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~YURE~

There's something wrong with me.

I hate the person I've started to become.

Lying and running away from responsibilities is fast becoming a talent that may even be surpassing my singing abilities.

Worse still, I seem to be doing absolutely nothing to change these things about me.

For example; This Tuesday morning, Prissy Waje literally just walked past me as I stood in front of my class, without even glancing my direction.

And it was bothering me.

As I stood there, leaning on the door of my class, I fought the strong urge to go after her and talk to her.

You can imagine.

Even after everything that had happened lately.

Even with the mess I've made of things, I'm still thinking of Prissy Waje.

A normal sane person would quietly respect themselves and slow down a bit with all these.

But no.. My stupid, addictive ass won't let me be!

It's addiction.

It just has to be addiction.

Selfish addiction.

Prissy doesn't even want me now anymore. It's obvious. She stopped replying my texts a long time ago. She basically just acts like I'm air everywhere she sees me and walks past without batting an eyelid.

What happened with us doesn't even stop her from coming to my class to see her friends. She comes alright, even laughs and plays like she wasn't even bothered in the slightest about anything. When she's done, she just walks away without even glancing my direction for a second.

And she does this with so much class and proffessionalism! No one would even know she was trying to ignore me, except us both, and it was beyond painful. So painful!

Still, even as it is clear she doesn't want me, my selfish ass doesn't want her leaving me.

And then.. Krisdana?

Lord, the stress I've put on that girl is too much to comprehend!

Still, my selfish ass still doesn't want her leaving me either. I can't even imagine it. I can't.

Krisdana has been my girl for about four years now, and leaving her is simply an impossible task. It's like taking a part of me away. She has become a part of me. Both of us are way too used to each other now. Way too attached to leave each other now.

And best believe, I literally force myself to not think about Prissy all day. During the day, Krisdana is all over my mind.

But then, at night, when I go to sleep, Prissy finds a way to creep into my dreams and mess with my brain! Every fucking night!

And as my hopeless ass stood there by the door of my class, I watched Prissy Waje like an total idiot.

This was now beyond my human control. My obsession with Prissy was unhealthy, and I didn't want it, but I couldn't help it.

I watched her stop by Class C, and start talking and laughing with some girls around there. I couldn't do anything else, but watch her.

For some reason, every feature about her just looked even unusually stunning today!

Her golden, brown perfect skin..

Almond shaped, dreamy eyes..

God! Just look how beautiful her smile was when she laughed softly at something those girls said..

And the way her full, perfectly shaped lips moved as she talked..

God, I missed kissing her..

"I know she's like fine as fuck, baa?"

"Guy! Aswr, she fine die!" My reply came to the painfully, feminine voice that just spoke to me.

I jumped immediately at the farmiliarity of the voice, and when I looked infront of me, I saw who the voice belonged to; Krisdana Moe.

She was just standing there and looking at me.
My shock didn't even seem to amuse her at all. She didn't even shake or flinge. A brow of hers arched perfectly, like she was waiting for an answer.

The hard, unamused look on her face pierced right into my soul like a knife. It made me feel very uncomfortable. My heart beat suddenly increased it's speed.

God, this girl was so scary!

"I didn't see you again yesterday." She said plainly.

"Yesterday? W-why?" I replied like a fool who had short term memory.

Ofcourse, she, in turn, looked at me like I was a fool.

"I texted you to meet up yesterday. So, we could talk?" She reminded me.

"Oh..y-yes, that, I-" I started stuttering.

"I waited for you. You did not show up." She said, spelling out her words like I was a foreigner who wasn't fluent with English.

Well, I ran away. I ran away from Krisdana yesterday. That was exactly what happened.

I knew why Krisdana wanted to talk. And even if I wasn't seeing Prissy as of now, I wasn't ready to even let her know there was ever a thing with us, to begin with. I just couldn't.

"Where did you go off to?" She pressed on. She didn't sound curious. If anything, she looked like she just asked that question to see what lie I could possibly come up with.

"My parents..uhh.. they called me, and asked me to come back home early," I lied so fluently. I did exactly what she knew I would do. Lie.

She didn't say anything after. Just kept her long wandering look on me for an uncomfortable amount of time.

"You know I really, really love you, Yure." She said to me finally, absolutely shocking me to my bones with her confession.

What even scared me more?
The fact she still loved me after everything, or, the fact that she just told me she loved me with absolutely no atom of emotion laced in her tone.

