"I said shut up." You looked down at Suna. He was surprised, shocked. He didn't expect for you to kiss him. "O-okay." He cleared his throat. He was left confused as you got off of him, sitting beside him on the bed. He swallowed thickly, blinking up at the ceiling of your bedroom. He didn't know what to think or to feel.

You, on the other hand, felt embarrassed. That was an act of impulse, a stupid one at that. Your mind was racing but nothing was coming out of your mouth. So badly, you wanted to utter an apology to him. But sitting here in the deafening silence made things even more awkward. "I'm sorry." You quickly mumbled without looking at him. For some reason, you were acting like some shy school girl who just kissed her crush for the first time.

Suna looked at you from his spot on the bed, opening his mouth to say something, but no sound came out. He was at a loss for words too. "I shouldn't have done that, that was really stupid of me." You slowly turn to make eye contact with him before noticing he was already staring at you. "No, no, I get it." Suna responded. As much as he wanted that kiss to be meaningful in a sense that you wanted him just as much as he wanted you, he knew better than to get caught up.

"I didn't mean to do that. I hope that doesn't make things awkward..." Explaining yourself only made it more embarrassing than the kiss itself. Suna sat up, scratching the back of his neck while staring down at the floor. For him, he was more sad. Sad that a kiss between you two was now something labeled as awkward. "Was it really that bad?" He chuckled, clasping his hands together. With wide eyes, you panicked and shook your head, "no! I just-the kiss was good! But we aren't...dating? Seeing each other? I don't know." The words just came rolling off of your tongue, all jumbled together and panicky.

Suna's jaw clenched. He couldn't stand this break you guys were on at all, but he did it because he respected you and your decisions. But, when there's a big possibility that you'd no longer be his anymore in the future, he can't help but feel his test tighten with jealousy. To think that you two would only be friends drives him insane. He's in love with you. And he fucked it over with how stupid he is. Things can't stay like this. Just imagining you with someone else, loving them, holding them, kissing them, and treating them like the way you treated him makes him furious.

He wants to be the only one your heart knows and belongs to. And god, to know that Hiro got to feel you and taste the only way he does, he can't go on like that for years. He'd become crazy. "I can't do this any longer." Suna whispered loud enough for you to hear him. "What?" You asked, looking at him. He was still staring at the floor. "I can't do this any more. I can't pretend like I'm not in love with you, like I don't wanna fuckin fight every guy who lays his eyes on you. I can't pretend we're friends, y/n." Suna admitted, running his hands down his face.

Truth be told, you didn't know how to respond to him. You sat there on your bed looking at him, legs crossed. "Suna, I'm sorry..." You didn't know what you were apologizing for, but it was something. He scoffed. "Do you not feel the same way anymore?" He turned his head and looked at you. For some reason, you couldn't look in his eyes. They held so much emotion that it made you feel overwhelmed. Though, you felt guilty for looking away from him. "I don't know..." You answered.

"You don't know? You don't love me anymore?" He questioned, sitting up straight. You had his full attention now if you didn't before. "That's why we're doing this, so I can have time to decide what's right for me! Of course I love you, Suna. But I don't know if I can keep dealing with the stupid ass arguments. Maybe it's best if we see other people and stay friends." You explained, a nervous feeling bubbling in your chest. It hurt to say to him, but it was the truth. "No." He responded. "Suna..."

"No. Fucking no," he shook his head at you. "I respected your decision at first and I tried to accept that there's a big possibility we wouldn't work out, but I can't. I can't sit here and watch the girl I love fucking slip away from me and become my friend. You're meant to be my future wife, y/n! I love the hell out of you. I'm not gonna sit back and watch you fall out of love with me just so you can fall in love with someone else." Suna was pleading, voice shaky as he tried his hardest to change your mind. He never wanted to do this, but he couldn't lose you.

