It's hard

Ever since I have got into YG things have been harder than usual. We have to make a dance, vocal, and rap video, and that too, not just solo, we have to duo and group too. 

The girls here are very mean, and they treat me badly because I am an outcast. I don't have any friends and it's very hard but I will fight. I won't let them throw me down. 

I would ask myself that 'do you want to give up? because I know it's hard but then at the end, I just can't give up. I will do anything to become an idol.

23 December 2009

I was going to my dorm since dad arranged a private dorm for me.

I was in the hallway when I saw a manager there.

"Oh, Manager-Oppa! Hello!" I bowed to him. "Oh Lisa-ah hello!" he said to me.

"What brings you here?" I asked confused since he never comes to my or any trainees dorm.

"I just heard you had a private dorm so I thought why not pay you a visit!" he exclaimed.

"Sure come in!" I said since I didn't know what to do.

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"Umm so how has been training?" he asked me

"It's been good," I replied

"Lisa-ah you know many trainees have to go through something for a faster debut!" he said with a slight smile or grin?

"What is it Oppa?" I questioned.

"It's very simple just let me lead you huh?" he said sliding his hands in my thigh.

"Umm I do..not this.i.i.nk i.ts. an n.iiice. the idea" I said trying to yank his hand from my thigh

"I promise it won't hurt baby," he said trying to come closer when I hit him in the balls.

"Try it again and I will report you to the police!" I said throwing him out of my house.

I slammed the door on his face and slid down on it crying. 

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"Dad I want to change companies," I talked on the phone.

"What happened princess? I thought YG was good" he said slightly worried

"It is, it's just that I want a change," I responded getting nervous.

"Okay, Lulu but are you okay?" he questioned worriedly.

"Yes, Daddy I am okay everything is okay!" I said trying to convince him.

"Okay, Sweety but any problem you have to tell me hmm?" 

"Yes daddy" 

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"SM Entertainment

JYP Entertainment

Stone Music

Cube Entertainment

Starship Entertainment

and which one is this BigHit Entertainment?" BamBam said to me.

"These companies are offering me a spot starting next week," I told him.

"JYP is a nice company believe me!" he said excitedly

"I wanna give BigHit Entertainment a chance although." 

"Seriously the company is not even known and I heard it's bankrupt" 

"Then maybe they need me badly so why not give them a try?"

"I don't know Lili? you are choosing this small company over such big ones?"

"I just want to"

"Have I ever stopped you?" 

"Nope and even if you do you think I will listen?" 

"No, you would never."

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7 August 2010

"Hello! I am Lalisa Manobal, the new trainee." I said to the tall-haired gu.

"Hi, Lalisa-SSI! I am Namjoon also know RapMonster." a tall-haired guy said.

"I saw your video somewhere" 

"You did?"

"Hmm I did"

"That's nice so can you rap?" 

"I am not great at it but I learned it at my previous company"

"Which company were you in before this?"

"YG"

"That's the top company why did you leave?"

I hesitated before answering, should I tell him but it's my personal matter and why would he be interested?  

"I had some personal problems" 

"Oh it's okay so let's see your skills"

"I am good at dancing."

"Show it to me then!"

https://youtu.be/VsFq0ZkZ1C4

"You are good!" Namjoon exclaimed.

"Thanks!" 

"You can call me Oppa if you want to!"

"Thanks, Namjoon Oppa!"

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"New trainee is joining today right?" I asked

"Yeah he is a producer and a trainee, he placed second in Hit It." 

"Pretty cool, wished it was a girl though."

"Don't worry boys aren't that bad"

"Yeah I have four brothers don't try to give me clarity on that" I joked and we shared a laugh

We have gotten close in the last month since there is only one practice room, producing room, and resting room.

Suddenly the door opened revealing a pale guy with hair styled up.

We stood up and greeted him while bowing.

"Hello! I am Min Yoongi!" he said

"I am Namjoon or Rapmonster and this Lalisa Manobal," he told him pointing at me when he did I just waved.

"So are you a hyung or another younger one?" Namjoon Oppa asked

"I was born in 1993. So I am 17 right now"

"Yoongi Hyung!" 

"Umm so how old are you Lalisa-ssi?"

"9 Years old born in 2000"

"So you can call me Oppa if you want to or just Yoongi is good too"

"Yoongi Oppa and you can call me Lisa!"

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"Jung Hoseok" I exclaimed with a new file in my hand.

"New Trainee?" Namjoon Oppa asked

"Yup and he auditioned at JYP but sadly failed" 

"Cool, but hey I heard a lot of companies offered you a position which ones?"

