❛ YUNO ❜
But I'm weak, and what's wrong with that?

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Y/N'S POINT OF VIEW

I stared at him in awe, secretly. His golden metallic orbs, his disheveled hair that looks perfectly on him, the way his crystal-like skin reflects the sun rays, his soft voice that sounds like a perfect melody on my ears.

Everything about Yuno is mesmerizing.

He's a real-life prince to be exact. I'm pretty sure that many girls are swooning over him and I can't deny the fact that I'm one of them. I am always at his beck and call, supporting him on everything he does and on all of his dreams especially being the next Wizard King. Let's face reality, I am his best friend and I swore that I will be on his side forever.

I released a heavy sigh, "Are you okay, Y/N?"

"I-I–Yes! Of course, I am!"

A crimson-colored blush quickly covered my cheeks as I covered it with my book. I am with my best friend, (of course, crush too) Yuno, here in the library because he asked me to go with him because he said he wanted to say something very important to me. Now, here I am, trying my best to focus on this book featuring Magical Beasts inside. How can I possibly process the paragraphs I'm reading if I kept staring at the boy in front of me?!

He put his book down before looking at me directly which made me squeal mentally.

"Y/N, I have something to say..."

I nodded, "Hm? What is it?"

The next thing I knew, he flashed a very genuine smile that made my heart skip a beat. It was so pure, so beautiful. I could look at it forever, I swear! His skin brushed against mine as he caught my hand that made me lost my focus on everything around me, my book falling on the floor with a thud since I lost my grip on it. My heartbeat increased as if I ran for five kilometers non-stop.

"I," He started, making a thrill.

I stopped breathing as I waited for his next words. I can't miss this one. M-Maybe, he's going to confess to me first?! D-Does he likes me too?! Is he going to ask me out?! Wait–

"I like your best friend, Y/N."

What?

"And I would like to ask for your help with this matter."

[ TIMESKIP ]

It's been two weeks since that happened. Of course, who am I to decline? It was my best friend who asked me a favor and like what I said before, I'll always be at his beck and call.

But hell, I didn't expect this to be this painful!

My best friend, Mimosa, is the one that Yuno likes. With my help, they got closer and nicer at each other. It feels like my role in this play has finally ended. I am not needed on this scene anymore. It's just for the two of them and it hurts so much.

"Yuno!" I called as I watched him stop in his tracks.

"Oh, Y/N!" He smiled at me before I noticed the bouquet on his hands. My smile immediately faded but I quickly regained my composure.

"D-Do you want to eat with me? I found a new café–"

"I'm sorry," Yuno scratched the back of his head. "I already planned to go out with Mimosa today. Maybe tomorrow?"

"Oh," I bit my lip as I felt the corner of my eyes getting warmer. Anyways, to continue with my energetic act, I cheered enthusiastically before patting him on the shoulders.

"Way to go, Yuno! S-Sure, let's just visit the café tomorrow."

I turned my back at him as I walked away, slowly, wiping the tears that are streaming down on my face. Covering my mouth with my arm to muffle my cries, I made my way back to my room as I ate my lunch alone. The next day, that planned cafeteria lunch out didn't happen. He said that Mimosa asked him if he can accompany her to the book shop, just there blocks away from the base.

Those things repeated again and again until I finally felt that I'm getting distant from Yuno. There's an awkward atmosphere between the two of us and just to brush it off, I will quickly walk away from him. It's not the same anymore. It's when I started to make my decision. I cannot bear to watch the only man I love with my best friend, I cannot control my feelings, I cannot keep up with this activity anymore.

For once, I want to be honest with myself. Just for this instance, I want to put myself first, I want to make myself a priority first. If others can't do that for me, then I'll do it on my own!

I looked at Yuno who is currently having a conversation with Mimosa. They looked so damn happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for both of them, of course. But I just can't stop feeling this unbearable pain in my chest too. Biting my lip, I stood up from my seat before walking away.

I'm so sorry, Yuno, but I have to do this.

[ TIMESKIP ]

YUNO'S POINT OF VIEW

I've been pacing back and forth in my room with Y/N's diary on my table. Last Monday, I saw some random notebook on the garden grounds and I kept it with me for a while. That's when I found out that this is Y/N's possession. Of course, I wanted to give it back to her but curiosity killed the cat. All of her entries, wait, maybe not all of them but most of them are all about me. All about the things I did with Y/N. All our happy memories, all the moments we shared, 're all accurately stated in her book.

