warning ⚠️; mature content [detailed smut] in the second half of this chapter!

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AS THE DAY slowly came to and end, Happy wanted to take his chance to have a conversation with Alanna. They had spent the day at the clubhouse, working on his bike before and he took his daughter on a little tour through town.

June hadn't been a big fan of it at first, but two years ago Happy had finally managed to persuade her to let their daughter ride with him at least now and then, with the promise that he'd always drive carefully. Which Happy didᅳ he would never risk anything happening to his kid.

Not many words were spoken as they took a stroll through the park, instead Alanna focused on taking pictures with her camera, which was nothing unusual. The girl spent more time with the camera than with her friends.

It wasn't until they had dinner at Alanna's favorite diner that the two of them started talking, although neither of them really knew what to say. Happy because he was afraid of saying something wrong that might push his daughter away again, and Alanna because she hadn't been particularly easy on her father for the past year.

But Happy had had enough, he missed spending time with his daughter and talking, even if he mostly just listened when Alanna told him about her day or new things that were currently cool.

Leaning against the doorframe, he knocked on Alanna's bedroom door. He had left the girls' rooms exactly as they were before they moved out with June. After a soft 'come in', he turned the knob and entered the dimly lit room.

The smallest smile tugged at his lips, remembering how Alanna preferred to just use her fairy lights instead of the big lamp. Even as a small child, she was always calmer when a room felt warm and homely.

"You got a minute for me?" The mattress gave way beneath him as he sat down at the foot of the bed, his elbows resting on his knees as he looked at his daughter. "Just wanted to talk to you."

"Sure, what's up?" Curiously, the nine-year-old looked up from her book, which she then put aside and sat up a little before she started playing with the pompoms on her dark green blanket. "Is something with Mom? Did she call?"

"No, Mom's okay", he assured the girl immediately, his voice as convincing as possible when he saw the concern on Alanna's face, which quickly relaxed again. "It's about you and me. You are my kid, Lana, and that will never change", he began firmly, running a hand over his tired face before looking at his daughter again. "Mom told me that you think I'll leave you just like your biological mom did back then. Is that true? You really think that?"

Alanna took a deep breath. She was aware that her parents were talking about her and Callie, so she wasn't surprised that her father knew about this. And it was okay.

"You just let Mom leave with us. I know that's what happens when adults split upᅳ but you didn't even ask if Callie and I wanted to stay with you. You just let us leave", she stated, shrugging her shoulders pettily as she returned Happy's hard gaze. Once again she was looking just like him. "It just felt like you didn't care that we were leaving. Like you didn't care about Callie, Mom and me at all."

Hearing these words from his daughter's mouth, not from June but from Alanna herself, hurt even more than he expected they would. With a thick lump forming in his throat, his eyes threatened to fill with tears that he tried with all his might not to let escape.

With all the emotions in his gaze, he let his eyes wander around the room, taking in everything. "You know, I sat in this room every day and wondered how you were doing, if you'd ever come back."

He slid closer to Alanna as she sniffled. Tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, she then pulled her legs up against her chest, her short arms wrapped around them, clearly agitated.

"You will always be my baby, my first born, the most important person in my life", he told her firmly, running a large hand over her head as his intense but surprisingly empathetic gaze rested on her. "And your mom and your sister are just as important to me, bug. I should've never let you leave in the first place."

Alanna lifted her gaze, her face hidden against her knees just seconds ago, as she heard her father's raspy, urgent voice crack. Something she had never experienced herself. She had seen him angry, happy, in a good mood and in a bad mood. But she had never seen him cryᅳ at least it looked like he was about to.

He meant his words, even she could tell as a child. Her throat dry, she sniffed again quietly, the first tear rolling down her cheek. "Then why did you never came back? Why didn't you try to get us back?"

"Because I was stupid, so extremely stupid, Lana", Happy explained with a sigh before he pulled a now crying nine-year-old into his arms and against his side, holding her comfortingly. "But I'll bring you guys home, no matter how long it takes", he added firmly as he stared at the wall with the many pictures and ran his hand up and down her back.

"Promise me", Alanna murmured against his arm where her face was buried, the sleeve of his gray shirt already dampened with her tears as the nine-year-old tried in vain to stifle a sob. "And you can't leave again, you can't do this to us again, please."

Happy shook his head, swallowing hard as Alanna cried bitterly in his arms. "I won't, I won't do that to you guys again, bugᅳ I promise."

