"Let me know if there is anything else you need help with"

He just sighed in response "Can I ask you something instead?" "Yeah" I nodded my head and laid his clothes I had in my arms on the couch and furrowed my eyebrows.
"What do you feel when you see me? Like right now, right here. What do you think and what do you feel?" "Shawn .." I said low and shook my head  "I just need to know what I am for you" "I can't answer that"

"You know I still love you, don't you?" "You shouldn't," I said, shaking my head slowly in light movements. Tears were running down my cheeks. "But I do" he almost forced out and I could hear that the cry was in his throat. "It's wrong" I whispered

He came a little closer and put his hand on my cheek. My eyes focused on his lips for only a few seconds. Waterdrops left his dark brown hair and ran down from his face and some drops landed on his shoulder and continued their way down his chest.

"I love you," He said again. "I belong to you, isn't that proof enough?" He said and his gaze changed from one eye to the other several times. And his eyes filled up with tears

"Proof of what?"

"Proof that I will love you forever. Whatever happens. I can't stop myself. I can't just turn off my feelings like that" he snaped with his fingers.

He took my right hand in his, gently moving his thumb over my knuckles.

"Believe me. You are everything I want, you are perfect in my eyes. I feel bad that you feel you are not enough. You are more than enough for me. Give it a chance baby"

"You will stop drinking, right? Promise me that"

"I can promise you that I will not drink one drop of alcohol in a very long time"

I looked down at our intertwined hands. He lifted them up and gave my hand a gentle kiss.

"I've missed you," He said, looking me deep in the eyes. "I'm right here" I whispered and put my free hand on his cheek and my eyes switched between his eyes several times
"No, I've been missing" He kissed me "This," he said when he pulled away.

"I'll try" I bit my lip to not let out my cry
"What do you mean?" "It is difficult to pretend that nothing has happened. But I promise I won't escape. We can work on this"

A smile formed on his lips "We can do that" "Now to the important thing"

Some wrinkles formed on Shawn's forehead, not quite sure whether to take it as a joke or not. I put my hand on his arm and let the palm of his arms down on his upper arm, I felt his biceps and felt that they had gotten bigger. He looked down at my hand.

"You've been working out eh?" He blushed, it looked as if he was ashamed, although there was no reason for it. He looked at me and tilted his head "How is my little princess Olivia doing?"

"She is fine. She has had to change kindergarten for the second, the one she went on before was too expensive. She asks about you every day. 'Where's Daddy?' is the first thing she asks when she wakes up and before she falls asleep"

Sadness came as a wave over Shawn's face "What do you say then?"

"I tell her. I felt it was best to tell her the way it was and not wait until she gets bigger"

I began to cry and released Shawn's hand.

"Hey, the main thing is she is fine. Right?" Shawn put his hands on my cheeks and wiped away tears with his thumbs.

He took a tight grip around me and hugged me, I stood on my tippy toes and put my arms around his neck to hug him. He tilted down his head because I was shorter than him and I burrowed my face into the crook of his neck.

I put my hand in his hair and played with it a bit. I have been missing this. His arms that are all around me that protect me from everything and everyone, his warmth that strikes my body, his closeness, and his love that flows through the hugs.

He bent down and took his hands on the underside of my thighs and lifted me up so that I had my legs around him. I still had my arms around him, but this time our faces were only a few inches apart.

His eyes switched from my eyes down to my lips and up to my eyes again and he continued like that a few times as our faces came closer. He closed his eyes and I felt his soft lips against mine. I got goosebumps all over my body and I felt that I got butterflies in my stomach, just as it felt during our first kiss.

He pulled away quickly "Sorry" I didn't answer, I just pulled him in for another kiss. He got a smile on his lips and went into the bedroom. He closed the door with his foot and walked toward the bed and laid me down gently. As if I was fragile and could break if you were too hard-handed.

My hands ran over his toned chest and I saw goosebumps popping up on his half-naked body. His curls hung down in front of his eyes. I brushed them away before our lips moved in sync.

