I tell myself that I'm old enough .

I tell myself that I should forgive you .

I tell myself that everyone deserves second chances.

But I tell myself that I'm young enough not to forget.

New beginnings are a crack in the ice.

But how can I incinerate this wall of 

Shame, hate, guilt, gullibility, evil;

That I've  built for all these lifetimes ?

I know that everyone deserves new beginnings.

But I tell myself that I'm young enough to hate.

That I'm young enough to hold a grudge,

That I'm young enough to not be wise,

That I can forever be young enough to not 

Let your new beginnings destroy me.