Krisdana confessed love to me in a very dead tone.

"You know, Yure," she continued. "That respect for that love is the only thing that's stopping me..," she tilted her head at me and narrowed her eyes, then added,"..from sticking pens into your eyes."

That was the last thing she said before brushing past me, and walking into the class.

Jesus Christ.

Pens.. in my eyes?

Krisdana wants to stick pens in my eyes?

Jesus.

I couldn't move from the spot I was on. I didn't even go into the class just yet. I peeped into the class and watched Krisdana take a few books from her desk locker, and start making her way out of the class.

I moved out of her way again,as she stepped out holding her books in her hand, not even glancing once at me.

My heart couldn't stop pounding.

Luckily, she, as well as the other Art Students of my class, had Government Class right now. So, I wouldn't have to deal with the fear of Krisdana stabbing my eyes if I had to sit with her in class this moment.

But then, there was the other one I had grown to be afraid of lately - sitting there on his seat, our seat area, and focused so thoroughly on a textbook infront of him.

Ivandor is who I'm talking about. He was just there, on his seat.

And just like every other day, I was going to have to walk over there and sit down with him so we both could start yet another round of our maniquin challenge.

No kidding. Ivandor and I don't even talk anymore these days. As I sat down with him in our town, having Krisdana's seat as a demarcation between us, he just stayed like a robot. Didn't even glance my side.

This has been going on since forever, and I have not pushed it. I haven't spoken to him either, and I don't intend to soon. Only God knows how much he knew. He looked like he was trying his best to keep his cool. Believe me, I was not ready to unleash a part of him I wasn't going to be able to handle. So, let's leave it this way for now.

All these could have easily been avoided honestly, and I was just making matters worse by extending this whole thing this far.

Now, I dragged Ivandor into it.

If I somehow told Krisdana the truth, instead of dragging it along till now, maybe there may have been chances that she would have forgiven me.

But, I don't know about that now.

And knowing Krisdana, she was just utterly distressed, and scared about finding out the truth. Because, that would then mean she'd have to leave me. I knew she didn't want to leave me, so she didn't want to find out.

All in all, She really didn't deserve all these.

Do I just confess this thing to Krisdana once and for all?

I was snapped out of my thoughts when the noise coming from outside the class became alarming.

People were screaming outside like there was a fire in school or something.I got scared. Even Ivandor, who seemed to be only paying attention to his Biology textbook, had to look up from that book.

What the hell was going on there in the hallway??

Some of my classmates were already on their feet, confused and panicking in a way. A few rushed out of the class to see what was happening outside.

Suddenly, the twins from Class C, Ebere and Ebube, barged into my class and shouted;

"YOU GUYS! SHADE ONAM IS BACK!"

.....and the class went wild!

More than half of the class literally jumped up from their seats and started rushing outside with the twins immediately to join all the commotion.

Funny, because most of the people going outside didn't even speak to Shade on a norm. Or rather, Shade didn't speak to them.

The class fast became scanty.

The only people here were the anti-socials, who could not imagine squeezing in and trying to fit in to a crowd of people who supposedly knew Shade Onam. And, the quiet, kind of snubby bookworms, who didn't seem too interested in anything else asides their studies.

Then, there was the Queen, Giwa Falade - perfectly and casually balancing on her seat and reading. She had on the most neutral face I've ever seen, like she was not in the slightest bothered about anything around her.

Hassana, who sat by her, she kept looking back and forth from Giwa, and then to the door, over and over, like she wanted to leave too, but someone was holding her captive against her will.

Ivandor and I stayed put on our seats. Ofcourse, he had never been the jumpy type anyways, so dead the thought of having to see him leave his seat to join the crowd surrounding Shade.

After all the noise was carried away, the class was pin drop silent. No one else talked. Everyone focused on whatever they were doing.

Although, I noticed Ivandor shooting glances at an unfazed Giwa from time to time. I wondered if things were right with them. Ivandor doesn't tell me anything anymore these days.

The silence was short lived, because no sooner, my excited classmates that had left before, started to troop back in.

That's when I saw Nova forcing himself through the crowd that was still infront of our class, and I saw he was holding the very long awaited..Shade Onam, who looked all smiles and pretty.

People side-talked as they watched Nova taking Shade by the hand, and making his way with her towards our seat with that never fading smile plastered on his face.

"I just knew all that noise had to be about you, Shade." Ivandor remarked, as soon as the couple got to us. Shade laughed softly at his statement.

