HE WAS IN THE DARK, alone. Stuck in another universe, a terrible dream. Frozen in a tragic hallucination.
He was in bed physically but mentally, he was back in the lab. Strapped to that cold chair. The doctors were about to erase his memory again— and there was absolutely nothing he could do about it. Of course he could try to fight back, but they'd fight harder. One of the doctors even told him if he tried to escape they'd kill him.

No hesitation

So there he lay, praying to God that somehow, somehow, he'd be let off easy. Bucky didn't want to kill anymore. He hated himself more and more everytime he took and innocent life. He hated the name Winter Solider and he hated the fact he was still alive. He should've died a long time ago, but they wouldn't let him.
They kept him going, in the worst way possible. Injecting him with liquids he didn't know the names of and sending him off on missions. Like he was their pet. Throwing a bone and calling him back; and he did come back. Crawling everytime.
The machine above him was placed on his head. A doctor started reading off the words. His trigger words. He hated him most of all. The words made him the way he was. Bucky was disgusted of himself. He didn't want this life. He was angry, confused, and most of all— Bucky was terrified. Of his fate and himself.
So he screamed.
He felt hands on him, small hands. They were shaking him. He heard a small voice, desperately saying his name. He was confused, so Goddamn confused. He recognized the voice. It was a girl's and it sounded nice. Like honey, or stardust. It sounded like rainstorms in July. He liked the voice and relaxed, letting the dream slip out of his head and back to where it came from.
Slowly Bucky woke and sat up. He subconsciously reached up and touched his arm, feeling the cold metal against his hand. But he also felt something else. He looked over to see a girl staring back at him. She smiled and pushed a few lose hairs out of his face.
"It's alright Bucky, I'm right here."
He still looked at her, confused. He knew she was important to him— or she wouldn't be in his bed.
He raised his real hand to cup her cheek. She giggled and touched his hand. He smiled back and remembered.
Hannah Marie Barnes
His loving wife for two years. He couldn't believe he forgot. He felt terrible. Shaking his head, he hung in head low and removed his hand from her face.
"I'm a monster"
Hannah sighed at her husband and took his face in her small hands. He tried turning away but failed. She always did have quite the grip.
"James you're not a monster."

"Yes I am."

"Monsters don't get happy endings James," she said letting go of his face, "But look at you. You're happy— well i'd like to think so." She joked, with a giggle.

Bucky grinned down at her, and took her in his arms. She laughed quietly, but loud enough for Bucky to adore it. He could hear it every second of the day and he wouldn't get tired of it. He loved it; he loved everything about her.

"I am happy darlin. Happier then I've ever been." He whispered, laying down with Hannah still in his grip. She nuzzled into his chest, and held him back— as if he could disappear at any moment. She couldn't lose him. Sho almost lost him once, before she even had him. Before she was even born, and that scared her half to death.
She wished, obviously, that Bucky never had to go through the things he did. All the years of torture and pain; but she was glad he was alive. She hated the scientists more then anything, but they did do one good thing. They gave Bucky another chance— even if it was a terrible one.
Bucky always told her that she was his second chance. Everytime they fought, he would lock himself in their room and sit alone for hours. Wondering why in the world he was fighting with the very thing that kept him going. Thankfully, it was rare they fought. Neither of them could stand it for both Bucky and Hannah loved each other very much.

"Goodnight Bucky."

"Goodnight Doll."

"I love you."

"I love you most."

And with that, the couple fell into a peaceful sleep. Safe in each other's arms.

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