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(A/N: Chat chapter ahead)

'Today was going to be a good day.' I told myself.

But it was not a good day.

It's been a month since the incident with Jungkook and his mom. I never thought it was possible, but we grew even closer.

And I started losing my mind.

What if I started loving Jungkook even more? I really could not afford heartbreak, it's too expensive for me. It would take a toll on my life and I didn't want that.

I had to end this as soon as possible. And I had one person in mind who could help me with some advice.

You are online

Me:
Queen

Queen👸🏻:
Yes, hun?

Me:
I need help🥺

Queen👸🏻:
WHO HURT YOU?😠

Me:
No one

Queen👸🏻:
Oh. Good

Me:
Yet.

Queen👸🏻:
I- 😔it's about Jungkook isn't it?

Me:
😔you know me so well

Queen👸🏻:
How is me being near Jungkook affecting you?

Me:
It's not affecting me
Can you be a little clingier so that I can get these feelings done with?🥺

Queen👸🏻:
Aw...
Sorry Mira😔but I don't think it works that way

Me:
😔

Queen👸🏻:
But don't you think something is weird?

Me:
Like what?

Queen👸🏻:
The fact that I was pretty clingy with Jungkook but you didn't feel a thing

Me:
I think it's because I'm shipping you both so hard to get over my feelings🤷🏻‍♀️

Queen👸🏻:
Or...

Me:
Or...?

Queen👸🏻:
Or you have already moved on from him but you're just clinging onto the belief that you aren't

Me:
...
Sorry, I'm stupid can you explain that in a simpler way?

Queen👸🏻:
💀
If you had your hand fractured and finally the cast was removed, how would you use your right hand? Exactly like before?

Me:
Yeah?

Queen👸🏻:
Think again

Me:
...
I guess I'll be a little afraid and careful

Queen👸🏻:
And if no one told you that your arm was healed and you still had to keep your cast for a few months?

Me:
Hmm...
I would think that it still hurts?

Queen👸🏻:
Exactly!
What if you have moved on but you think you haven't because there were no obvious signs until now?

Me:
Ey-
That makes sense😶

Queen👸🏻:
Mhm!
That would explain why you weren't feeling jealous

Me:
Then what about the feeling I get when I'm near Jungkook?

Queen👸🏻:
Describe it

Me:
I feel super happy, sometimes I can't stop smiling, I've got a huge urge to tease him sometimes and just squish him

Queen👸🏻:
That honestly just sounds like friendship to me- except for the squishing part. But MAYBE that's just you simping over Jungkook's cuteness

Me:
Oh no🥺

Queen👸🏻:
What is it?🥺

Me:
Why do I not feel like that around Tae then?

Queen👸🏻:
Some friendships can be different and there's nothing to panic about🧡

Me:
I would kill for those two though

Queen👸🏻:
Awh
Wait
You said your heart used to beat fast right?

Me:
Hm?

Queen👸🏻:
I think you liked Jungkook for a long time but it wasn't love

Me:
Huh-?

Queen👸🏻:
You know, when your heart beats fast, you feel nervous and have the need to impress, it's clear that it's a crush. When a crush develops, it turns into liking. You still feel slightly nervous and butterflies, but otherwise you're pretty calm.

Me:
...
Omfg
I'm going to go jump off a building rn- 🤦🏻‍♀️I cannot believe I thought me liking someone was loving them

Queen👸🏻:
🥺don't leave me alone in this cruel world

Me:
🥺I would never

Queen👸🏻:
It's completely normal to confuse like and love😇

Me:
What is love then?

Queen👸🏻:
Love is when you're comfortable with the person and you would do anything for them. You can laugh with them, cry with them, and it all feels so natural.

Me:
Woah
I never did love him then...
I did like him though

Queen👸🏻:
When people get married, their hearts don't beat that fast anymore and they are comfortable with the presence of each other. People might think that it is because their love faded, but it has just begun.

Me:
Woah
You sound so wise🤩

Queen👸🏻:
😌

Me:
That does make sense
Then how do you tell what's friendship and what's love? They both come off as natural don't they?

Queen👸🏻:
They do
And that's why only time and a few moments can tell
You'll know immediately, and you can't even deny it
It's best if you realise on your own🧡that's what makes it more believable

Me:
🥺
That means I've moved on and I have no feelings for Jungkook anymore?

Queen👸🏻:
I'm no professional and I have no right to be the judge of your feelings so you'll have to think on your own

Me:
😶
Oh my God
I'VE MOVED ON
It feels weird
I feel happy though🥳
Can I throw a party for moving on?

Queen👸🏻:
Do as you wish hun🤩

Me:
Kay kay☺
Thanks, Queen🤩

Queen👸🏻:
You're welcome~

Queen👸🏻 went offline

You went offline

What she said made a lot of sense, and I felt a burden removed from my shoulders.

I no longer had to feel guilty over liking my best friend who only viewed me as a friend. I no longer had to worry about constant heartbreak.

I was finally free, and I'm going to enjoy that.

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Sometimes, what you think is love is just friendship. And what you think is just friendship, could easily be love. Only time will tell so wait patiently.

-ilovequackson3000