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21. jealously

Everyone in the office surrounded Amanda as she was stopping and had Jessie with her. Jocelyn claps her hands at the baby. My she loved them. How cute they are, but as soon as they start crying, she can give them back.

"Enjoy maternity Amanda. When my sister had to go back to work, it was the most wrenching thing." Sonny sits down as he tells her.

"Carisi, really?" Jocelyn frowns. "But can i ask? Can I hold her?" Amanda smiles as Jocelyn's voice softens.

"Eyes distance." She hands her Jessie. Jocelyn's face lights up, rocking the baby girl in her arms.

"She weighs nothing! Pedro, my baby nephew, hes like 2 times heavier, dont tell my sister in law." They laughed. "Aren't you the prettiest girl ever!" Sonny smiles to himself as he sees her with the baby in her arms. "Just to let you know, i am down to babysit her whenever you need it."

"Thanks Jo." Amanda nods with a smile. Sonny stands behind Jocelyn to get a better look at Jessie.

"Shes absolutely gorgeous! I want one." Jocelyn slips out without realizing.

"Carisi might take you on that offer." Finn jokes. Sonny nearly chokes on air as he heard Finn. Mike looks up at them. Not surprised.

"What?" Jocelyn comes back to reality. Finn chuckles. "No, seriously what?"

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Rafael comes in, marching per usual, more like strutting but oh well. He has a coffee in one hand and a letter in one. He ignores his way with the men and goes straight to Jocelyn. Carisi didn't think of it really, New case, teenager boy and girl, she said he said. Its a mess. But to go to Jocelyn?

"Rafa." Jocelyn crosses her arms as she was about to sit down. "Livs not in yet."

"I know, i want something from you." He hands her the coffee cup. Jocelyn grabs it and raises a brow.

"Coffee from my favorite place, not the one you usually go to. It's serious then." She sets it down. Sonny looks from the printer, eyeing the two. "You need my hand in marriage so you can get your mother off your back?" He rolled his eyes. "Make an ex jealous?"

"I need a date to a gala im going, i rather not take my mother, but you are a choice." He hands her the letter with the ticket inside.

"You got me coffee to sweeten the deal." She plays around. "If i do say yes, whats in it for me?"

"Whatever you want." Her smile widens.

"Oh Rafa, you will regret that." He looks to see Sonny staring but immediately starts to do something to play it off. "I guess ill go. ONLY!" She puts the letter on her lips. "We match, make an entrance, wow the others."

"You are something else."

"My mom thinks the same but i turned out to be one the best children she ever had." She fluttered her eyes. "Is this a date?"

"No." He walks away from her as Liv walks in. She sees Sonny nodding his head slowly and leaving the printer. He hides away in the locker room, sitting there. For a woman that he doesn't have, she sure knows how to make a man jealous. Its not like shes trying to, its how she is. He cant get mad at her for it. Shes not his. It just rallies him up.

"You alright?" Finn asks him as he heads to his locker. "Whats got you down?"

"Nothing, just...it's complicated." Finn shuts his locker closed.

"I had one of those before." He leans against the wall. Sonny runs his hands over his mouth and looks down.

"Its nothing."

"Shes isn't just nothing, right?" She is everything. "Then why is it complicated?"

"Im scared that shes better off without me. She can do better." Sonny spills. He tries not to say her name. He had his thoughts. Jocelyn could do better. Dominick Carisi, lanky, awkward, detective who never knows how to shut up, can ever be with Jocelyn Peña who is beautiful, radiant, badass woman. For a woman like her would NEVER go for a man like him.

"Does she know that you want to be with her?" He shrugs. "Carisi, come on man. This isn't high school, you like the woman, you go for it."

"What if she might be interested in someone else?"

"If shes seeing you, trust me, shes not going for the other guy."

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Jocelyn heads to Sonny's place as she drops off the twins at the airport as it was their last day, even though their mother was coming but work was a pain for her. Sonny's  been distant, she hasn't been able to talk to him for a while since the case came up. Especially he would be one of the ones on the stand. Maybe being there will be calm the nerves.

"Hey!" She smiles as Sonny opens the door. He was in his pjs, Fordham shirt and some plaid pants.

"Uh hi." He clears his throat.

"I just dropped the twins off, Issac was pretty bummed about that he didn't see you before he left." She tucks her hair back.

"Yeah, ive been preparing for tomorrow." He cuts it short.

"Yeah, im here to help." She sways. "Or-"

"This is a bad time." Jocelyns face fell. Oh.

"No, right. My bad. I should've called." She puts her falling bag over her shoulder. "Hey, are we good?" She crosses her arms. "You've been weird all week." She finally gets it. "Is this about me and Barba?" He looks away. Should he be worried? "For you to even think that." Her eyes softened, hurt.

"Jocey..." He opens the door more, feeling sorry. Its his thoughts getting to him. He hates that about himself. "I didn't mean it, its just that-"

"That what? Im too friendly? Rafael and I are friends, yes i tease him, to play around with him. He hates that, I do it for fun, doesn't mean i like him." Guilt floods through Sonny's body. Damn it. "For your information, we are not together."

"You don't think i know that?" He tells her.

"Then do something about it." They both stand there in silence. Jocelyn had a lump in her throat, waiting. This was exhausting almost. As he said nothing back, it was time to go. "Good night Carisi." She walks away. Sonny slams the door and bangs his hand on the table. Look what you just did.

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Sonnys was on the stand, no sign of Jocelyn. Figured but it hurt him a bit, wait, a lot. That woman had him. They were arguing like they were together and it hurt. She did something to him and he didn't want to let her go.

Jocelyn opens her door to see Sonny standing there in front of her. Listen to him, hear him out, she kept telling herself. She leans against the doorframe and crosses her arms.

"Que?" She sasses. Sonny takes a deep breath.

"They kinda chewed me out today on the stand." No response or emotion from her. It was scary. This one will be tough. "I stopped by that bakery you like, the ones with the cannolis." He hands her the bag of sweets. "Im stupid." She raises a brow. Thats something. "Im sorry for being jealous." She sucks her cheeks in, listening. "You are the only woman that has made feel this way. I don't know why, or how you made it happen but you did." She drops her attitude and softens up. "So, i want to say is that, give me a chance. Here i am to tell you, i don't want to be friends or whatever we were. You drive me crazy, in a good way." Her heart stops. "I thought that you deserve more than me, made me realize that i haven't showed you anything yet. So Jocey, be with me." She stands there, holding it in. "Attitude and all." There was a small smirk.

"Jealously isn't a good look on you." She finally says. "Bring me treats will not-"

"Be with me." He cuts her off and repeats.

"Im only saying yes because of the cannolis." she lies. He steps closer. She got chills. She has a spot for him and she will not let him go. "Yes, about time." Sonny smiles. About damn time. She reaches out to hold his hand. "Youre in for a ride Dominick."

"If i get to be with you, im ready." He holds her hand, walks inside, closing the door behind him.