REAL LIFE (JUNE 16),

Nick was the only person Ella had chosen to talk to since the break up. It had been four days of misery for both Matt and Ella. Where as Ella would only talk to Nick, Matt would only talk to Baylen. Chris would always try to text or facetime Ella and she would never answer. He tried to help his brother, but to Matt no help could be found within his brothers. This was Matt's problem and no one else could help with that. Matt had chosen to take a break with Ella. And that's what replayed through his mind, every time a knock would ring against the boy's door. It was always, "Come on Matt, we want to help." or something along the lines of that, but there was never a reply. Even with Ella. Baylen had been staying under the same roof- practically living- with Ella and she wouldn't even attempt to budge one bit. The only time she came out of her room was to get a shit load of snacks and drinks from the kitchen. It had only been four days and the two were already struggling big time.

"Ella, you need to get out of the house." Baylen states as he stands outside of Ella's locked bedroom door. He hears something come out of her mouth, words, but it wasn't to him, it was to Nick.

"Nick I- it seems fun, like I would want to go but I just can't. Matt's gonna be there and then I'd be a whole mess." She explains to Nick who was on the other side of her cellular device. "Come on Ella. It would be fun, stop thinking about Matt and think about yourself and how you would benefit from the situation. Just think about it. You have all of today and tomorrow and then when we come by to pick up Baylen, hopefully you're dressed in the hottest outfit and you come along with us." Nick objects.

"Fine. I'll think about it. But don't expect a yes from me." Ella sigh, just giving up knowing Nick would talk her into it anyways. "So that's a yes?" Nick jokes, "It's a maybe. But you're gonna have to come over and pick my outfit though cause if I picked it, it would be a hoodie and sweats." Ella bargains, "Deal. I'll be over tomorrow morning, 9 O'clock to help you pick out an outfit then Matt will pick us both up and we will all go to the fair." Nick explains.

"So I really have to go?" Ella asked, "Yes you really have to go, it'll be fun. I promise." Nick reasons, "Ugh fine." Ella gives in, "YAY. OK, I'll be there tomorrow morning." Nick replies, a glistening smile plastered on his face. "Ok Nick." Ella replies, laughing a bit, not a lot but enough for Nick to smile at the fact that Ella had smiled for once.

"K, bye Ella." Nick says, waving to his friend, "Bye Nick, see you tomorrow morning." Ella replies, waving back and hanging up.

The next morning had been lead up to from a lot of crying, anger, sadness, mascara smearing and more, but either way, it was the next day and Nick was in Ella's room, looking for an outfit.

"OO you brought your Jordans this time." Nick states as he sees many pairs of shoes, "Mhm." Ella replies, sitting on her bed with her legs crossed in front of her, her fingers messing with the rings on her fingers.

"Ok do you have any red tops?" Nick asks, pulling out her red Jordans. "Um yeah I have a few, they should be in that bag right over there." Ella answers, squinting one eyes and pointing to one of her duffel bags.

 Nick picks out a top and lays it beside Ella along with the shoes.

"So what black bottoms do you have?" Nick asked, Ella points to a dirty pair of jean shorts laying on the floor. "That are clean." he adds.

Ella groans and gets up from her bed, pulling out a pair of black jeans.

"Will these work?" Ella asked with a bit of an attitude. "Yes, now stop giving me attitude and go change." Nick replies.

Ella groans and takes her clothes to the bathroom. She looks at herself in the mirror, once facing front, and once facing to the side. 

"Nothing's wrong with me. I'm pretty. I am great, don't die, please don't die. It's not worth it." she mutters to herself very quietly but even her own words couldn't convince her that she's worthy enough to keep on with life.

She lets a tear fall down her face before wiping it and exiting the bathroom with her hoodie and sweatpants in hand.

"See now this is the hot ass mother fucking Ella I know and love." Nick says as Ella comes out of her bathroom.

(this is her fit if u don't like it, change it, it's as simple as that :) )

"Thanks Nick, that makes me feel good." Ella replies, hugging Nick after throwing her clothes in the pile of dirty clothes.

"Of course Ella. You should always feel good about yourself. AND before we continue this conversation, I'm ending it. I just got you to smile, I don't want you in a bad or sad mood okay? We're going to the fair and us two are gonna have fun. We're all gonna have fun and I'll make sure of it." Nick replies.

"Okay." 

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