"Here, let me give you the letters," I said taking the letters from my bag

"Wow these are a lot and the companies are pretty big why did you join this one?" 

"I don't know sometimes I am moody but for this company I had a gut feeling to join it"

"Hmm, I guess you are testing fate?"

"Haha" I let out a laugh

"Nows let complete the cover before PDnim buries us alive" I nodded to him.

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"Kim SeokJin, Waah is he real, or is he just this much handsome?" I said looking at his photo in the profile, I am not the one to compliment somebody like this but he is too handsome to resist.

"Is he that handsome that Lalisa Manobal the great complimented him?" Yoongi Oppa asked.

"Look at his face and try to find a flaw, "I told him

"Lisa never complimented one of us and this is the first one so I gotta see it!" Hoseok Oppa said.

"Handsome, so handsome!" Hoseok Oppa excalimed.

Suddenly the door opens startling all of us. It was PDnim we stood and bowed showing respect.

"Hello, as you know we have a new training joining us and I have also had news for all of you guys!"

"Hello PDnim, Nice to see you," we said in unison

"Come in," PDnim said out of the door.

The door opens showing the guy in the photo.

"Hello! I am Kim SeokJin."

"Hello, I am Min Yoongi this Kim Namjoon, and the one in the cap is Jung Hoseok!"

" And the girl is Lalisa Manobal!" Namjoon Oppa said.

"Nice to meet you all of you I hope we become friends!"

"Us too!" we said once again in unison.

We practiced this a lot of time.

"That looks pretty practiced!" PDnim said.

"So I wanted to tell you that you all will be debuting in a group"

"Congrats Guys!" I exclaimed knowing it was for them.

"Lisa about your solo debut that can't happen because you will be debuting in a group with boys since there are no signs of girls in the company," he said making me go in shock.

1 girl with 4 or maybe even more boys? What the f-

"I know it's weird but I want to show Korea that girls can be more than what we see," he told me.

It's right that I was treated like a pretty girl and nothing else, but I can be more than just a pretty girl I will show the world that girls can be more than just pretty gowns and makeup.

"I will become a member of the group and show people!" I mumbled to myself.

"That's the spirit," PDnim said, Woah he heard me?

"And I will introduce you to your Manger"

"This is Sejin, your manager."

"Hello!" we all say to him and to my surprise the new guy joins.

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"There is one more member joining," Jin Oppa says.

"Who?" I ask.

"He is around your age Lisa," He says looking in the file.

"Cool when is he joining?"

"Tomorrow"

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Today I will be joining a new company called BigHit I saw and it's pretty cool especially the guy named RapMonster.

I collected my stuff from PDnim and went to the studio which is common for all the trainees.

I entered and saw 5 guys sitting there. I bow to them in respect.

"Hello! I am the new trainee. Jeon Jungkook!" 

"Hello I am Namjoon or RapMonster."

"Hi! I am Jung Hoseok"

"I am Jin."

"Min Yoongi"

"Nice to meet you guys"

"So how old are you?"

"I am 14 "

"You are older than Lisa by 3 or 4 years then?" Jin said.

"Call us Hyung k?"

I nodded.

"I am back guys," A girl said coming into our sight.

She is an angel. Long hair, hazel eyes, pink rosy lips, and cute cheeks. She is so cute and beautiful at the same time. 

"She is only getting prettier day by day so staring would distract you a lot!" Yoongi Hyung whispered but the other Hyungs heard and started giggling.

"Why are you guys giggling?"

"Oh, nothing! By the way, meet the new trainee."

She bowed and I bowed back to her.

"I am Lalisa Manobal. Nice to meet you!" She said with a small smile.

God Damn that smile.

"Jeon Jungkook, Nice to meet you too," I said

"So Oppa or finally a trainee of my age," she asked me.

"I am 14 this year."

"Aargh, Can I call you Oppa cause I call that the other guys?"

I hate Oppa but I want to hear it from her mouth. Gracious I am so creepy.

"You can call me Oppa only if you want to," I answered her question.

"Jungkook Oppa, so are you totally new?"

"Not really I auditioned for a show but got rejected in the third audition round so I got some cards and landed up here," I told her making her giggle.

I love that melody.

"You are a singer?"

"Yes and I can dance."

"Oh cool, I am a singer and dancer too!"

"I am actually debuting soon with the boy group and before you say I am a girl I already know that!"

"Umm a boy group which one?"

"Bantan Sonyeadon"

"I am in that group too!"

"Well, then members we are!"

"So you live in the dorm too?"

