a loud bang startled me from my thoughts.

shooting up from my bunk, i immediately throw my bedroom door open and stare at the shocking sight infront of me.

sowon-unnie was crying.

no, she was bawling.

i stared at her, shocked. she didn't cry often, and seeing her break down was ten times worse that seeing yerin-unnie crying because of dongmin.

slowly, i approach sowon-unnie. i really need to get to her. i didn't want her to be like this.

and i was planning on being quiet, so that i can't startle her.

but because of the dimness of the living room, i hit the couch.

i cursed under my breath.

so much for being quiet.

sowon-unnie's head snapped up when she heard me.

and i cursed some more.

"choi yuna." my head snapped up to look at the person speaking, "i didn't raise you to curse, young lady."

i smile sheepishly, "sorry, unnie."

and even if sowon-unnie was smiling at me, i could still see the tears.

sowon-unnie was crying, and i really felt like i need to know why.

"unnie...what happened?" i pry, i really need to know why.

sowon-unnie just shook her head, "nothing that you have to worry about, yuna. just go to sleep."

"but, unnie..." i protest, i need to know why she's crying.

"no, yuna. this is my problem, not yours. so don't dwell too much about it."

"unnie, please...i really need to know." i try hard to convince her, but all i got was a mere shake of the head and a sigh.

"we'll just talk about this tomorrow morning, yuna." and i didn't say any other word.

it hurts me to see my unnie crying.

but it hurts me more that i can't even help her.

"i'm wandering,
unable to approach you."