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Mariah is Fezco's first and–he hopes–his only love.

Staring at what used to be his grandma's ring on her finger now while she put the ornaments on the tree she forced him to put up with her in his living room so that she had somewhere to put the 10+ gifts she bought him that he scolded her for.

Staring at Mariah's ring took him back to before it was hers for a moment.

It was a few days after he broke up with her. He was in his grandma's room, had just finished giving her a sponge bath and was gathering her afternoon meds when he spotted the ring in a little jewelry plate, where a few other rings rested.

He had put it back with all her jewelry after she gave it to him, after she fell into her coma. He felt like it was only right, at least until he had someone to give it to like his grandma wanted.

If he ever even had anyone to give it to.

He froze in place as he twisted open one of grandma's pill bottles, staring at the ring shining in the sunlight which was dimmed by the curtains at the windows of the room, remembering the way Reyna's little eyes practically bulged out of her head when he showed her a picture of the ring to ask her if her titi would like it.

"You're going to ask her to be your wife???" Reyna gasped, making Fezco raise his eyebrows and put a finger to his lips at the raised volume of her voice, glancing behind the couch for a second at his girl in the kitchen as she waited for the popcorn to finish in the microwave for their movie night.

"Nah kid, it's just a lil gift cause I love her, you know what I'm sayin?" Fezco tried to explain. "Whatchu think? It's nice?"

Reyna aggressively nodded her head, scooting closer to Fezco to get another look at the picture.

"Yeah? You think she'll like it?" He asked, moving to place his arm around Reyna as she leaned into his side, taking his phone into her hand and making him pray she wouldn't swipe to the right a few times or else she'd be seeing one of his hands gripping one of her titi's bottom cheeks.

Reyna aggressively nodded her head again, making him laugh.

"It's really pretty. So you're gonna get married now?" She asked, not having understood his intention.

"Uh, nah, not yet. But one day, fosho," Fezco smiled as Reyna looked up at him.

"You want to marry her?" Reyna got all excited before leaning all close to whisper excitedly, "She wants to marry you too!!!"

Fezco kissed his teeth and squinted his eyes at her, "Yo, stop playin wit me."

"I'm not!! I'm for real!!" Reyna giggled.

Fezco smiled at that, she was a lot like Mariah.

His girl was always all giggly with him. He missed a lot of her when she wasn't his girl anymore, during their break up that they now pretend never ever happened for the sake of themselves.

Fezco didn't notice how big of a part Mariah played in his life until she was gone.

She consumed all his thoughts, and his personal space whenever she was around (not that he was complaining). She loved on him 24/7 and cuddled him and softly scratched his buzzed head or his back with her long acrylics that he almost always got the chance to pay for.

She gave him endless kisses, on his lips and all over his "pretty face", giggling in between each one and pulling his head into her arms to hug him.

She was always talking, about literally anything that came to mind, and he would love to listen, staring at her as she spoke and occasionally glancing at her hands as she often spoke with her hands too.

During their break up that they pretended never happened, everything went silent for Fezco. That sweet voice of hers wasn't in his ear, or in his head as he read one of her texts if she wasn't with him.

His life was silent. Especially with Ashtray going mute out of anger because of the break up.

It probably wasn't a good thing to depend on anybody else for your happiness, but how could he not, when his mood instantly shifted the second he laid his eyes on her, unable to fight the urge to smile back whenever she did upon making eye contact.

How couldn't he when she could place her hand on him and he would visibly relax, turning to look at her only to be met with a kiss to his lips.

Fezco felt fucking empty without her around. Without her in his bed, all up on him while they slept, rubbing her backside on his morning wood in the mornings to fuck with him. Without her in the passenger seat of his car, holding his hand in place on her thigh and giving him kisses at red lights. Shit, sometimes it was more than just kisses at red lights.

He felt empty without her next to him at the dinner table, holding his hand while they ate because she was a lil clingy, but he couldn't complain because his love language was physical touch. He hadn't eaten dinner alone since he started talking to her months ago, whether it were on the phone or actually together, and since they were broken up and Ashtray was angry with him for it, he had been eating alone.