"Good job, Nova. I can see your plan worked out perfectly," he added, with a small smile at the corner of his lips as he exchanged handshakes with a proud, looking Nova, before they sat down on their seats by us.

Wait, Plan? What plan?

I mean, let's skip the fact that Ivandor acknowledged Nova and Shade's presence the moment they showed up here, but has practically been shunned me who had been been sitting here with him all these while...

Let's put that aside and focus on this; so, there was some plan that Nova and Ivandor knew about that I had not a single clue of?

"Yup," Nova answered, like he read my thoughts, but he was rather answering Ivandor.

"Look at my baby killing it for Vogue Africa!" He announced to us, pushing his phone to our faces to see an Instagram post.

That particular picture of Shade had been trending EVERYWHERE on Social media since yesterday.

"Stop staring too much. I know she's a queen!" Nova said, moving his phone away, almost after he set it for us to see the picture.

"I cannot believe you guys let Nova come all the to see me during my Vogue shoot!" Shade playfully scolded us, almost immediately after Nova talked.

You guys? I knew not a thing about that.

"He was relentless, Shade." Ivandor replied.

Oh wow. He knew a lot about this 'plan'.

".. and he kept encouraging himself with this delusional belief that he was famous too so they'd let him in apparently." Ivandor added, shooting a mocking glance at Nova.

"And did it not work??" Nova came defending himself immediately, and for the first time in forever, a small chuckle escaped Ivandor's lips.

Wow, he actually laughed. Wow.

"Pay some respect to me and my 200k followers, bro!" Nova reamed at Ivandor, and Shade was laughing hard.

"Dude, shut the fuck up!" Ivandor joked, and Shade laughed even harder.

I suddenly felt so left out.

"Okay, okay, and listen, listen..," Nova's fun filled voice came in as he tapped Ivandor like a little child looking for trouble. "..not only was I accepted into the building with so much respect, I also charmed Shade's manager with my breathtaking charisma! She just couldn't get enough of me!"

"Madam K actually liked Nova," Shade cut in. "And she doesn't really like a lot of people."

"Well, it's not my fault I'm so irresistible," Nova retorted playfully to Shade, who pushed him and laughed.

Well, Nova seemed too excited today. Good for him that he was that happy. Understandable. He hadn't seen Shade in ages anyway.

"Are you okay, Ivandor?" Shade suddenly asked out of the blue.

"I didn't want to address it initially, but, you look a bit unwell..," she hinted.

Ivandor did look quite sick. Maybe it was just stress. Unfortunately, I couldn't ask what's wrong.

"I'm good." was all he replied her.

"And what about Giwa? Is she okay? I wanted to go over there and talk to her and Hassana, but she looks like she will slit my throat if I say hi," Shade said, and at that moment, I noticed Nova slightly touching Shade's arm, almost like he was giving her sign to stop asking questions.

I tuned myself out of the conversation when Hassana sneakily trodded over to our side to hug Shade, but without Giwa still.

Somehow, I knew so much was happening around us that I wasn't even aware of. Seemed like I had already been cut off from my friends before they even found out the truth.

~GIWA~

Three days, I managed to not pay any attention to Ivandor Fejaun.

I'm proud of myself to be honest. I didn't know I had it in me.

He stares at me in class, I noticed. I pretend like I don't anyways.

However, the past few days, he had not said anything to me. All he ever does is stare.

Maybe, he knows what my reaction would just be like if he tried talking to me again. Let's not forget he's the wizard after all. He probably just doesn't want to taste my wrath.

Or maybe, just maybe...

He was slowly forgetting about me too..

Could it be possible that he did? Could it really be? Was he finally leaving me_

Wait, why should I even care!

I don't care.

I'm Giwa Falade. I think I will be just fine on my own. I always have been, anyways.

I really don't care.

I had made that even clear to his cousin, Krisdana, when she met me that day after school in the hallway.

"I know it's unlike me to want to talk with you..," Krisdana had said to me softly.

"But, my cousin really likes you, and I just wanted to intercede on his behalf and let you know_," she was talking and I cut her short right there.

"With all due respect, Krisdana, I don't want to hear it." I said ever so plainly.

There was silence between us for a while after I said what I said.

Eventually, a sigh eventually escaped Krisdana's lips and she said, "Ivandor needs you right now, more than ever, Giwa."

"Well, I needed him too at some point and he wasn't there. So, why should I do that for him?" I retorted like this was a formal court case.

