"soobin....found out.

he found me, and i'm guessing he was shocked. i mean, who wouldn't?

he was angry. and frustrated. i told him not to tell the other guys.. because i'll still be leaving.

my mom wants me to have the surgery in canada. i know, it's ridiculous right? i could have the surgery here, and i could have my eyes operated now...

but my mom wants us to go see my dad..

they're divorced by the way.

but i told her i don't wanna leave.

i can't.

i told her to wait. just a little more. maybe i'll have the courage to talk to beomgyu then.

maybe..."

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