"I have missed you so so much," he said in the crook of my neck and I could feel tears landing on my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around him "Shh, I am right here" I whispered on top of his head and inhaled the scent of his shampoo.

He didn't say anything. The only thing that left his lips was muffling crying. I cupped his cheeks and moved his head from my neck and looked at him in the eyes. "I am right here" I stroke his cheek and tears continued to roll down his cheeks.

His head came closer to mine and we shared a passionate kiss. His one big hand traveled from my waist down to my thigh while the other hand was still on my hip.

To be honest, I have missed this. I have missed this a lot, more than I thought. His hands over my skin, his body over mine, and sharing a moment full of love just between two people.

I had the head on Shawn's shoulder and had my hand on his chest and made small circles with my index finger. "I heard your new song" I looked up at him and continued "Is that really how you feel?"

"I mean everything in my songs" he tugged away some hair that hung down on the side of my face and placed it behind my ear. He had tears in his eyes and a few tears fell to his cheek.

"Hey, shh I'm here now," I said, leaning over him. I had my legs folded on each side of his legs, and put my hands on his cheeks, and wiped away the tears with my thumbs. He smiled weakly and stroke his thumb over my cheek.

He kissed me on my lips and down to my neck. I lay on my side and lay on my elbow, resting my cheek on my hand and inspecting his face every day.

"What? Did I do something wrong?"Shawn looked at me worriedly. I put my index finger and middle finger on Shawn's facial hair and moved my fingers gently over different places.

"You need a shave" I chuckled "So what? Don't I look good?" He said with a smirk and placed his thumb on one cheek and the other fingers on his other cheek and moved his fingers to his chin.

"You just look so old and you are not as smooth as you usually are. It hurts when I kiss you" I pouted and she just laughed and hugged me. And peppered my face with kisses and rubbed his cheeks and chin against my cheeks and neck.

"Shawn, it hurts" I laughed and placed my hands on his chest trying to pull him away from me. But the more I tried the tighter he hugged me.
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I walked into the bathroom to find Shawn standing in front of the sink with his half face covered with shaving foam.

I pushed myself up on the counter by the sink looking at him. "What?" his eyes traveled to me "Oh, nothing" I smiled and looked intensely at every move he did with the razor against his cheek. "Do you wanna do it?" He handed me the razor and I nodded my head with a big smile "I never thought that you would ask"

He took one step to the side so he stood between my legs.

I started to move the razor slowly against his cheek and he started to giggle "What?" I looked up at him and he had a smile over his lips. "You looked so focused so you almost look mad, but still so cute"

I looked at his cheek again and I felt that he tried to look at me in the eyes, trying to get some sort of eye contact with me. I dipped the razor in the water and then started to shave again.

When I was done I smiled at him "Don't tell me that you shaved off my eyebrows" he grinned at me "Just one" I whispered and smirked, which caused him to get a goofy smile before I cupped his cheeks and pulled him in for a kiss.

I checked the watch that was around my wrist. "Do you want to come with me and pick up Olivia in kindergarten?" "Of course I want to"

-At the Kindergarten-
We walked into the kindergarten hand in hand and saw Olivia comb a barbie's hair.

"Olivia?" said Shawn and I could hear that his voice broke a little.

Olivia turned her head to us and got a huge smile on her lips. She threw the barbie and the brush aside and ran towards us.

"Daddy!" she ran towards him with her arms in the air.

Shawn went down on one knee. He had his arms outstretched and was ready for a hug.

Shawn wrapped his arms around Olivia and lifted her up from the ground and spun her around. I saw that both Olivia and Shawn had tears in their eyes. Shawn kissed Olivia several times on her little cheek. I put my hand on Shawn's back. He turned to me and gave me a gentle kiss on my lips. I got a smile on my lips and got tears in my eyes.

There were no tears because I was sad, on the contrary. It was happy tears. That we are a whole family again.

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I- I don't know about this one🤦🏼‍♀️