I know I'm unable to meet his expectations, whatever they are. I cannot stay forever.

Jungkook starts coughing and his hand slips out of mine and hits himself on the chest to shorten the coughing fit.

He's definitely surprised by my question. His reaction tells me enough and I breathe out in relief.

"Who is it Jungkook!" I whine and slap his shoulder, getting really impatient.

Jungkook clears his throat and it looks like he's about to tell me, but as he looks up a smile shows on his face and words that doesn't answer my question come out, "We're here."

I look from Jungkook and to where he's looking. Jungkook grabs my hand again and pulls me with him. He stops before the entrance to the cafe, pulling on my arms so we were facing each other.

"Look. I'm nervous too. Really much actually." I can tell by his unfocused eyes that shift multiple times from my right to my left, "I haven't seen these people in a long time. I thought bringing you would calm my nerves. You've been around me so much lately and I want you to be here with me. I want you to meet them."

Them?

A long time since he saw them last?

My mood that has been slightly unstable today had brightened after I went to Jungkook's. He made me feel at ease, he made me forget about my worries and he simply said, made me happy.

But my heart drops as I realize who he's bringing me to meet.

I try not to make it visible on my face, but my heart clenches and sinks lower than what I'd expected it to. It's only now that I realize that I've dreaded this moment.

I came here to save Jungkook as my job. I started to get involved emotionally and actually wanted to save him, not just for making my boss proud or for the money. But all the time, no matter how much I wanted Jungkook to reunite with his friends, I've been dreading this moment.

The moment my mission is done.

"Y/n, is everything alright?" Jungkook's index lifts my chin up and I shake my head quickly. I must've zoned out.

I swallow thickly, feeling the sadness well up inside me, but this is Jungkook's happy moment. I can't ruin it. So I collect myself, put up a smile and nod.

Jungkook is way too excited for the moment to meet his friends again after two years to even notice how fake my smile is. He grabs my hand and drags me after him into the restaurant.

I try shaking off my emotions as Jungkook drags me deeper into the restaurant. I don't want to ruin the moment he's waited for for so long. I can't be the weight clinging around his ankle just as he's gotten out of the old one. I blink away my tears and gulp down the lump in my throat. This is about Jungkook, not me.

I hear some male voices call out Jungkook's name and I feel Jungkook's hand leave my wrist, cold and empty.

I stop as his presence leave my side as he hugs the one member after the other. Their voices, laughs and sounds are inaudible to me as I freeze in my spot, feeling like everything comes falling on me as Jungkook is reunited with his members. I squeeze my eyes shut.

I cannot cry. I cannot ruin this moment.

I don't want my emotions to take over me, yet it's already happening. The guys chatter gets louder as they're overjoyed with each others presence but to me their voices die out and all I sense is the vibration going through my wrist as my watch suddenly blings.

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The countdown has started... 3 chapters left :')

Sorry for the late update, I've been busy lol