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[Inspired by TXT's song "Ghosting"]

사라진 너, 사-사라진
희미한 유령처럼 사-사라진

Taehyunnie, do you think about me like I do? I wonder if you even remember our times together. Why did you suddenly disappear like a ghost? Did I fail to be a good hyung to you? Or is it that, Beomgyu's just better?

희미한 유령처럼 사-사라진
메아리만 맴도는 방에
자서만 떠돌아 내내
난 유령처럼

These hallways, they feel so empty without you by my side. Just a week ago, you were here. Beside me laughing and smiling but now, I'm left alone wandering here like a ghost. What changed between us?

네모난 화면에 가득한 메시지들
티키타카 좋았던 우린데

I sit here on our seat, which is now not "Ours" anymore. You were sitting here just a week ago, when did it change exactly? My screen's filled with thousands of messages, but I find myself waiting for one. Tiki-taka...and it never comes. Am I a fool for wanting to know the reason why we ended up like this?

멍하니 바라봐 쓸쓸하게 띄워놓은 window
오른쪽엔 내 얘기만 뒹굴어 홀로

I look out of the window to see the clear blue sky. You used to talk about how much you love blue skies sitting beside me. But now it's just me cherishing those memories. I'm the loser in this game huh? You get to enjoy the memories while they've become a Nostalgic sad nightmare for me. You're definitely the winner.

점점 더 불안해져
All day, all day, all day, all day

This feeling's getting suffocating. I'm anxious and I keep thinking about you all day. Why is it so unfair? You are standing right there beside him smiling happily, while I sit here being miserable, not being able to be the reason for your smile anymore. I'm stupid aren't I?

희미한 유령처럼 사-사라진
허공에 묻곤 해
"난 너한테 뭐길래?" (뭐길래?)

I ask myself, why did you disappear like a faint ghost? Am I nothing to you? Not even our memories? I often find myself questioning "What am I to you" but I only get one answer. "No one." Does the word "Choi Soobin" even appear in your mind? Even once? I wonder if they do.

바라봐 멍하니 새롭게 올라온 네
Hashtag "오늘_하늘참_예쁨"

I got the message I was finally waiting for, but oh. . . Seems like it's not for me. There is a picture of you and Beomgyu with the hashtag "Today's beautiful". I'm glad it's beautiful for you Taehyun. I'm glad Beomgyu is making your day good. But wasn't it me once? Who used to make your day beautiful? I scroll down to see not a single picture of us remain. Did you dislike the idea of our memories that much?

믿을 수 없어 다 이미 내 세상 속에
너는 logout 이제야 알아 (oh-ayy, oh-ayy)

Maybe I have to accept that you have already logged-out from my world now. It's just me and only me here now. Life is quite unexpected right? Who knew we would end up like this. Me never.

밤을 새 오늘도 뜬 눈으로 like a zombie
찾고 있어 대화 속에 이별의 징조
아직 난 모르겠어

How pathetic, it's night and I should be sleeping but here I am, awake like a zombie staring at my phone, reading our old conversations and trying to find that "farewell" you were supposed to bid me. Yet to fail to find that. I don't know anymore.

한순간 사라진 너, 사-사라진
희미한 유령처럼 사-사라진
허공에 묻곤 해
"난 너한테 뭐길래?" (뭐길래?)

You disappeared like a faint ghost, without a single word or Farewell. I question myself again. Did I ever mean anything to you? You abandoned me so easily. Was I ever anything to you? I am left alone here, like a ghost wandering alone.

사실 나도 알아
"대답 없음" 그게 대답인 걸
익숙해지지 않아 (oh)
혼자가 돼 버린 게 (oh)

Actually, I know. I know the answer to your leaving. Your "no answer" was the answer. I mean nothing to you and I'm easily replaceable just like an object. I hate this feeling but I can't get used to it. The feeling of being alone and not having you by my side. Taehyun, I don't even deserve an answer huh?

사진 속의 우리처럼 (처럼)
어서 다시 돌아가야만 해
난 아직 여기 있는데 (난 아직 여기 있는데)
난 아직 여기 있는데

Just like us in the picture which is a past, I have to let go of the past. I need to let go of it already. But why is it so hard for me? Why is it so easy for you? I should have walked away already, but I'm still here. I'm still here Taehyun, with these memories fading already.

한순간 사라진 너, 사-사라
희미한 유령처럼 사-사라진
메아리만 맴도는 방
나 혼자서만 떠돌아 내내
난 유령처럼

Another new day, and I'm still here. Wandering like a ghost in the empty hallways. Will I ever be able to forget you Kang Taehyun? Maybe I won't, but I hope it hurts less than now. I hope you're happy with Beomgyu. But I'll wonder forever. Why did you disappear like a faint ghost leaving me alone to ask myself "What am I to you". Choi Soobin is here once again, Wandering like a faint ghost.

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Not sure if y'all can consider it a oneshot, but I wanted to write it. You can interpret Taebin as either lovers or bestfriends. Your wish!

I hope y'all liked it! Byeee! Take care Luvs<333
-Rin💕