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Hannah
"Please Hannah," he said and pulled away from the kiss and a little tear escaped his eye. "I can't say anything right now. But we'll see what I say after tonight"

"What do you mean?" "You are going to explain yourself over dinner. And I'm suggesting that we have dinner at your place. I don't want to cry or talk out loud in public. So your place at 7 pm"

I turned around and walked into the store that Anna went into. I searched for her in the store and I found her trying on some sunglasses. "Anna," I said and pulled her arm "You won't believe what just happen" "Are you okay?" She tilted down her head and looked at me through the edge of the sunglasses. "I- I don't know. When you walked into this store he pulled out a velvet box and proposed to me. He said that he can't live without me and then he kissed me"

"Wait what?!" She said shocked and took off the sunglasses and placed them in their place. "He did what?!" "Yeah, he kind of proposed to me. But I said that I can't do it. Then he said that I can. Then he kissed me. And we are going to talk about everything over dinner. Or, he is going to explain himself over dinner tonight"

"Then you better put in something sexy. Common" she grabbed my hand and led me through the shop and gathered a few outfits on our way to the dressing room. "Take these and try them on" she handed me the pile of clothes and pushed me into one of the fitting rooms.

"Why do I have to look hot when I'm going to have dinner with him?" "So he can regret that he has lost you. And that you can feel like a savage when you say that you won't give him another chance" she poked in her head and looked at me. I didn't look up at her through the mirror in front of me. I just looked at my dress. "Hannah, don't tell me you are going to give him another chance. He lied in your face Hannah"

"Yeah, I know. But I miss him so much. I fucking slept with Alex because I missed Shawn so much" I quickly got quiet since I haven't told her about that part yet. "Wait what?" She said and stepped into the fitting room. "You slept with Alex? Alex from last night?" I looked down, trying to avoid her eyes, and nodded.

"Yeah," I said embarrassingly. "Now can you go out? I won't buy this dress anyway. I'm gonna wear a casual outfit. Not this tight dress" Anna walked out of the fitting room "You know that I don't like this Hannah"

"What?" "You know what I'm talking about" "Yeah I know. But I still love him and you know it" I said standing in the fitting room.

"You have to let him go Hannah. Just hear him out tonight and then leave. Don't come back to him because you don't deserve him. You deserve someone much better"

Deep down I know she has right. But I don't feel that right now. I have missed him so much these past weeks. But I have just told myself that I don't miss him so I can easily move on. I would lie if I said that I haven't thought of him every day. 

"Hannah promise me that," she said when I stepped out of the fitting room. "I can't promise anything Anna. If you loved someone as much as I love him, wouldn't you go back to him?" She got quiet and I could tell by her face that she was on my side. "Exactly, so let me do whatever I want. I appreciate that you are trying to help me. But I'm 20 almost 21. So I have to do this on my own"

-A few hours later-

I looked at myself in the mirror one last time and I was proud of my choice of outfit

"So you are really going to eat dinner with Shawn?" Liam asked from my bed "Yes, I need to hear him out" I turned around and looked at Liam and Anna "And then we'll see what's happen" I shrugged "So are you going back to him?" Liam raised one eyebrow "I don't know. I mean maybe. It depends" I grabbed my purse. "See you guys later" I walked out of my dorm and closed the door behind me. And I could hear Liam and Anna whisper to each other that it was a bad idea that I'm going to have dinner with Shawn. But I totally ignore their opinions right now.

I knocked on the door to Shawn's apartment and I could hear footsteps approaching the door. The door opened and he stood there, half-naked? He just had a white towel around his waist and I couldn't help to stop looking at his bare chest.

"Hey, weren't you suppose to be here at 7 pm?" "It is 7 pm Shawn" he looked at his wristwatch "Oh shit, I- I'm sorry. I totally forgot the time" He looked at me from top to toe before he stepped aside so I could walk in "Sit down on the couch, I'm just gonna go and change" he chuckled and I could feel the awkwardness build up between us.