He felt empty without her in the bathroom after waking up, asking if he would let her hold it while he took a leak and just playfully rolling her eyes when he laughed and told her she was trippen. He felt empty without her in the shower, taking up all the water but occasionally pulling him all close and under the water with her when he'd bitch about it. It literally hurt a little glancing at her pink loofa in his shower, and at her pink toothbrush in the toothbrush cup.

And at her clothes and shoes and makeup in his room, and at her cookies in the kitchen and her strawberry Nesquick in the fridge.

And at her pictures in his phone, because like Mariah, Fezco spent a lot of time staring at those during their break up.

He missed her texts and her random phone and FaceTime calls and he missed whenever she invited herself over to his house if he hadn't yet, making him go pick her up as soon as he wasn't busy.

He missed the way she was always so happy to be with him, he missed the feeling of having someone happy and excited just because you were with them. He always felt that with her, because she was always with that with him.

I guess you could say he missed feeling her love for him, because Mariah was no stranger to loving on her man, in like a million different ways.

Right now, she was decorating his house for Christmas, although it was literally a week away. She didn't care, she loves him so much that she wants him to have the full Christmas experience, knowing that he hadn't had one ever.

"Okay and now I'm gonna put coal on top to trick his lil bad ass," Mariah muttered, grabbing the rocks she gathered from outside to put in Ashtray's stocking, on top of all the little gifts she already threw in.

"Those is rocks, ma," Fezco pointed out with a little laugh, trying to peek at what else was in the bag she retrieved Ashtray's stocking stuffers from to see what she had got for him.

"Stop peeking! I swear Fezco I'll put coal in yours too," Mariah threatened, snatching the bag into her hand and giving him a glare.

It only made him laugh even more, shaking his head as he put his hands up in surrender, "Alright, alright, I'm sorry. My bad."

"It's okay," Mariah disregarded with a kiss to his cheek as he took a seat on the couch, picking up the star topper for the tree that she was gonna have him put on the tree after she was done.

"So like, you think I made Santa's good list?" Fezco asked her, unknowningly checking her out as he watched as she bent over to grab a few rocks she dropped.

"Not with the way I feel your eyes burning into my ass right now," Mariah joked with a laugh, making him let out a scoff before he laughed himself.

"Yeah, cause you such a good girl, huh?" Fezco taunted with a narrowed gaze, smirking at the visible blush that formed on his girl's face before she glanced back at him.

"I'm putting coal in your stocking. And then I'm gonna hit you with the stocking," She told him.

Fezco sucked in a breath before shaking his head, "Yeah, fosho not a good girl. You finna beat me with a big ass sock full of rocks? Nah, you'd be on my naughty list."

"Oh really, Mr. Claus?" Mariah quizzed before smirking. "You'd punish me?"

"Mhm," He smirked back, holding his hand out as she stepped towards him to grab the bag of stocking stuffers, placing his hand on her lower back once she was close enough. "C'mere, come tell Santa whatchu want for Christmas."

Mariah playfully rolled her eyes as he pulled her onto his lap, "Okay, I know we've been exploring kinks and shit but this Santa Claus one ain't really it. Let's go back to the gun."

"Yo, what the fuck? I ain't got no Santa Claus kink," Fezco scoffed with furrowed brows as his girl wrapped an arm around his shoulders.

"You said the same shit about the breeding kink and I had to take a plan B this morning," Mariah reminded him with a little head pat.

Fezco kissed his teeth, "Mane whatever, this ain't no Santa Claus kink. I'm for real, whatchu want, cause yo ass done got me hella shit and you got me fucked up if you think you gon outnumber me."

"I already told you."

"I'm not puttin a bow on my dick."

"Then figure it out yourself," Mariah smiled, leaning in for a quick kiss before standing up to continue decorating, but was pulled back in her seat on his lap.

