18|"Stay away. I'm not a good company."

She closed her eyes, the headache getting worse and worse. The medicine wasn't working and it will not-not till the demons in her head will not haunt her anymore.

She bangs her head on the wall, trying to disappear the ache but nothing was working. Not the alcohol, not the medicine, not the banging on the wall. Nothing was working and only the pain was worsening.

"Why? Why me? WHY ME?!" She shouts tears streaming down her face, wetting her black graphic tee. "Why it was me?" She points at herself, closing her eyes.

The ache in her chest, in her red beating organ, was the most painful compared to her headache. The memories which have been with her forever weren't leaving while everyone else did. Memories—the worst and the best part of life.

Memories make you cry even if they're happy, even if you have a smile lingering on your lips, you feel a pang in your chest because you know that moment will never come back.

She grabs her head when her migraine was feeling like it would explode her head. Pushing the bottles of alcohol aside, she stands up, the cigarettes crushing beneath her foot.

Her eyes roam here and there in search of her black jacket with 'humans are shit' carved behind it. A scoff leaves her mouth when she reads the sentence. "Humans are really shit." She mumbles and wears her cap with 'you're an asshole' written in bold.

Everything in her was intimidating. From her walk to her clothes, from her gaze to her words, everything was intimidating. No one ever dared to approach her excpet that curious asshole who doesn't leave her alone.

Shadow, mystery, shady, or so on. Don't know how many names he has given her till now. She doesn't know what is he so curious about?

Her life? The life she doesn't want to live? The life she has tried to take so many times that she have lost the count of how many times she tried it to take it? The life which is nothing but a burden on her shoulders?

Or the life she was living before? The life where she was willing to live and never die? Where did she use to think about ways to live forever? The life where she had dreams instead of goals to keep living? The life where anyone could see her eyes twinkle with excitement and all the emotions she felt before her life turned black and white?

Curious? Curiosity killed the cat and she has been telling him that since they met for the first time but that boy doesn't listen. When she told him to stay away from her, she had reasons or who else would mind a company in their lonely and sad life?

Everyone said she's destruction and that was right. Everyone was right. She was destruction. From the day she was born till the day, she's living—living? This isn't called  living.

She opens the door of the car, slamming it. The poor door has been slammed every time she gets angry or something happens even Jungkook did the same. Someday the door will leave her too like her friends did, leaving her alone to suffer.

Her mood instantly lifts when her eyes capture the beautiful scenery in front of her. The fresh air that she hasn't felt for 3 days makes her shiver. Inhaling the scent of the forest she walks towards the edge of the mountain, the mountain she hasn't come to since that incident.

This special place, those special nights,
all the memories rushing back tonight.
The memories she has abandoned come back sometimes,
Leaving her breathless on these lonely nights.
These lonely nights always made her take her life but only the goal stopped her from leaving everything behind.

"Why are you crying?" He questions, wiping her tears. "The stars—the stars are beautiful." She replies, avoiding the topic. He sighs getting why she was crying.

"Yeah, the star is really beautiful." She lifts her head, frowning. "But there isn't only one star beautiful?" He chuckles, tucking her hair behind her ear. "But for me, my star is the most beautiful and shines the most." She hits his chest with her small fists, getting shy-

She turns around when she heard some footsteps from behind. She heaves a sigh when her gaze fell on the person she has been avoiding at all costs.

Jungkook turns his head, smiling nervously. "Hey?" He hesitates, his knees and hands on the ground in a crawling position. She chuckles, shaking her head.

"Anything can be expected from this kid." She thinks, not surprised at all.

Silence, a comfortable silence was surrounding them but Jeon Jungkook, a talkative monkey who loves to talk couldn't stay silent so he decided to start a conversation.

"So, what are you doing here?" He queries, plucking the grass from the ground. "Nothing." Jungkook nods but his eyes widen in shock when he heard a reply from her without any hint of sarcasm or ignoring him.

"Wow! This moment should have been recorded or what if we write this moment in the Guinness world book record?" He tease her with a smile that tugged at his lips. "Shut your dramatic ass." Jungkook chuckles when the sassiness comes back.

"How do you know about this place?" She questions, gazing at the stars. "Oh? Someone is curious today. Curiosity killed the cat." She rolls her eyes at his lame joke, a smile tugging her lips.

"You're gonna tell me or not?"

"Impatient I see. Well, I will since I know how it feels when someone keeps ignoring your curiosity and keeps you in the shadow." He lifts his gaze, staring at the dark sky twinkling with the tiny stars making it appear more beautiful than it is.

"My friend—hyung knows about this place. He took me here with him one day and requested me not to tell anyone about this place." She nods, biting her lip.

"But almost no one knows about this place then how.....?" She trails off, pondering. "Yeah, many people don't know excluding me, you, and him." Again silence surrounds them only the sounds of grasshoppers and some weird noises were heard.

"By the way, your ex is handsome." Jungkook again breaks the silence not wanting to keep his mouth shut that runs 24 hours, even while sleeping. She tilts her head, getting perplexed by his statement. "Ex? I don't....." She trails off not wanting to finish the sentence.

Jungkook looks at her, scoffing. "The kid who came that day, forcing himself in your house. Isn't he your ex? I never thought you would be into younger boys. He always comes to your door but never knocks, just sits there and goes back—by the way, I'm not a stalker...I just—know."

Horror and disgust crossed her face. She was feeling like she could puke anytime soon. "That kid isn't my ex! He's my brother you asshole!" Jungkook stops killing the ground's soulmate, sitting back in shock. "I thought....."

"You're the same."

"Same what?"

"The people who assume. I just feel like burying them in the ground alive."

"So you have a brother?" She nods, looking disinterested in the topic. "That's why he was looking like you."

"He isn't like me. He is....way more ugly....actually handsome."

"Yeah, I saw-" he shuts his mouth instantly, eying her but she had no reaction because she knew it was truth and truth is always bitter. "You're jealous of him?" She sighs, getting up from the ground.

"I think I should go home-"

"Okay, I will not ask any question-"

"I don't think so but that's not the reason so chill dude." She assures him, heading toward her car.

She halts, playing with the key in her hand. "Thanks....for today but please stay away. I'm not a good company..find someone else." With that said she walks away, gulping the lump in her throat.

Am I seeing some improvement in their....friendship? What would we say? Friendship isn't the right word.

Another flashback...who do you think it is? And the brother...any guesses?

Okay, so I will be leaving while you guys keep guessing and cussing me for not
revealing her past lol!

Keep cussing cause I know everyone does.

Stay curious like Jungkook~