Newt's POV

At dinner, I wondered where Nora was. She usually sat with us. I thought she might be with Clint and Jeff again since she was with them at lunch too.

'Clint, Jeff, where's Nora?' I walked up to the two boys.

'She isn't with you?' Jeff asked.

'No. She isn't anywhere around.'

'Maybe she's still in the med-hut.' Clint said.

Quickly and worried about Nora I walked to the med-hut. Something was off today. She was acting weird.

'Nora?' I looked in the med-hut, but the only person who was there was Alby. In a hurry, I walked to her hut and knocked on the door.

'Love?' I asked. No response. I grabbed the door handle and pushed, but the door didn't open. Something blocked it. 'Nora, open the door.' I said. I wasn't sure what was going on. Maybe she was just getting dressed?

'Come on, Nora. Say something!'

No response again.

'Nora, open the door!' I yelled.

I started knocking on the door a little harder. 'Nora!' I was getting impatient. 'Come on!'

After thirty more seconds, I had enough and started pushing the door. Eventually, I found myself banging on it. 'Nora!' I shouted worried. What was happening? Why didn't she open the door? She didn't cut herself again, did she?

'Open the door!' I pushed my whole body against the door and it moved a bit. 'Nora, please!' I repeated banging on the door and eventually, it opened.

~

My breathing hitched in my throat and my mouth dropped open at the image. Nora was lying on the floor with a knife next to her. A pool of blood surrounded her and red stains were all over her clothes. Blood flowed out of her wrist and I could barely see the difference between cuts and skin. All of it was red.

Almost in tears, I bend down, pulled her lifeless body onto my lap and looked at her face. I couldn't tell if she was breathing or not.

'Someone help!' I shouted in panic. 'Help!' I didn't know what to do. Why would she do this to herself? 'Someone help!' I screamed again. Tears formed in my eyes as I looked at Nora.

Logan stormed into Nora's hut but immediately stopped moving when he saw me and Nora. In shock, he stood there.

'Logan, do something!' I shouted.

He got shaken out of his trance and bend down next to us. I was panicking too much to say something else. Logan grabbed Nora out of my hands and I got up. Logan lifted Nora's lifeless body and handed her over to me.

'Go get the Med-jacks!' I looked at Logan who gave me a nod.

Quick, but gentle, I lifted Nora and ran to the med-hut. Luckily the two other Med-jacks were already there.

'Here!' Clint motioned at an empty bed. The white sheets turned red when I lay Nora on top of it.

'She won't stop bleeding!' I yelled in frustration. Clint and Jeff started wrapping bandages around her wrist like crazy.

When they were done Jeff wiped some sweat off his forehead. 'When is she gonna wake up?!' I immediately asked.

'We need to know what happened first.' Clint said, way too calmly.

'What does it matter what happened?!' I wasn't going to tell them what happened. Not without Nora's permission. 'How long is it going to take for her to wake up?!'

Clint stayed silent for a second and looked at Nora's pale face. 'I don't know.'

'What do you mean you don't know?!' I screamed. 'She's gonna wake up, right?!'

I waited for Clint or Jeff to respond, but they didn't.

'Right?' I repeated, this time quieter.

'I don't know. She lost much blood.' Jeff looked at me.

I sat down on a chair and rubbed my eyes. 'She has to wake up.'

'We'll just have to wait. At least she's breathing.' Clint said.

'What happened? I heard shouts.' Minho walked into the med-hut and Logan was behind him. Minho stopped walking when he saw Nora lying on the bed. 'What happened?'

'It doesn't matter what happened.' I said. 'Where's Chuck?'

'Outside. Should I get him?' Minho asked.

'No!' I immediately said. 'I don't want him to see this.'

'Newt, eventually he'll wonder where his cousin is.' Jeff said.

'Just wait until she wakes up.' I decided.

Logan sat down next to me and let out a small sigh. 'Did she-'

'Yes.'

'Why?' Logan mumbled.

'I don't know.' I ran a hand through my hair.

'I thought she stopped.'

'I don't think it's something you can just stop doing.' I sighed.

