✧.*.Blue Christmas✧.*.

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December 24,1989
Y/N' Pov

To say being married to Nikki Sixx was a dream.  When Nikki and I first got married we spent every minute together and planned everything out as far as we could due to his crazy schedules.

We even planned on having kids in a couple years. Well, a year maybe. I got pregnant a year after we got married and it was the biggest and best surprise for both of us. Nikki getting sober was another good thing for us

Nikki was so happy he practically called the guys and told them he didn't want to work anymore and spend every minute with me.

I gave birth to our daughter Violet three years ago and she has been the biggest ray of sunshine we could ask for.

Nikki was currently on tour for his Dr.Feelgood album that was just released.

He would call almost everyday and spend the whole time talking to Vi about her day and how she needed to be good for mommy if she wanted presents from Santa.

She waits by the phone all day for her dad to call. He hasn't called in two days which is very odd since he always calls even if it's for a couple minutes.

I was sitting with Violet while she was watching White Christmas, a movie I adore as well. She always loves the sparkly dresses and dances around even if it's not with the theme.

"Do you think daddy will like my present I made him? I worked r-really hard" she asks with her big puppy dog eyes staring at me. She made Nikki a picture out of her art set she got for her birthday.

"Vi, sweetie I know daddy's gonna love it" I kissed her nose as she giggled. The phone starts to ring causing Violet to drop everything and pick it up.

"Daddy! I missed you! You haven't c-called in forever!" She babbles on into the phone. I smile at the interaction as I heR Nikki's voice.

I start to pick up her toys as it's getting late and ready for her bedtime. I hear Violet call for for me to get on the phone. "Mommy daddy wants you!"

"Thank you sweetie why don't you go and get dressed for bed huh" she nodded before running up to her room as I heard my husband's voice over the phone.

"Hey baby! How's tour? I know you're ready to get home" I asked into the phone enthusiastically.

"Oh it's a it's great Y/N/N." He said in a low voice

"Is everything okay? You don't sound too thrilled" I laughed to calm my own nerves and lighten the tension.

"I've got some bad news and I don't know how to break it to you or Vi" he says with a tone of dread.

" I'm sure it's not that bad" I heard silence on the other end making me scared " Right? Nikki what's going on? " I asked peaking around the corner to check if Violets listening just in case.

" I... I can't make it home for Christmas." He said slowly. "Wait w-what?" I thought I heard him wrong him.

"There's snow in our last stop and the Jet captain cancelled the fucking flight and so did the airport. I've tried calling everywhere just to get home but I can't make it. I'm so fucking sorry baby I hate that I can't be there for you or for Vi. " His voice broke a little into the phone

I felt like I could've cried right then and there. My eyes swelled with tears as I look at the Christmas tree in our house. It had presents for Violet and some she made for everyone else under it.

"Fuck... H-how am I supposed to tell Vi Nikki? I mean she's been talking about all the things she's been wanting to do. I mean she just finished your present today. She even got excited about all the cookies to make together" I mumbled quietly in the phone. This is all so frustrating

"I know I'm so sorry Y/N. I tried I really did" he spoke upset. " I know you did Nik I know.

December 25,1989

Waking up on Christmas morning without your husband is a feeling I hope no one ever has to go through. I didn't tell Violet about Nikki not being here I just didn't have the heart to. I'll tell her when the time is right I guess.

My clock reads 7:30 in the morning as I decided since I can't get back to sleep I might as well get stuff ready. Vi won't be up for a little while.

As I was doing my morning routine I heard the downstairs door open. Confused, I walked downstairs one hand on the railing. I wasn't expecting anyone to come by so I stayed cautious.

I made to the bottom of the stairs as I heard stuff being placed on the floor. I turned the corner to the entry way making me freeze.

My husband Nikki stood there and next to him was his luggage and another bag full of wrapped gifts.

We made eye contact freezing just in shock before I ran into his arms. Within seconds he responded the same lifting me into his arms and wrapping my legs around his waist.

I pulled away kissing him softly as he reciprocated the action before breaking it with a huge grin.

"I thought you weren't going to make it" I whispered while smiling so hard my cheeks were hurting trying to hold in my tears of joy.

He laughed "I bribed someone into flying me out halfway and another person to drive me. Did you honestly I'd give up on seeing my beautiful wife and daughter in Christmas?" He shook his head in a teasing tone. I laughed hugging him again enjoying the feeling of his arms around me.

I heard footsteps behind us followed by Violet yelling 'Daddy' I let go of Nikki so she could hug him.

Just seeing them together makes my heart melt. I'm so happy he could make it.

"Daddy I made you a present let's go see" her little hands dragged him to the tree and began shoving his present in his hands.

After opening all the presents Violet passed out on the floor surrounded by her new toys and a bunch of wrapping paper.

Nikki was in the kitchen making breakfast as that's always been his job on Christmas. I wrapped my around him from behind placing a few kisses on his shoulder.

He turned the heat down on the hasbrowns,Violets favorite, before turning to me placing his hands on my waist.

"Thank you for my Christmas present" I mumbled

"You're necklace? I know you've been wanting it for a while- " No Nik, you. Thank you for getting here and being my favorite all year around present I could ask for." I spoke gently as I kissed up his neck to his lips.

"Well y'know we've been apart for about" he checks his wrist as if to look at a non-existent watch causing me to laugh

"Three months now and I couldn't keep it going any longer. I missed you" he kissed my lips

"So much" "like crazy" he mumbled between kisses. He broke the kiss quickly forgetting about food in the pan and quickly placing them on a plate putting the pan in the sink.

"A sick bassist but can be an awful chef".I tisked sadly at him. He growled laughing before throwing me over his shoulder heading to our bedroom.

He threw me on the bed hovering over me as I laughed knowing I made a rise out of him.

He stared at me for a little before speaking. "I love you.. so very much Y/N. I hope you know that" he whispered with love in his eyes.

When Nikki said he loved me, I knew he always meant it. He was always so passionate with me.

"I love you more Nikki" I whispered looking into his green eyes. I could get lost in them forever.

" I missed you" he mumbled kissing my face as his lips lead down my neck. " This can be another present for each other" we laughed. I pulled him closer locking my arms around his neck connecting our lips softly.

There's no blue Christmas in the Sixx household and there never will be.

Merry Christmas guys!! -rockonbabe