I sat down on the couch and waited for him to get dressed. And when I looked around in his apartment I got flashbacks from when I picked Shawn up from the hospital and stayed up the night just to make sure that he was okay.

I heard footsteps coming from the bedroom behind me and Shawn walked to the kitchen. And he looked hot as always.

"You want anything to drink? Beer, wine, I can make you a drink if you want?" "Wine will be great" I pushed myself up from the couch and walked up to him and sat down on the other side of the kitchen counter.

"Here you go," he said and slid the wineglass over to me. "Thanks" I smiled quickly at him and then looked down on the red wine in the glass.

"I know that you probably don't want to talk to me and that you are pissed at me" he grabbed my hand on top of the counter and I could see the sadness in his eyes. We looked really hurt. "That's why I got here Shawn. I came here to talk. I still don't get why you lied to me. Why didn't you tell me that you have a child?"

As quickly as I took up the topic I could feel tears in my eyes. "I know and I'm so so sorry. I thought that" he took a short pause and sighed heavily "I don't know. That you would hate me if I told you that" "I would never hate you Shawn because of that. This shit hurt more Shawn. I thought that we would be honest with each other"

"I know and I am sorry about that. Do you know how much I hate myself because of this? It hurts me every day to wake up in an empty bed, knowing that you are on the other side of the world and are mad at me and that you hate me" few tears escaped his eye.

"And I hate myself even more that I didn't sign the divorce paper when Gemma left the office that day" he slammed his fist on top of the counter with so much force so it made a loud noise "Fuck!" He almost yelled and grabbed his fist with his other hand and bent down with his half body. And he cried? It was not just a small tear escaping his eye. No, no. He was crying.

I quickly walked up to him "Hey, shh" I cupped his cheeks and he didn't look up at me. He just slides down to the floor with his back against the refrigerator door. I followed his movements and squatted down in front of him, still cupping his cheeks.

"Shawn look at me" he slowly lifted his head and his glossy eyes met mine. "I don't hate you and I never will. But I just got so mad that you didn't tell me earlier. And I think if I wouldn't have left we would have solved this by now"

"You don't have to say that Hannah. I know that you hate me" he sobbed

I shook my head and wiped away the tears from his cheeks "No I don't. I still love you. I would lie if I said that I haven't thought of you every day. I thought that you hated me because I left you. I have been scared that you will meet someone else. And that I will never meet someone because they will never be like you. I love you, Shawn. I do. I even got a crush on you when we met for the first time at the flight"

Shawn got a little smile on his lips "I love you" I whispered and was going to say something else but got interrupted by Shawn's lips on mine. My whole body relaxed and I kissed him back. It didn't take long until our kiss switched to a passionate make-out session. He wrapped his arms around my body and stood up with me in his arms. His hands slide down to my thighs "Jump" he whispered against my lips and I did as I was told and he walked to the bed.

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I rested my head on his shoulder, his big hand played with my hair and our fingers were intertwined on top of his stomach.

"His name is Adam," he said all of sudden, and I looked up at him and he just looked up at the ceiling. "My son. His name is Adam and he is 2 years old and he turns 3 this winter. I don't know the date but I know that his birthday is someday in the winter"

I rolled on top of him and brushed away the curl from his forehead "Gemma got pregnant when I was 23. And during her pregnancy, everything didn't go as planned. We started to fight and she started to live on my money even though she had a lot more money than me at that time. And one week before the due date, she left. And I haven't seen my son. I don't even think that he knows that I exist"

A small tear escaped his eyes and he finally looked at me. "I have tried to meet him but Gemma just pushes me away. She won't let me meet him. The only thing she does is to live on my damn money and say that I am a bad dad that won't give my money to my kid. But I know that she doesn't use the money for Adam. She uses them so she can buy expensive stuff for herself"

I kissed him softly on the lips "Don't say that Shawn. I think that you are going to be an amazing dad. And I'm gonna talk to that witch so you can meet your son. If she doesn't listen to me I'm gonna call the cops. Because this is not okay. You have to meet your son and build up a father and son relationship" he smiled against my lips.

"I love you so freaking much Hannah"

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