'We need to make sure this never happens again.' Logan decided.

'I won't let it happen again. Never.' I fidgeted with my hands. Logan was silent for a while, but I felt him looking at me.

'Newt-' he started. 'You don't think is your fault, do you?'

I didn't respond. If I would've been there, this would've never happened.

'Don't blame yourself, Newt. It's not your fault.' Logan said.

'But what if she doesn't wake-'

'She'll wake up.' Logan interrupted me. 'I'm gonna get some dinner. Do you want to come?' He got up.

'No. I'll be fine.'

After ten minutes everyone except for me left the med-hut. I looked at Nora and was glad to see her chest moving up and down in a steady way.

~

The next morning I woke up by someone walking into the med-hut. Jeff looked at me. 'Have you been here all night?'

'Yes.' I straightened my back. The whole night I had slept on the wooden chair and it made my back ache, but I wasn't gonna leave Nora alone.

'Did you have breakfast?' Jeff asked.

'No.'

'Go get some.'

'No.'

'Newt-' Jeff sighed.

'I'm not leaving.'

'I'll get you breakfast then.' Jeff walked out of the hut and two minutes later he came back. 'Here you go.' He handed me a sandwich.

'Thanks.' I started eating and Clint walked into the med-hut.

'We need to clean the wounds.' Jeff looked at Clint. I almost dropped my sandwich.

'Are you gonna take the bandages off?' I asked. The answer was obvious.

'Well, yes.' Jeff answered.

'Do you have to?'

'Yes. We need to clean the wounds.' Jeff repeated.

'Newt, what really happened last night?' Clint asked. I realized only me and Logan knew what happened.

'I can't tell you.' I said. Nora wouldn't want me to. 'Just get over with it.'

Clint slowly unwrapped the bandages and the cuts were revealed. Dried blood was around all of them, making it harder to see them. Gently Jeff moved a wet cloth on Nora's wrist, cleaning it.

'Does this hurt her?' I asked worriedly.

'She won't feel it.' Jeff kept cleaning until all the blood was gone. The cuts were visible now. It shocked me how deep they were. It looked horrible. It really got out of hand.

In shock, Clint and Jeff stared at Nora's wrist.

'How could this-' Jeff stammered. 'Did she-'

'Yes.' I rather didn't talk about it.

'Did she steal the kni-'

'Yes.'

'And is that the reason Logan was angr-'

'Yes.'

The two boys didn't say anything for a few seconds.

'Okay.' Jeff finally said. He wrapped clean bandages about Nora's wrist and looked at her. Red stains were still on her clothes.

'Her clothes-' Jeff said a little unsure. 'Do we need to clean them or..' He looked at me.

'We need to clean them.' I decided.

'I suggest we let Newt do it?' Clint gave Jeff a questioning look. I trusted the two boys, but rather not have them see Nora in that way.

'Yes.' Jeff agreed. 'We'll grab some clean clothes out of her hut and come back to you, okay?' I gave them a nod and waited for them to come back with the clothes.

'Here.' Clint handed me a fresh pair of clothes. 'Just put dirty ones in there.' He motioned at a basket.

'Okay.' I nodded and waited for the boys to get out. I hoped Nora wouldn't mind me changing her clothes. Slowly I removed her pants and put on a new pair. As carefully as possible I got the shirt off her, trying not to touch the cuts. Gently I put on a fresh shirt and threw the dirty clothes in the assigned basket.

'I'm done.' I told the Med-jacks. They walked back in again and looked at Nora. Her eyes were closed and her breaths were steady. Somehow she looked peaceful. I walked closer to her and moved the blanket on top of her body.

'We can't do anything else now.' Clint said.

'We were supposed to have a gathering today. Guess that's not happening.' I frowned. 'How's the girl doing? Did y'all talk to her?'

'Yes. She got these syringes in her pocket when she came up.' Clint handed me two syringes filled with a blue liquid.

'What is it?' I inspected the syringe. The letters w.c.k.d. were carved into it.

'We don't know. Maybe it's a serum. We could try it on Alby.' Jeff explained.

'We'll see.'