authors note; I changed the faceclaim for Cassie, just check out the first chapter to see more pictures of her but I'll drop one here, too! Please leave feedback if you liked it! 🖤🌿

This is a long chapter + detailed smut.

Nervously bouncing with her leg Cassie sat outside the diner waiting for Happy to come back with their food. The warm sun that shone in her face got on her nerves while she glanced at her phone to check the time for the fifth time in the last fifteen minutes.

She felt uncomfortable in her own skin and wanted to get away from the crowded parking lot that made her feel as if she was being watched by many people. Which was bullshit, she knew that, but not having weed since yesterday morning was making her paranoid.

The amount she was used to now seemed to make her more dependent than she initially thought. Which wasn't good at all. She just got her job back, she was back together with both her brothers and not only one, she got responsibilities again. She didn't want to fuck things up, not again.

Maybe she should've stayed home and didn't let Happy convince her to come along. Their trip was nice, no doubt, and she enjoyed every second of it. The night they stayed in a Motel near the woods was peaceful, exactly what she needed to clean her mind.

Still, the lack of conversation with Happy and the many moments of awkward silence between them made her nervous. And after a quiet breakfast, after they'd slept in seperated beds, she felt the need to light up a joint so she could silence the nervousness a little. Too bad she forgot it at home and had no other choice but deal with the uncomfortable emotions, which were the reason she started smoking weed in the first place.

“Here”, Happy's raspy voice tore her out of her thoughts, holding a bag with food out for her to take it. “Wanna eat here or at the Motel?”

“Motel please”, she mumbled as she got up, gently snatching the bag out of his hand only to open it to steal a few curly fries that she managed to elegantly shove into her mouth. “Wow, these are good!”

“Well then”, Happy said, an almost amused look on his face as he watched her shove a few more of the fries into her mouth. “You know we can eat here, right?”

“Mhm..I know”, she replied after she had washed everything down with a sip of the coke that she had her own bag. “But this place is way too crowded. Weird for a small town.”

She wasn't quite sure where they were at the moment but she trusted Happy to get them back home safe. They drove through a few small towns yesterday until Happy took her to a pretty nice place that was close to the motel.

Living in Tacoma her whole life made her fall in love with woods, especially during fall. The rainy atmosphere and a cloudy sky always had something peaceful, just like a light thunderstorm. She probably wouldn't get a scenery like this often in Charming or many parts in Cali, but the place Happy took her to had exactly the atmosphere she already missed.

They didn't hike or anything, that was neither something she nor he wanted but they took a walk through the woods before they checked into the Motel when it got dark. Not many words were spoken between them as they were in the woods, she was still too hurt even though she didn't want to admit it. Yet his idea managed to put a smile on her face.

To know that he knew exactly what she liked and what she already missed showed how much attention he actually paid when it came to her, which she appreciated a lot.

“You never had a problem with crowded places”, Happy stated matter of factly while straddling his bike, motioning her with a nod to get on his bike, too.

“I know but⸺ I just don't feel comfortable at the moment”, she admitted honestly while she threw one leg over his bike after she put on the helmet and wrapped her arms around his torso once she sat behind him, holding the bag with the food in one hand and holding on to him with the other.

Her heart skipped a beat now that their bodies were melted together once again, giving her best to keep a cool face even though he couldn't see it anyway. Today just wasn't the day she wanted Happy to see her vulnerable side, not after he was inside someone else.

Happy didn't question it⸺ not now at least. He'd ask her later what was going on with her, they needed to have a talk anyway because this, this wasn't how he wanted their friendship to be like. Cassie always shared her thoughts and feelings with him, he didn't want that to change because they didn't communicate enough.

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“We need to talk about this shit, Cassie”, he pointed out simply after they finished eating in bed, something they always did when it was only the two of them.

“I know”, the brunette sighed softly and cleaned up the bed, making sure there weren't any crumbs on the blanket. Even though they loved eating in bed, neither of them wanted so sit on crumbs.

“Wanna start?”, he asked, a softness in his voice no one else but she knew.

“I don't even know where to start, it sounds so silly”, she paused to let out a humorless laugh as she fiddled with the fringes on her black denim skirt. “When I saw you taking that whore to your room I just got jealous and I don't know why.”

“Then why didn't you say something?”, he inquired as he grabbed her chin to lift her head, staring into her eyes once they locked with his.