A whimper-like sound fell from Alanna's lips as she nodded eagerly and only buried her face deeper against his arm, not ready to let him go after all this time without that affection from him.

"I love you, Alanna, I want you to know that", Happy croaked against the top of her head, still rubbing his hand soothingly up and down her back. "Just like I love your mom and sisterᅳ I don't need more, just you guys."

Something in Alanna healed when she heard those words. It wasn't that her trust was fully restored, but hearing that her father loved her, that he never stopped, made her feel safe and seen by himᅳ everything she had longed for over the past year.

"I love you too, daddy", she whispered, sniffling and sobbing.

His heart clenched, anger at himself ripping through him. But relief also rushed through his veins when he heard that she loved him. Maybe he still had a chance to regain his older daughter's trustᅳ and then he would make sure to never hurt her again.

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WHEN HAPPY GOT OFF his bike and opened the clip on his helmet, his stoic gaze landed on the house in front of which he had parked. June's car was in the driveway, next to it in the grass were a few of the kids' toys that were neatly lined up against the wall of the house.

He missed the chaos at home, the toys that were lying around. Hell, he even missed tripping over one of Callie's dinosaurs or stepping on one of the building blocks when they had missed one while cleaning up.

Every two weeks was just not enough, he wanted his kids and the chaos back, he wanted June back, the only woman he could imagine a life with. And that's exactly why he was here. Even though he hadn't been sure whether June was even home, because she usually went straight to work after dropping the kids off at school and daycare, he wanted to try his luck.

And since June was never really out without a car, he was sure that he would find his wife at home.

He was nervous, especially when he finally stood in front of the door, his hand already lifted to knock. Quickly, he threw the toothpick between his lips away before he knocked. After a while the SAA crooked an eyebrow when he heard rumbling and cursing behind the door.

Since June had absolutely not expected visitors, but in principle always opened the door, after all it could be something important, she looked down at herself with wide eyes before letting out a deep sigh.

"It better be something important", she mumbled under her breath, throwing the piece of chocolate back onto the plate of snacks she had made herself comfortable with in bed.

She licked some chocolate off her thumb and paused the series she had just been engrossed in. The former Teller woman was a sucker for Gilmore Girls and couldn't wait to crawl back into bed and continue watching until she had to pick up her children.

Curse words slipped past her lips as she stumbled into the hallway after tripping over her own high heels, that always stood next to her dressing table by the door, before rushing to the door when there was another impatient knock.

"I'll be right there!" Groaning softly, she took one last look in the mirror in the hallway, checking if her hair looked good and that there was no chocolate sticking to her face or shirt. She would simply hide her outfit, which consisted of just panties and Happy's shirt, behind the door.

Her head slipped through the gap between the door and the doorframe, her heart began to beat suspiciously fast when she saw her husband. "Happy, hey. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, Alanna's at school. I wanted to talk to you", he croaked, slowly bringing his tall figure closer. He looked down at his wife, who looked up at him like a deer in the headlights, through her beautiful, piercing blue eyes. "Callie still home?"

"Me, uh, now?" June became nervous, knowing what she was wearing. Sure, he was her husband, but after a year without them being together she was still walking around in his shirts every dayᅳ wouldn't that seem desperate? "No, Mom picked her up spontaneously, so I didn't have to take her to daycare and I don't have to be at the dance studio today."

"So we have time to talk?" Without asking any more questions, Happy slipped through the crack, gently pushing his wife back.

When he heard her swallow hard and finally was in the house, he let his eyes wander over her, from head to toe. A slight grin tugged at the corners of his mouth, a surge of pride flooding his chest as he saw what she was wearing.

"What do you want to talk about?" June just stood sheepishly in front of him, shifting from one foot to the other while she kneaded her hands.

"About us." Happy closed the door before walking towards June with slow but long strides to close the distance between them.

His dark eyes searched for hers, his hand slipping into her hair without hesitation. He gently closed his hand around some of it before burying his face in her reddish strands and inhaling deeply, letting the scent of cherry and something else that smelled fuckin' good fill his nostrils. His lips close to her ear, he croaked the next words, his voice deep and hoarse. "I need you. I need my wife back, June."

If his arm hadn't wrapped around her waist at that moment, pulling her flush against his body, June's legs would probably have given in, his words triggering a pool of emotions within herᅳ and also a pool of her own arousel was forming between her legs; her husband's deep, gravelly voice still the hottest thing on this planet.

The only thing she let out was a small, needy whimper, her fingers clutching the collar of his kutte as his calloused hand moved up her thigh. Goosebumps spread across her skin and another whimper caught in her throat as his hand grabbed her ass, squeezing it.

