V
baby i need to tell you something

V
do you promise me you wont be mad?

Justin
oh no

Justin
what happened

V
i just kinda think i started sleeping around idek

Justin
wdym by that???

V
i just i don't know i got drunk two days ago and then i slept with someone and idek who that was and today i did it again with another dude i still had the number of

Justin
you're kidding.. right?

Justin
oh my god i'm not mad but this actually makes me so sad

Justin
have you completely lost your self respect?

V
please don't get mad

V
please

Justin
i'm not mad i'm just... sad

Justin
it's not what you deserve. you don't deserve people who only sleep with you and throw you away right after.
you deserve someone who treats you with so much love and affection, someone who cares for you after he slept with you.

Justin
i know what you're going through, trust me. when i was still in my 'idontknowifimgay" phase, i also gave my body to someone, thinking it would help me to figure out if i like boys or not

Justin
and hey, it helped! not only did i figure out that i'm gay as fuck, i also figured out that i had feelings for the boy who was leaving me alone every time after he slept with me.

Justin
long story short, he only wanted me for the fuck, for my body, not for the actual me. and thats it.

Justin
i'm not someone to tell you what to do, i just dont want you to get hurt because you don't deserve it. and i know what it feels like if someone
you like doesn't like you back. it hurts

V
baby, i'm so sorry. so sorry. you don't deserve any of this.

V
thank you, for telling me this. i know it must be hard for you to open up to people, i'm really glad that you trust me, really.

V
i just hope that one day you'll met a person who can give you the whole world

V
a person who can show you who they really are...

Justin
you are that person

Justin
you're my savior

V
no

V
stop

V
you deserve so much better than me

V
i cant even grow balls to show you who i truly am

Justin
i don't care

Justin
even someone i don't know the face of makes me happier than anyone else ever could

V
j i'm just so scared

V
i'm scared you'll be disappointed when you find out who i am

V
i'm scared you'll hate me

V
i'm scared that you'll leave me

Justin
i could never hate you.

V
that's because you don't know who i really am

V
you deserve so much better

V
not someone who sleeps around and uses other people for his own will, not someone who's still in the closet and will probably not come out of it, not someone who can't even accept himself

V
you deserve so much better

Justin
but i only want you

Justin
theres nobody who makes me feel like you make me feel

Justin
you make me feel like i'm worth it

Justin
you make me feel loved

Justin
you make me feel good in my own skin

Justin
you manage to cause all these things to me. then why don't you try it on yourself? why don't you try to make yourself feel like that?

V
it just doesn't work

V
sometimes i feel good in myself

V
and then i look around, think about my life and realize how much of a mess i've made.

V
i just want to be happy, you know? is that too much to ask?

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ITS BEEN YEARS

also why did this fic turn from dick jokes to a super dark one