"No, I live in an apartment since my dad is overprotective of me"

"You are Korean?"

"Thai, I shifted here when I was 5"

"Only 5?"

"I lived with my grandma in Jinhae until I was 8 and then I came to Seoul to my uncle and auditioned for many companies and then like you, I landed up here!".

"So your parents live in Thailand?"

"Yup"

"You visit them often right?'

"I haven't visited them once cause once I go I know I won't be able to come back"

"Wow! You are pretty amazing for 11 years old"

"How did you know my age?"

"Jin Hyung "

"Oooh"

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(Author POV)

"New trainee guys," Jin said coming into the studio.

"This is probably the last I guess," Lisa asked.

"Most probably," Namjoon said.

"Hello! I am Kim Taehyung!" the new trainee said coming in their views.

They introduce themselves and he settles down talking to each other. Lisa figured out he was a social butterfly like her so they had a nice bond but someone was fuming in jealousy while seeing them. 

The person was none other than Jeon Jungkook.

He knew he had feelings for Lisa and he can't hide it anymore but he has to because he doesn't want to ruin their friendship.

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"Jennie or Jennifer," Lisa asked confused about her stage name.

She and Jungkook will be the first to reveal although they won't show her face or anything about her identity.

It will be a video saying 'Who is she?' and Jungkook will film a vocal video.

The video will be of her dancing with a lot of trainees but the spotlight will be on her and others will be blacked out.

And for Jungkook he will be singing in the studio.

"Jennie" Yoongi suggested.

"We will call you Jendukie then" Taehyugn said with his boxy grin.

"That means Sticky and you are the ones clingy and sticky to me okay?" she said to Teahyung.

Taehyung is like a brother to her, he really fills the missing space of his brother.

But Taehyung seems to look at her as a woman. He likes her and it's obvious in his eyes almost everyone can see it beside her. 

The same goes for Jungkook but for Jungkook, Lisa looks at him as a friend and sometimes more than that but those thoughts cant distract her so she ignores her heart.

Jungkook knows he fell deep for her and looks at her with all the adoration and love in the world.

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"Hyung, how do you impress a girl?"Jungkook asked Namjoon and Suga who were busy producing a song.

"Why do you want to know that?" Yoongi asked wiggling his eyebrows.

He knows about his and hers feeling and is like a bridge for them. They both spill their heart to him because he is not judging. No offense to the others.

"Isn't it pretty obvious?" Namjoon said.

Although he was never told , he is good at reading humans like an open book.

"I think I should try things to make her happy but I don't know what"

"Food, girls love food," they both said at the same time.

"She is very conscious about her diet, how can I give her food?"

"Give her stuff like banana milk or strawberries and all her favorite things on the spot and try to act a little affectionate towards her and compliment her a bit more like 'You did well' or 'Your eyes are so pretty '. Like its so easy to compliment her cause every other thing she does is compliment worthy. And stop being so nervous around her act natural and friendly so she doesn't think you are uncomfortable with her." Yoongi Hyung said.

"I don't know what she likes"

"She is very picky when it comes to food but she loves snacks like dark chocolate, marshmallow, nachos, and milk. Like I have shared a studio with her for so many years and she always eats these types of food."Namjoon answered him.

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"Hey, Lisa!" Jungkook said with a small smile.

"Hey, Oppa! " Lisa said with the same enthusiasm

"Here I got you your favorite," he said handing her banana milk.

"Thx Oppa! I love milk" she said to him with bright eyes.

Jungkook chuckled seeing her so happy and brushed the top of her hair with his hand. Lisa froze. Her crush was touching her head and brought her, her favorite milk, what else does she want?

On the other hand, Jungkook couldn't believe what he is doing? He is touching her hair and she is frozen. They suddenly started coming closer and closer but suddenly the door opened separating them from each other.

"Guys we have our last member and new trainee!" Taehyung said happily.

"Who?" they both said in unison.

"My school friend, Park Jimin!"

A guy with black hair and small eyes suddenly comes in there.

"Park Jimin?" Lisa asked pointing at him still red from the previous event.

"Yes, I am Park Jimin. Nice to meet you!" he said bowing to her.

"I am Jungkook and I suppose you are a Hyung too?"

"17"

"Jimin Hyung!"

"I am Lalisa Manobal, Jimin oppa!"

"Cool, I already was told everything by this alien so yeah!"

"Good," they both said together.

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(Jungkook and Lisa POV)

I almost kissed her.

I almost kissed him.

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"I love him" 

"I love her"

 They both said at the same time although they were far their hearts were sealed together by destiny.

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