"Let me come back, baby", he croaked after his lips found hers, determination but also a hint of desperation in his tone.

June didn't answer, her mind too clouded by the excitement she was feeling, not even realizing that she was the one snuggling her body closer to Happy's, moaning softly against his grinning lips as his bulge pressed against her crotch.

Her grip on his kutte tightened and when his other hand also moved to her ass and grabbed it only to lift her onto his hips the next moment, she closed the last distance between them, slamming her lips onto his.

And fuck did it feel good.

It wasn't a slow, loving kiss. After their tongues slipped into each other's mouths without hesitation, it turned into a kiss full of passion and longing. Their tongues danced feverishly with each other, not giving the other a chance to catch their breath.

"Bedroom, now", June ordered in a whisper before their lips moved in rhythm again.

Only a deep growl rattled through Happy's throat and flowed into the kiss, his grip on June's ass possessive as he carried her towards the bedroom, stopping every now and then to push his wife against the wall, savoring every second of the kiss.

His hard cock ached for her and her pussy, to come inside her and fill her with his seeds. He needed his wife, her body, her affection. A year without sex could do a lot to a man, and sometimes his own hand just wasn't enough. But not once had he sought comfort in another woman.

Once he had practically dumped her on the bed, Happy looked down at her with dark, narrowed, lust-filled eyes as he shrugged his kutte off his shoulders and then his shirt, revealing his upper body.

June almost drooled at the sight. In her dreams, her husband's body had haunted her, proving to her at least once a week how much she missed him, not just him but also the sex. If one of the rumors about Happy Lowman was true, it was that he was a God in bed.

The man was perfect in every way, always knowing exactly how to handle her, and she didn't just say that because he was her husband.

"God, I missed this", she murmured, her slim figure sitting on the bed as she hastily pulled the shirt over her head, biting her lower lip as a deep sound escaped Happy's throat at the sight of her body covered only in panties. "Come here", she demanded sultry, beckoning him with her index finger as she shifted into a seductive position. "I need you, baby."

The muscles in Happy's jaw twitched, as did his hard cock in his jeans. He fiddled impatiently with the buckle of his belt, his eyes never leaving his wife, who waited patiently for him and teased him by slowly running her fingers down her stomach until they disappeared into her black panties.

"Gonna need more of that, little girl", he demanded with a growl, pushing down his pants and boxers. His eyes were glued to June with desire as he stroked his now fully hard cock a few times. "Take it off. Slowly."

At his command, unable to take her eyes off his nether regions herself, June lifted her ass and pulled the slick-covered panties off her tanned legs, making sure to watch his reaction.

A smile crossed her features as Happy clenched his jaw tighter, taking a step closer to the bed before grabbing her ankles and turning her so he had perfect access to her center after he sat on his knees at the foot of the bed.

"Spread those beautiful legs for me, baby", he demanded in a deeper, raspier voice, watching with anticipation as she followed his every command. Happy smiled as he saw her juices glistening on her freshly shaved sides, his smile turning into a smirk as he ran his fingers over the hair covering her pubes.

He had always loved that June was never completely shaved, it only turned him on more and he that knew she knew that. While he wasn't one to tell a woman how she should look, he definitely had his preferences.

His cock twitched at the sight, ready to bury itself inside her dripping folds even though he knew he wouldn't last long inside her after a year anyway.

"So ready for me", he croaked with a certain pride in his hoarse voice, two of his fingers slowly sliding teasingly through her leaking slit. He dipped his fingers in, slowly stretching her out as he collected her juices, his wife's throaty moans like music to his ears.

"Stop teasing me, Lowman", June almost pleaded, her blue eyes full of determination as she began to roll her hips towards his hand, his fingers moving skillfully inside her. "Need you inside me, Hap. Please.."

"Still as needy as ever", he stated with a grin, letting out a deep groan as June's fingers wrapped around his cock, pumping it a few times. "Fuck girl", he growled softly, snapping his hips against her hand. "Keep that up and I'll come before I even got a chance to bury myself inside that perfect pussy."

"Mhm..just shut up and fuck me", she whispered against his lips, her breath now coming in ragged gasps. Teasingly, she ran the tip of her tongue over his lower lip, pushing it into his mouth as he parted his lips.

For a moment, they both continued to use their hands to drive each other crazy before Happy had enough. Pulling his fingers out of her, he brought them to her lips, smearing her juices on them. Satisfied, he looked at his work, her lips glistening with her and his saliva mixed with her arousel.