"Look, I'm sorry, Krisdana..I don't know how to put this subtly to you right now, but I really don't care." I completed my word.

"You don't care?" Krisdana sounded shocked.

"Not one bit." I made it clear.

It was clear she did not like my reaction to her 'interceding'. However, all she let out was a bitter chuckle, before leaving me.

After dinner that same day at home, I went to curl myself up in my blanket and I thought to myself;

Did I really not care?
Did I?

I forced myself to get rid of all the thoughts that were trying to confuse me. But no matter what I did, I still felt so horrible.

I looked to my phone as a Snapchat notification suddenly chimed in.

It was from Hassana.

When I opened it, I saw a Snapchat green screen video of Hassana, bobbing her head around and smiling, while having the rest of the body as a dancing sunflower, as a result of the filter.

That made me laugh so hard.

Then a Snapchat message came from Hassana, saying;

Did that make you laugh?😉

Obviously.

With a small smile on my face, I replied her;

No, do another one😒

Almost immediately, her reply came;

Okay, wait I'm coming 😚😘

I couldn't help but laugh to myself. At least, I had people to do things like this for me when I felt down.

Barely seconds after, I heard another message notification sound.

Oh wow, Hassana was quite fast!

However, when I looked to my phone screen, I realised it wasn't Hassana that just texted.

It was a strange number in my inbox.

Strange number?

I opened the message to see;

Hey, before you delete this, just hear me out please... It's Ivandor...and I'm texting you with my new line. I just wanted to let you know that I'm extremely sorry for how things went down. I never meant for it to get this bad with us and if I could change the way things happened, I honestly would, but it's already too late for that.

Things have really not been easy for me and I feel like I'm going out of my freaking mind. My family is a mess right now and that's why I dissapeared you the entire time. I'm so sorry for doing that. So sorry. It's just that at the time, everything hit me so hard and I didn't know how to handle it. I never wanted to stop seeing you. I would never even think about that. I can't imagine myself ever thinking about leaving you. I love you more than you can even imagine, and losing you would just be the last straw for me. I don't know how I'll handle it. Please, Giwa. Give me a chance to really make this up to you. I'm willing to do that. I really love and care about you.

I stopped reading at the part where I saw 'It's Ivandor'...

I deleted the message immediately, and switched off my phone from that moment onward.

From there, I went straight to bed.

We're done here!!
First and foremost, I got bored so I made Shade's Vogue Africa photo 😂😂✌️Check the image of this chapter if you want to see lmaooo!!

Okay, see ehhhh. I know you people are vexing like mad with Giwa and Yure shaaa. I can foresee it. Butttttttt...I have a few things to say!!!

Okay, starting with Yure first, I can say I totally understand him in a way. A lot of people have thrown dirt on him in the comments, but the truth is we all have "Yure'd" things up at some points in our life. We have all, at some point, ran away from responsibilities once in a while and end up making things worse for ourselves. It's normal in life, and I can say, in a way, he can't completely be faulted. The only thing I can drag him for is playing two girls, but as for not saying anything and dragging the matter this far, I can't blame him there. A lot of people don't find it easy confessing to their mistakes early enough, until It completely spirals out of control, and Yure is just one of those people. I am too, sha. My point is; let's be gentle with him, okay?😂❤️

And Giwa? In my opinion, she's still misbehaving sha. But if you take a closer look at this girl, you'll realise she is actually just scared. Through out the period that everything was all butterflies with Ivandor, she didn't really have problems with the way she was changing. Now that the distance between them is there, she suddenly realizes how weak and vulnerable her love for him made her. She obviously does not like it, and she hates how fragile she is becoming because of Ivandor. Now, she is closing up every possible route for him to penetrate her again. That's why she keeps "hardening her heart" as she says, and that's also why she didn't bother to hear what Krisdana had to say and also bluntly would not even read Ivandor's long ass text - because she is scared that if she does, he will somehow get through her again. She knows she is becoming way too soft, and it's paining her.

If you're observant, you'll notice throughout the book how insecure Giwa really is, and she feels if she ever lets the world know how soft she really is, she may just be looked down on again. That's exactly what she's preventing now. Even if it's still stupid sha. If she were a real person, I'd actually reccommend therapy for her. She actually needs a proffessional to talk to her.

Oya that's a wrap ooo!!

What's your own take on Yure and Giwa???
Chapter 42 is coming up tonight because I love you guys!!!❤️❤️❤️