Fezco had of course went out and bought his girl some gifts, but then he picked her up last night and she got in his car with a whole ass trash bag full of gifts for him and Ashtray, actually looking like Santa Claus.

Fezco loved to buy things for his girl, he loved to spoil her. And he went along with it whenever she called him her sugar daddy. It was nice and sweet and all that she was buying him gifts but only if he was gifting her more than she was. He was a giver.

"I mean, I got a few more ideas, I'm jus not really sure, you know what I'm sayin?" Fezco mumbled.

But he was having a really hard time shopping. His girl had everything, and he had nobody to blame but himself for that.

"No babe, I don't know what you're saying because I also already told you that I'm gonna like whatever you give me just because you gave it to me," Mariah reassured with a lil smile before giving him another kiss. "Or do you reallllly want me to write you a list like Santa?"

"Mane, shut up," Fezco scoffed, making her laugh as he playfully and gently shoved her off of him. "Write me that list."

"I'll give you hints instead," She smiled before leaning down to whisper in his ear. "Coco wants a sibling!"

"Bro I just went and got you a plan B earlier, is a lil too late for th–"

"Nooo not an actual sibling," Mariah rolled her eyes, grabbing Coco off where they placed her on the couch so she wouldn't have to watch her mom and dad fuck every day and every night.

Mariah fixed the santa hat on Coco's head before placing her right besides her dad and gave him a smile.

"Like, a new lil bunny."

"You want another Coconut?" Fezco asked her and laughed a little. "So you can forget both of em at home every time you come over?"

"Okay, fuck you," Mariah rolled her eyes before going back to decorating.

"Again?" Fezco asked, making Mariah roll her eyes again.

They went weeks without having sex and I guess you could say that now they were making up for lost time with the way they went at it like literal bunnies as Ashtray and Rue would say.

Rue had been coming around a lot, because as she ranted to Mariah a few days ago;

"She straight up left me at the fucking train station," Rue spat as she stuffed hot Cheetos into her mouth, watching Mariah make dinner in the kitchen.

"You musta fucked up big time if Jewel left yo ass," Fezco mumbled from where he rolled blunts for his girl, sat on the opposite side of the table.

Rue scoffed, "Well we were gonna run away together!"

"But you didn't sooo what happened?" Mariah wondered as she checked on the fries she was making in the pan.

"I pussied out. And she just left without me," Rue briefly explained. "I was like, crying."

Mariah scoffed, glancing at Rue, "This Jewel bitch sounds like she needs to get her ass beat."

"You beat Fez when he broke up with you?" Rue wondered, speaking with her mouthful.

Mariah exchanged confused looks with Fezco before looking at Rue, "What are you talking about?"

Rue furrowed her eyebrows in confusion, "What do you mean? I'm asking you if you beat the orange out ot Fez when he broke up with you."

"Fez never broke up with me..." Mariah trailed off before turning back to the stove.

Rue looked between the two with the most confused look on her face, then sighed and shook her head before reaching into her pocket.

"I'm too sober for this shit right now," She muttered, grabbing an oxy from the little dime bag I'm her sweater and crushing it up to snort it.

"Yo you needa chill out wit that shit, Rue," Fezco advised in a mumble, licking the blunt sealed before placing it on the table besides the three others he had already rolled.

"I'm good, man. Anyways, so, uh, yeah. That's why I'm over here so much, Mariah," Rue answered the question that Mariah asked that started her rant about Jules. "Do you like, not want me here?"

"Did I say that?" Mariah asked her and laughed.

"No, but you're asking me why I'm here and it's kinda the same thing, so," Rue shrugged, sorting crushed up oxy into a line before she snorted it off the table.

Mariah cringed, "Doesn't that burn?"

Rue shrugged, wiping her nose, "Eh, not really. You wanna try?"

"No," Fezco answered sternly although she hadn't asked him, shooting Rue a look for even offering.

"Wow, sorry," Rue scoffed, holding a hand up in defense.

