As always, sorry for the misspellings and the grammatical errors
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Shawn

It has been around two months now into Hannah's pregnancy and I can't be happier. I already go into stores and buy baby clothes even though I don't know the gender. I look at different cribs and I even look at images on Pinterest to get inspiration for our baby's room.

Hannah just laughs and thinks that I am cute that I already look at images on baby rooms. But I just want our baby to be happy and that he or she will have a perfect childhood.

When I have time over at work I always send Hannah a text and ask her how she feels, if I should get her anything. And I may send her pictures of cute babies, baby clothes, and decorations to our baby's room.

"Are you looking at pictures again?" she chuckled as she walked into my office room at home. I looked up at her from the computer screen and pushed the chair away from the desk so she could sit down in my lap. "Look at this. Isn't this cute?" I pointed at the screen. Showing a picture of a baby room.

"Yeah, that is really cute," she said and wrapped one arm around my neck. "And oh, this one will be very cute on her"

She studied the picture for a few seconds and then smiled widely and then looked back at me. "Shawn we do-" I didn't let her finish, "No, wait. I want to show you one more. And I know that you are going to love it"

I searched for the picture in my gallery on my computer and I could feel her eyes on me and she had a big smile on her lips. "Shawn" she smiled and grabbed my cheeks, turning my face towards hers. "We don't even know the gender yet" she giggled "I know" I sighed. "But I can't believe that we are going to be parents. Can you just imagine that a little human, a combination of you and me running around in the apartment?" I said as a smile crept up on my face.

"No I can't actually" she shook her head and pressed her lips against mine. "How sick isn't this? That you and I are going to be parents" "I know. I can't believe it" I said and pulled her closer to my chest.

"But can you stop looking at baby rooms and bay clothes for now? The dinner is ready" she got up from my lap and walked towards the door. I could hear her say something but I was too focused on looking at pictures on Pinterest.

"Shawn" she laughed and I looked up from the screen. "You can look at them later tonight. You can be up the whole night and look at the pictures if you want. But one thing do I know, you hate to eat cold food. So get your ass up from that chair and eat dinner" she laughed at the last sentence which made me smile as well and push myself up from the chair.

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During the dinner I couldn't stop talking about how grateful and excited I am to be a father. And I can't stop thinking about how Adam will react when I say that he will get a stepsibling and that he will be a stepping brother.

I heard Hannah talking but it was just mumbling. I just looked down at the plate and was lost in my own thoughts.

"What are you thinking about? I can see the wheels spin" Hannah said and grabbed my hand. "Oh sorry," I said and shoot up with my head. "I was in my own little world"

"Yeah I can tell" she giggled. "What were you thinking about?" She raised one eyebrow and intertwined our fingers over the table. "I was just thinking about how Adam will react when I tell him the news this weekend. What if he will hate me?"

"Don't say that. Why would he hate you? I mean, how can he hate you? You are his father and I know that he will be so excited to be a stepbrother. Every kid want to be the oldest sibling"

"Yeah, but what if he will hate me because I will have a kid with you and not Gemma"

"Shawn stop overthinking. It won't make the thing better. He will not hate you because of this. Okay? I think, or, I know that he will love the news and he will be so happy to hear that he will be an older brother"

She runs her thumb over my knuckles and sends me a smile. "So don't worry" she let go of off my hand and took away the plates.

"Shawn," she said more firmly when she stood beside me to take away the plate in front of me. "Stop thinking" she pressed her lips on my cheek "It will be alright" "I hope so" I looked up at her and let out a big sigh.

"I can take care of the dishes and you can go and look at pictures of baby clothes and baby rooms on Pinterest if it makes you feel better"

A smile crept up on my face and I quickly stood up from the chair. "I love you" I kissed her quickly on her lips and walked away to my office and I could hear Hannah chuckling behind me.

When I looked at the pictures all of sudden a mail popped up in the corner of the computer screen. Without looking at who it was from I clicked on it and read the quite short mail.

While I read it, tears pressed through my eyes, and at the same time, I could feel the blood boiling inside of me.

Hannah

Shawn is too sweet.

He is so excited to be a dad and he can't stop looking at pictures on Pinterest to get inspiration for the baby's room and outfits for the baby. I'm not gonna lie, it's really cute to see him this excited. But it's a little bit early. It has only been two months into my pregnancy.

But I am worried about him. He goes around and thinking if Adam will like the news or not. He thinks that Adam is going to hate him for having a baby with me and not with Gemma.

I try to convince him that it won't be like that. That Adam will love the news. But Shawn won't listen to me. Or, he is listening to me, but his thoughts take over my words.

I put the last plate in the dishwasher when I heard a loud thud mixed with a muffling scream.

I jumped at the sudden sound and ran into Shawn's office room to found him on the floor, his back against the wall, his legs folded in front of his chest, his fingers in his curls, and his head was hanging down.

The desk was thrown on the floor and the Mac computer screen was a few inches away from the desk and the portable keyboard to the screen was right in front of my feet.

I quickly ran up to Shawn and sat down in front of him.

"Baby what happened?" my voice sounded worried and it was shaking. Shawn didn't answer, I could only hear him cry out and his whole body was shaking.

"Shawn, what happened?" I grabbed his wrist and took away them from his face so I could look at him in the eyes.

A tear was streaming down his cheeks. His eyes were red and his whole body was shaking. I can't tell if he is angry, sad or if it is a combination of both.

I have seen him cry and he is not like this when he is sad. I have seen him mad, and he is not like this when he is mad.

His eyes just switched between mine and he opened his mouth to say something but he just cried even more. I grabbed his face and pulled him towards me. Resting his forehead on my shoulder and my arms wrapped around his body.

I stroke my hand on his back up and down, trying to comfort him. It took a while before I could feel his strong arms wrapping around my waist pulling me closer to him.

"Baby, what happened?" I asked with tears in my eyes and my one hand running up to his curls.

He lifted up his head from my shoulder and pulled away from me a little, still having his arms around my body. I stroke away from the tears from his cheeks and brushed away the curl that hung down in his forehead.

His body was still shaking and he had a problem with breathing steady.

"Follow my breathings" I inhaled through my nose and exhaled through my mouth slowly and he followed my breathing. When he finally calmed down a little I asked him again.

"What happened?"

He took a deep breath and burst into tears as he started speaking "That witch just said that I can't meet Adam again! She said that I wasn't good for him and that she will call the police if I ever come near Adam again!" he almost screamed and pointed at the broken computer screen laying on the floor.

"Hey shh shh" I grabbed his face and turned it towards me so he looked at me in the eyes instead of the broken screen.

"She doesn't mean that Shawn. Why would she say that all of sudden? She just wants you to get mad"

I pulled him closer to me, trying to comfort him, but it was impossible. His whole body was shaking with anger and his crying. "You don't understand Hannah! When she says something she really means it" he cried out and I could hear that his throat was sore because of all the crying.

"We will fix this okay? We will win the battle"