Last night, as I got on her last entry, it made my heartache.

She was in love with me.

On the last pages of the notebook, she wrote the entry as if she was talking to me and Y/N said everything, she let it all out. That's when I realized all her sacrifices for me. That even if it hurts her so much to make me closer to Mimosa, she did it for me. She did it for me because she knew that it'll make me happier.

Today is September 10th and I was supposed to confess my feelings with Mimosa, but suddenly, it feels wrong. It feels as if...as if I'm not in love with her anymore and instead, Y/N piqued my interest.

Stopping from pacing back and forth, I grabbed her notebook before storming out of my room. I have to do something. I will give her the notebook back and I will say my true intentions to Y/N. There's no more turning back.

Half running just to get to her room, I was about to knock when her door suddenly opened.

"Oh, great," Y/N said with a cold tone, yet, she's smiling at me. "I was planning to look for you."

"I-I have something to say, Y/N."

I heard her scoffed. "Me too. Should we go to the garden then?"

"Fine by me."

While we're on our way to the place we agreed to talk about, we're quiet. No one dared to speak. It feels like something changed. No, someone. Was it her? Or was it me? She stopped in her tracks when we reached the fountain. Her strong façade immediately faded away when she stared at my figure standing in front of her.

I cleared my throat, fishing the notebook out of my mini-bag as Y/N's eyes grew bigger.

"How did you get this?!"

"I saw it here on the ground last Monday. It was later on when I realized it belongs to you."

Y/N released a heavy sigh before finally taking it. "So, I guess, you knew everything."

I nodded as a response. Out of nowhere, I can't find my voice. It seems like this isn't the right time to talk back. It should be her. It should be her who should talk right now and not me. She bit her lip before looking away when tears suddenly flowed out of her eyes.

"I love you, Yuno." She directly stated. "No–I mean, I loved you."

I heard my heart crack. I can't look at her eyes, I can't even look at her! Her voice is painted with pain and sadness and it's making me suffocate. How long did she keep this from me?!

"But when I saw you with Mimosa, I saw how happy you are with her. That's when I asked myself, will you smile like that too if you'll end up with me? Will you laugh like that too if you'll end with me? Will you make time for me too just to be with me like what you did for Mimosa? It hurts me just to realize the answers myself! They're all no!"

"Yuno, I am always on your side. I was there when you needed someone the most. I was there when you feel like giving up on your dreams. I was the one who made you realize that you can do everything! But why am I not the one you chose?! Why is it Mimosa and not me?! Maybe because she's smarter than me? Because she's prettier than me? Maybe that's why!"

"No–"

"Then why?!" She shouted back. "Why can't it be me?!"

"Y/N, let me explain first–"

She shook her head. "No, I made a decision already, Yuno."

My eyebrows arched as I looked at her confusingly. A decision on what?! The decision for who?! This is one thing that I hated about her, she always acts recklessly on her own! Even if she's going to hurt herself, she will still do anything that came upon her mind.

"I want to stop being friends with you."

I blinked twice, trying to process her words. What did she just say?!

"I can't keep up with my acting anymore. I can't play the role of the supportive best friend anymore, Yuno. I can't stay like this forever because my heart is giving up. Every day that passes, I cannot bear to watch you with Mimosa. It hurts me so damn much! I-I want to stop being your friend, I want to stop being your best friend. It's better if we just...we just stay distant from each other. It's better if we start forgetting everything we did. It's better if–"

"Wait, Y/N! Y-You can't mean–"

"I mean everything, Yuno! I am serious about this! So, please, let me..."

Multiple teardrops coming from her are starting to fall on the ground. My body turned limp and I can't move a muscle. It feels like the world stopped from moving, I can't breathe properly. S-She's breaking ties with me?!

With a swift movement, I felt her soft lips brushing against mine as her tears streamed down on my face too. The way she clutched my shirt, the way she kisses me, it seems like they're bearing all pain that Y/N tried to endure. I wanted to kiss him back, I wanted to wrap my arms around her but then she let go.

She let me go before I could even make her mine.

"I was so weak for you." She caught my hand before she gave me her diary. "Keep this."

"Y/N, I–"

"I love you." For the last time, our eyes met. "Goodbye."