Fezco loved Rue and her company, but sometimes he found himself fighting the urge to kick her out and send her home. She was always offering Mariah drugs that he didn't want her doing, but that wasn't the worst part.

She was the biggest cockblock ever.

They could all be watching a movie in the living room and Mariah would get up to go to the bathroom, shooting her man a flirty smile and making him get up shortly after to follow behind.

But just as Fezco pushed his jeans down to rest just under his ass, his lips smushed against Mariah's from where she sat on the sink, Rue would come and open the door because she needed to pee, walking in on them about to fuck on the sink like that one Kanye song.

And instead of glaring at Rue, Mariah would glare at Fezco because it was his dumb ass who didn't lock the door.

Then once they were back on the sofa together, the two shared a blanket and Fezco would sneak his hand into his girl's panties upon being guided by her own hand, but before he could even dip his finger into her, Rue was pulling their blanket onto herself because she was cold.

And when they were both fed up and feening for each other and once Rue was knocked the fuck out, they snuck off to Fezco's room.

But Fezco was soon called out after Rue woke up not even five minutes later and asked him to take her home.

But that was a few days ago, and now...he and Mariah were peacefully alone.

With the exception of Ashtray with his eyes glued to his computer, but they might as well have been alone because when Ashtray was on the game it was like he wasn't even present, completely MIA.

"I like dis lil winter look you got goin on," Fezco mumbled, smirking as he shamelessly checked his girlfriend out.

Mariah smiled at the compliment, heart warming as she glanced back at him.

"Thank you."

Fezco looked away from her ass to look at her face, his own heart warming because she was so cute.

"You and yo fur coat," Fezco grinned at the way she put her hood on, making him laugh a little. "Too fuckin cute."

"Stopppp. You're so cute," Mariah smiled, looking away so he wouldn't see her blushing.

"Nah, das all you, ma," Fezco told her, smiling to himself before looking over at the Christmas tree. "Yo, thank you for doing all this, by the way."

"Of course boo," Mariah disregarded.

"Nah for real, I really appreciate it. You hella sweet," Fezco told her, grabbing her hand as she approached the couch to grab another bag and taking the opportunity to pull her back onto his lap. "You look like you need a new fur coat."

Mariah gave him a confused look before laughing, "I have like 3, babe."

"Bet you don't got a pink one," Fezco raised his eyebrows tauntingly before smirking.

"Is this you saying you're gonna buy me a pink one?" Mariah smiled.

Fezco shrugged, "Maybe, iono. We'll see."

Mariah just giggled, leaning in for a quick kiss, which was quicker than expected since Mariah pulled away to look at her phone after it started buzzing.

"Ugh, this bitch won't leave me alone," She rolled her eyes upon reading Isabella's name off the Caller ID.

Mariah had only gone home for a day since Mouse disappeared. Isabella was losing her shit because he hadn't been home in almost a week.

Mariah couldn't find it in herself to feel bad the slighest. Not even for Reyna and Carlos, who unknowningly were fatherless children now. Oh well, their dad was a piece of shit anyways. Mariah's a fatherless child too and she's doing great.

I mean, she's in love a criminal but at least he's Superman, and that makes up for it. :) .

Mariah was super fucking annoyed hearing Isabella rant about how Mouse was nowhere to be found. And Fezco knew it, which is why he happily picked her up after one day of them being separate so she could go back to staying with him for a few days.

And it's also why he tapped the green answer button on Mariah's phone, smirking up at her once the call connected.

Mariah gasped in betrayal, pinching the skin of his neck as Isabella spoke.

"Mari, hey when are you coming home?"

Mariah just rolled her eyes before putting her phone to her ear, making Fezco stiffle a laugh and pull his girl all close to himself.

"I don't know yet, why?" Mariah asked.

"I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind, I need you to hang out with Reyna because if Mouse ghosting me doesn't drive me crazy then she fucking will," Isabella explained.

"What do you mean?"

"She doesn't leave me alone."