"So fuckin' beautiful", he croaked against her chin, which he grabbed roughly the next moment, holding it tightly while he claimed her lips once again. He wasted no more time and pushed his hard cock inside her after positioning himself perfectly between her legs.

Her moans mingled with his groans, her back arched and pressed against his tattooed torso. June's leg found its way around his hip, the other falling invitingly to the side so he could slide even deeper into herᅳ if that was even possible.

The kiss became sloppy but no less intense as Happy held his wife in place, pounding in and out of her. The sound of skin slapping against skin and June's moans and whimpers as well as Happy's grunts echoed through the small but bright bedroom.

The plate of snacks slid to the floor with the movement of the bed, leaving the couple unfazed. Nothing could ruin this moment right now, both too absorbed in each other.

Sweat ran down the sides of Happy's face as he picked up his pace, fucking his wife into oblivion, his grip on her hips vice-like but June loved it according to the sounds she was making. Well, and because he knew his wife. Neither of them was a fan of vanilla sex.

"Hapᅳ I'm..I'm close", June gasped, her eyes finding his. She admired him through half-open eyelids, dragging her nails down his back as he hit just the right spot. "Fuck..so good. Don't stop."

"I didn't plan on it", Happy croaked with a smirk, pushing aside some of the strands of hair that were clinging to her face. He let out a low growl as her long nails left welts on his back, only turning him on more. "Tell me who you belong to", he demanded through gritted teeth, dropping his forehead against hers. "Who do you belong to, baby?"

June shuddered, her body trembling from all the excitement. Her orgasm was slowly building in her abdomen, his words sending another wave of excitement to her core.

"Yours. I'm yours", she moaned, wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him closer, stealing sloppy kisses from his lips as Happy continued to pound into her, slowly but forcefully. "And you're mine, only mineᅳ you got that?"

"Good girl." Fuck, he loved it when June took what she wanted, when she became just as possessive as he was. "Got itᅳ I'm all yours, woman."

When he picked up his pace again, his movements almost inhuman but just as June needed them, he brought her so close to her orgasm that he knew just from the look on her face how close she was.

"Let go for me, baby. Cum for me", he commanded, whispering the words against her neck, which he peppered with kisses and love bites before pushing himself up on his hand.

Her full breasts bounced with each of his thrusts and her back arched, her eyes almost rolling into the back of her head. When another loud moan fell from her lips and her pulsing walls clenched around his cock, he knew she was ready to let go.

"Shit Hap", June gasped, holding onto him like her life depended on it.

"That's it, just like that." He watched with satisfaction as she came hard, with slow but no less intense thrusts he guided her through her orgasm while he was chasing his own. When her nails dragged down his back again, he couldn't hold it any longer and, a moment later, painted her inner walls with his seeds.

Happy stayed in that position for a moment, his sweaty body on top of her, his forehead leaning against hers as he tried to regulate his breathing. Only when he slowly pulled out of her, leaving June feeling empty, did he roll over and tuck one arm behind his head, stretching the other to the side, allowing June to place herself in it.

The former Teller hesitated, not sure if they were really ready for this or if the sex had just happened because both of them needed it. But she also realized that she needed her husband right now, his affection and not just in a sexual way.

Swallowing softly, June allowed herself to follow her needs and snuggled into Happy's side, smiling to herself as she felt every single one of Happy's muscles relax immediately.

"I meant it, June, I'm going to bring you back home", he murmured against the top of her head, planting a kiss there as he wrapped his arm tightly around her, pulling her even closer. "I don't care how long it takesᅳ but you're mine."

"I need to be sure you won't hurt the kids and me again, Happyᅳ that's all it takes for me to come back", she murmured against his chest, tracing the tattoos on it, especially her and her children's names that were tattooed under his heart. "I want us backᅳ but not if I have to go through the same pain again in a few years."

Happy took her chin between his fingers, lifting her head. He stared at her with nothing but seriousness, sincerity, and a certain remorse. "I won't do that to you again, little girlᅳ that's one thing I can promise you but you have to trust me."

"One step at a time", she whispered with a wistful smile, the tip of her nose ghosting over his chin. "Give me some time, okay?"

"As much as you need", he croaked, surprisingly understanding. Although secretly he wanted to pack her bags and take her home with him.

But he had to be patient and prove to her that he wouldn't hurt her again, that this time he'd stay with her no matter how dangerous things would get.

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