“And act like the jealous girlfriend?”, she huffed, shaking her head slightly. Her face, covered halfway by her wavy hair, softened quickly as she looked back into his dark orbs. They always exuded a certain amount of calm and security. “We aren't even together, you did nothing wrong, Hap. I was being overdramatic and shouldn't have talked to you the way I did yesterday. So, I'm sorry.”

“I fucked her to get you out of my head, it's as simple as that”, he told her with a grunt before unexpectedly pulling her onto his lap and running his hands down her bare legs, eliciting a surprised squeal from her. “Because all I can think of recently is that pretty face of yours and you know that I'm not made for this shit. I didn't mean to hurt you, little girl.”

“I know that you never wanted to hurt me. Yet I know it'll happen again. The feelings I have for you, which I myself had never realized before that I even have any romantic feelings for you, seem to be pretty strong.” She, smiling weakly, brought a hand up to his cheek ever so cautiously as if it were the first time touching him. Her eyes still locked with his, she watched him relax under her touch and lean back against the head of the bed, his hands ghosting over her thighs, pushing her skirt up even more.

“Don't”, her voice barely a whisper as his fingertips traced the faded old scars, causing her to tense up immediately and wrap her fingers around his wrist. “You know I don't like them.”

“But I do, because I fuckin' love everything about you, little girl”, he rasped against her plump lips, his low gravelly voice sending shivers down her spine while the excitement between her legs grew, making her swallow dryly.

Happy, who wasn't usually known for many words, let alone words like that, knew exactly what to say to make her melt like chocolate in his hands. She hated and loved this part of him at the same time, confused as to what she wanted in the first place.

Relationships have never been her thing, and no other man has ever been able to convince her that a partnership has its advantages. But with Happy, she could suddenly picture it all. Living together, living life together while looking for solutions to problems together. A relationship, if it was a healthy one, meant no longer being alone, feeling safe and at home. And if she listened to her heart, Happy was the one who could give her that, the only one she wanted to give her that. The feeling of having finally found peace, of being at home no matter where in the world you were as long as the person was with you. That was love, and she fucking loved him.

“We can't go on like this, one of us will get hurt. That's not what I want”, she spoke softly, trailing kisses down his neck while her hands slid down his chest, getting a low grunt out of him.

“But it's not exactly easy to stay away from you”, the brunette, blushing lightly, added in a seductive whisper, a throaty moan slipping past her lips at the feeling of the growing bulge against her middle. Maybe she should've dressed differently since the only thing between them now were his pants and her soaked slip.

“Who said I want you to stay away from me?”, he growled as he quickly grabbed her hips and pushed her down on him even more, his erection pressing against her folds that were still covered by the thin fabric of her black lace slip, making both of them moan out. “What is it that you want?”

His eyes, filled with pure lust and need, stared into her piercing blue ones. Pushing her skirt up high enough, revealing her bare ass, he gave it a good squeeze.

She caved into him as two of his fingers danced over her left thigh before he pushed the fabric aside only to push his fingers inside her, his thumb drawing circles over her clit. Her soft moans and the desperate look in her eyes begging him for more made him smile proudly.

“You”, she breathed out, her hands tugged on the hem of his shirt, telling him to lean forward so she could take it off. After she threw it aside, her hands roamed over his body, touching every inch of it. “I want you. One more time, then we end this before we hurt each other more.”

Besides the pure lust in her voice there was something else lingering in her tone. Pain, heartache, desperation. Her words hit him harder than he wanted them to, especially now that he started to like the thought of making her his forever. But if ending this is what she wanted, he'd give it to her.

A gasp left her lips as he grabbed a fist full of her hair, not rough enough to hurt her, and curled his fingers inside her, pushing them in and out in a painful slow pace, making her whine for more.

“I'm gonna make sure you won't forget our last time, little girl.”, he promised, his hot breath hitting the skin on her neck before he started to suck on it until the blood came to the surface, leaving a trail of deep purple hickeys on her neck, each of them in a different size. Even if he would let her go, he wanted to mark her and keep other guys, who would definitely come one day, away from her as long as possible.

As she began to move her hips in the same rhythm as his fingers and her walls tightened around them, he pulled them out of her and laid her on her back, crawling over her and slowly freeing her from her clothes. The last thing he took care of was her soaked slip, which he slipped off her legs with a smirk while she watched him admiringly.

Only a moment later his head was buried between her legs, his tongue sliding through her dripping folds a few times, making her moan out his name in pure pleasure while her nails dug into his shoulder, which was her way to mark him and she definitely wasn't done yet doing so.