"Girl that's literally how kids are."

"Well she's literally driving me insane, I can't do this anymore. Especially not with the little one in my stomach," Isabella sighed.

"I mean...nobody told you to get pregnant. Three times."

"Mari, fuck you. This isn't a fucking joke," Isabella snapped.

Mariah sighed, "Wellll I don't know what you fucking want me to tell you. I don't know when I'm going home."

"If you don't know then don't even bother coming back. I'm sick of you thinking you can just leave and come back whenever you want," Isabella told her.

"Okay then bitch, have fun being a single mom to three kids," Mariah spat, hanging up and dropping her phone on the coffee table.

Fezco listened to the entire conversation woth raised eyebrows, giving his girl a concerned look once she looked at him.

"I think I just got kicked out," Mariah told him in a low tone.

Fezco let out a little laugh, nodding his head, "Yeah, think so. S'all good, I like you in my bed every night anyways."

Mariah gave him a funny look and giggled, "Is that you tryna say....?"

"I want you to move in wit me," Fezco finished her sentence with a confirming nod before smiling. "I mean, this yo house as much as it is mine."

"Actually this is my house," Ashtray interjected from the kitchen, opening the fridge to grab a bottle of Sprite.

Fezco and Mariah exchanged looks before glancing over at Ashtray as he sipped his Sprite, flashing them a shit eating grin at the fact that he ruined their lil moment before he disappeared back into his room.

"This fuckin kid," Fezco laughed before he looked back up at his girl on his lap. "Yo, so like I was saying–"

"Don't get me wrong, I want to, but...what if we like, get into another fight and break up again...? I mean, break up. Not again, because we never–"

"You don't gotta worry about none of the that," Fezco interrupted her like she did him and shook his head, soothingly rubbing his thumb in circles on her hip. "You remember what I said? Bout the promises and shit?"

Mariah nodded, remembering every one of the promises he made to her after giving her the ring, no more break ups being one of them.

"And even if we get into arguments and shit, we gonna talk it out. Alright?" Fezco asked.

Mariah nodded again, giggling to herself. "You'll sleep on the couch if we fight?"

Fezco scoffed at that before laughing. "Yeah. You gon come join me in the middle of the night anyways."

Mariah laughed before glancing up to peek at Ashtray through the window in between the kitchen and his room.

"Do you think Ash would be okay if I moved in?" She asked.

"Bro–ma, Ash has the fattest fuckin crush on you, on god," Fezco told her with a laugh. "He not gon mind, shorty."

"I've never had two brothers after me," Mariah smiled, flipping her hair over her shoulder. "You guys should duel over me. Like they did in the medieval movies."

Fezco laughed again, shaking his head at her. "Ash jus wanna throw a case on you, for real. Don't nobody want his lil ass."

"He says the same about you," Mariah smiled, remembering all the times Ashtray has called his brother a bitchless loser. "Bitchless loser."

"He right, but it don't matter cause I'm pretty much married and shit," Fezco shrugged his shoulders, smirking at the lil blush on his girl's cheeks. "Yo, when I showed Reyna the ring I gave you, she thought I was gonna ask you to marry me."

"Really?" Mariah laughed. "She's something else."

"Word. She aight? Since, you know...her dad..."

Mariah shrugged, "I mean, she's been fine...? She hasn't really noticed that he's like, not around. And I hope she doesn't. I honestly feel bad for her though, her mom's a fucking bitch. I should kidnap her and raise her as my own."

Fezco laughed at that, "That's wassup. You'd be a good mom."

Mariah smiled, giving his forehead a kiss. "Thank you. I love that compliment."

"Jus don't be forgetting her at home like you forget Coco," Fezco told Mariah.

She rolled her eyes, "I take back the forehead kiss I gave you."

"Nah, you can't. No take backs," Fezco smirked. "Yo but if you kidnap yo lovebug and raise her as your own, I'll help you."

Mariah smiled at that, really thinking about it.

A lil family.

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