Taking a deep breath in, your eyes flickered up to his, "you should have thought about that before you said those things to me and slept with Faye," The honest truth. "I only did what I did because I was hurt and spiteful. I know I'm not innocent either. Trust me. Which is why I think we're no good for each other. Sometimes I feel like it's a competition on who could hurt each other more," You admitted. "I'll always have love for you, but I don't know if I could be your girlfriend anymore. And to be honest, Faye seems nice and sweet. She's very pretty and clearly she feels there is something more between you two, so...maybe it's time we end things...for good." Looking down at your hand, the ring Suna gave you beamed under the light.

Staring at it, you slowly pulled it off of your finger and handed it to him, "I had big plans for us too, but maybe I was thinking too far ahead. Save the ring for someone special, I'm sure she'll love it. I'm sorry, Suna." Suna couldn't believe what he was hearing right now. You made your decision. It hurt like hell, but pain was only temporary. It's better than getting hurt over and over again. He stared down at the ring, tears forming in his eyes. His mind was racing with so many thoughts. He didn't think you'd choose so soon. He thought he would have more time with you.

Suna should've seen this coming. Every girl he's loved always ends up leaving whether it's because of him or them. It was like a curse. But to have you, the girl he saw an entire future with, leave him, it truly felt like someone tore his heart out from his chest. "I'm sorry too, y/n." He finally spoke, standing up to his feet. He wasn't going to try and plead anymore. He wasn't going to try and cry to and confess his love for you. He knew he couldn't change your mind. Maybe once his head clears, he'll finally understand. Stuffing the ring in his pocket, he walked out your bedroom and made his way towards the front door.

Sitting still on your bed, you let out a shaky breath. The front door closed gently, and as soon as it did, you burst into tears. You wished things were better between you and Suna. You wanted things to work out so bad, but thinking about the future...all you saw were the same things happening again. Both of you were full grown adults. You weren't immature teenagers in high school. The back and forth arguing could only go on for so long before it finally tires you out. And that's what happened. You got tired.

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Suna slammed his front door behind him when he got home. He was angry, sad, and all of the above. He couldn't blame you, he never could. He blames himself for doing this to your relationship. He lost his girl. Clenching his jaw, he laid back on his bed, head falling into the pillow as thoughts started to cloud his mind. Maybe you were right. Maybe he'd eventually fall back into his old way and the cycle would repeat. Maybe it was best if you two saw other people. It was for the better after all.

His phone buzzed in his pocket, distracting him from his thoughts. Reaching for it, he saw the screen was lit up, a text notification from Faye.

Have time to talk?

Suna stared at the text for longer than needed. He didn't know whether or not to respond. Blinking, he unlocked his phone and responded.

Why? What's up?

I wanted to talk about us. You've been acting weird ever since our last conversation and it seems like you've been avoiding me or something...did I do something wrong?

No, he did. He did something wrong.

No, I just been busy and dealing with some personal things.

Oh...well does this mean we're good? I just wanna see you if that's okay

Suna sharply inhaled staring at the words on the screen. "Maybe it's best if we see other people and stay friends." Your voice rung loudly in his head. Suna clenched his eyes shut remembering all the things you said to him. Did he really want to start over? "Give the ring to someone special." There goes your voice again. You are that special person. If you love him, then why are you doing this? Wasn't love supposed to fix everything? That's what everyone would say when he was growing up. Love this and love that. "If it's true love, you will always find a way back to each other." He remembers hearing that at one point when he was a naive teenager. He didn't believe that when he was younger, but now, he prays that it's true just so he could be with you again.

Not at the moment. I just wanna be by myself and deal with what I got going on.

Okay, that's fine. I'll see you at school then :)

Suna locked his phone, tossing it next to him. He didn't care enough to respond to anyone else but you-that's if you called or texted him. Shutting his eyes, he turned over and decided to take a nap. At least that'll make him forget things for a while. But knowing that the empty spot next to him will no longer be occupied by you anymore makes it harder to fall asleep. But eventually, he does.

𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄:
Heyyyy here's a late night update because I'm known for these type of things. Here's some more angst because I'm evil and I want all of you to suffer (jk). It just makes for good plot...but I hope you enjoyed.