On his way back up, he didn't miss the chance to kiss every inch of her body, sucking on her hard nipples once he reached her perfectly shaped breasts. Cassie was pretty skinny, something Happy didn't necessarily need, which is why he loved her curves and proportions that made her look healthy. And fucking hot.

She already had goosebumps all over her body from all the things he did and, as his tongue slid over her lip to ask for entrance, she didn't hesitate to part her plump limps to let his slip inside her mouth. As their tongues collided, a throaty moan escaped both their throats and flowed into the kiss. A kiss that was so soft and gentle but rough, longing and filled with passion she never had before. It felt like all their feelings were projected into the kiss at once.

Wanting nothing more than the feeling of him being inside of her, his jeans and boxers slid down his legs after she pushed them down hastily, not once breaking the kiss while freeing him from the last pieces of clothes that had been between them.

“You're on birth control, right?”, he asked, his breathing heavy after he broke the kiss to look down at her, both of them gasping for the much needed air. While he waited for an answer, he couldn't help but stare at her beautiful face. Those ocean blue eyes, the button nose and her always plump looking lips that gave her the perfect innocent, seductive look that he couldn't get enough of.

“Yes”, she, while her nails ghosted over his chest, whispered sweetly.

“Good”, he rasped after being torn out of his stare, a mischievous smirk back on his face as he placed the tip of his hard cock at her entrance, trailing the tip up and down her lips, teasing her just a little before he thrusted inside her, hard and deep without giving her the chance to adjust to his size first. He knew she could take it.

As a loud moan fell from her lips, she arched her back and buried her nails deep into the skin of his back, the excited grunt coming from him giving her another reason to get turned on even more. Without a condom, which they always used before, it felt even better and much more intense, which clouded her mind while she felt like being in heaven as his thrusts became harder, almost merciless, making her legs shake and her body squirm beneath him.

Her nails left four long, deep scratches on his back, that already turned red after a few seconds, causing a low, throaty growl emerge from him. One of his hands slipped into hers, his fingers entwined with hers as his left hand was buried once again in her dark brown hair.

“Let me hear you, baby”, he ordered with a deep growl, taking her off guard for a moment at his new nickname for her, causing her heart to ache at the thought of never being called baby by him again after this day.

But she was in too much of an ecstatic state to think about that now. Instead, as he wanted, she let him hear her by not holding back at all. His name rolled over her tongue a few times, and if not that, her loud moans kept filling the room while he fucked her mercilessly. If she was honest, she had no idea if she would be able to sit two hours on the back of his bike later on their way home.

The love and desire he had for the brunette beneath him was big, almost painful. He couldn't let her go, she was his and his only. Admiring her pretty face while her eyes rolled back, her walls tightening around him bringing him close to his orgasm, he knew he had to make her his. But maybe in another lifetime.

As both of them were close, Cassie pulled him into another kiss, probably the most loving, longing kiss she ever gave someone. She put her whole heart into that kiss, letting him know how much she craved him. Their tongues collided, for what they thought would be the last time, again as he gently pulled on her hair, the sweet pain made her moan and finally cum for him.

“Good girl”, he rasped into her ear, making her shiver, before nibbling on her earlobe. It took him only a few more thrusts until his orgasm rolled over him, too, making him come deep inside of her, which made both of them moan out once again.

Both of them needed to catch some air, the cool air from the air conditioner helped their heated bodies to cool down, their eyes locked the whole time while Happy brushed some of her hair out of her face, once again he focused on every little detail.

She couldn't hold it in anymore and, wrapping her arms around his back tightly, she let the tears fall freely. Knowing this was the last time they shared such a intimate moment, showing each other how much they needed each other, broke her heart into thousand little pieces.

“I love you”, she chocked out after her voice cracked, nuzzling her face against his shoulder after she pulled him even closer. “I hope you're gonna find your happiness one day.”

Happy swallowed hard, pulling out of her before he rolled over, pulling her with him and holding her in his arms. Hearing her tearstained voice, how broken she sounded, made him feel sick. He didn't want her to be hurt or sad, she deserved some fucking happiness in her fucked up life. They both did.

“I love you too, little girl”, his voice hoarse and thick with emotion as he spoke, a weird feeling, probably heartbreak, made him feel like darkness overcame him once again now that he lost the sun in his own clouded, dark world. And he fuckin' hated it.