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Reality stuck her and she pushed him away from herself.. without giving him any other glance she ran Away, Picking up her Bag, but unknown to her Something fell there but she was so in hurry she didn't noticed it and Stopping a cab, She sit down Hurriedly inside.. and the Cab Zoom out..

" Shit!! Shit!! No.. No.. How can you Act so Weak in front of him , Nandini!!? He don't deserve it.. You Have to be Strong.. Ayiyappa, Please Help me.. I just can't let him break those walls around my heart which I built.. Those Walls are Already Shielding The Broken Heart and I really don't want it to Shatterd in various Pieces With his Another Rejection or Pain.. ", Nandini Thinks with teary Eyes but then Wiping them hurriedly she rested her head back on the seat.. She Hugged her Bag close to her , closing her eyes she let her took some Calm Breath..

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He Was Still Standing there with guilt Emitting from his Eyes.. He has Accepted his Mistakes.. Ahh.. okay! It wasn't some Simple Mistake..

It was Actually a Sin..

And he has Promised Himself that he Will Do Anything to Win her.. And Will Surely Make it up to him..

He Sighed And Going to turn towards the parking area Where he has Parked his Car but then his Eyes Fall on Something.. he frowned and Walk towards it and find it was A Diary.. Kneeling down he took it in his hand.. it's a Beautiful Code lock Diary..

Is this belong to Nandini!!?

He thought.

Taking it he walked to his Car.. Sitting Inside, he kept looking at the Diary for so long.. Thinking, Should he Opened it and Read it!!?

" How Can you read it Stupid!? It's her personal Diary.. Common Sense Dude!!! ", His mind mocked at him.

" But I can Read it.. I'm her husband.. ", His Heart Pouted.

" Shut up you stupid!! She's already Angry and hurt With me.. I really don't want her to take ' Kaali MAA Ka Roop ' and kill me Thinking as a ' Rakshash ' .. ", His Mind Said while making Faces.

" I'm ready for it too.. Maybe after Reading it.. I'll get some ideas to Monofie her.. ", his heart Said With Happiness while this time his mind was Silent as he also think that maybe it would Work..

Without much thinking he tried to open it with code.. firstly he tried Nandini's Birth date.. then he Also try her Appa & Amma's Birth date, and his parents Also, and when it also didn't Opened it , he was so sad..

" Now What Left!!? ", He Asked to himself with sigh but then it hit him that he didn't tried his birth date.

And when he put his and it opened.. And that's Makes him Excited.. he punched his fist in air.. But then he also felt guilty that why he never try to Understand her love or specially, he ignored this Innocent Angel..

Opening it..

He Saw..

Me & My Cute Monster..

And there was a Photo of there's which was Clicked with both the family on Kritika and Nikhil's 25th Wedding anniversary.. That day they were Standing Beside eachother.. Manik was As always didn't Looked at her just looking ahead.. while Nandini was Smiling With blush on her cheeks looking at him..

Manik Creased there photo which was Zoomed in.. it was just both of them....

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She looks Soo Beautiful..

And I Ignored this Beauty..

Godd!!

More than Beauty Her Innocence Filled Eyes , does lot's of things to me..

And Now you are same but just I'm seeing your love turning into hatred for me..

Well, the whole Credit Goes to me, only..

Pecking on our photo, I turned the Page and there I Found..

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#November/08/2015

Hello Diary..

I'm first time going to Write My feelings.. My Heart's Talk.. Well , As I Don't know how to Express My feelings in Words.. So, Today.. Appa Has Given me this..

I mean you.. My Pretty Diary..

I don't have much to talk about myself diary.. okay..

Umm Wait..

Let Me " Naamkaran " of you..

✨Muntazir✨

How's it!!?

I know, you liked it..

Okay.. Going ahead!!

Where was I!?

Oh! Yes..

Jaise ki , I have told I don't have much to talk about myself..

I will happily talk about My LOVE..

Manik....

I have Allot to talk about him but still can never find a word to Describe him..

He....

He's A man who always try to Show that he doesn't Mind Me Having Around him..

I mean - he shows that I didn't meant anything to him..

But the truth is - That I meant everything to him..

I always felt his Gaze on myself whenever I wasn't looking at him .

How cute..

Nhi!!?

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#Nov/12/2015

Today, that monster, Again Try to Ignore me . But being the Stubborn head I sit beside him . I was giggling today seeing his Irritated cute face Feeling me siting beside him while we were in class.. We Have two joined class of literature.. and believe Me , These Periods I can never missed it..

Let me share a one more Secret with you ' Muntazir ' that I have an Early Morning tradition to see The Sleeping Face of My monster.. he looks so cute.. just like A Baby to me . Aww..

And that time is the best time of my Everyday..

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#Nov/16/2015

Today, I'm so irritated.. That Soha poha!!

She Sit on My seat Beside him.. how Dare She!!?

Don't she know that , it's mine Seat!!?

Jalli hue Hair walli..

Kamini..

Oppss!!

Sorry Ayiyappa..

Galti se Mistake in gussa okay.. *Pouted*

But My Anger Shuu away when I found Manik leaving the seat just the another minute she sit on my seat and that day I realised that Manik also wait for me to sit beside Him..

While , Poha's Face was treat to watch.. ohh . Actually, I can never see her 100 Layers of make up Face .

I don't know ayiyappa why you created that good for Nothing Burden of the Earth called Soha..

But Anyways .

At the end of the day I was the Happiest..

Yahuu....

Hihi..

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#Dec/04/2015

Today, I feel like Appa was Hiding Something From me..

Since few days he was feeling low . I told him to get Check up.. but As daughter as father.. the Stubborn Head..

But today I forcely, send him To Doctor for check up.. but when he Return he was all Silent.. All the day.. I tried to talk but he was just Answering in monosyllable Answers.. I was getting Worried.. but then Appa himself Comes to My room for Our Father-daughter night..

He gives tips to - how To Patao Boys!!?

I tell you My Appa na sometimes he is like this!!

But I still loves him.. Soooo much .

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I was Having tears in my eyes reading her Diary.. Opps!!

' Muntazir '

She has talk mostly about me.. Now I understand why the first page has - Me & My Cute Monster..

You are Right Nandini.. I always try to show that I wasn't affected by your presence around me..

Your Presence always Enginate those feelings in me which I doesn't want to experience as I just wanted to focus on My career but now I'm really guilty the way I choose the path hurting you Behind..

I hope Ayiyappa Gives Me Another Chance to Rectify My Mistakes or Should I say Sins!!

But I know it's not possible but I atleast can try to ask forgiveness from her..

Looking down I turn another page..

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#Jan/10/2016

Today.. Appa too left me alone in this World..

It's feel so heart Wrenching to not Feel you Arround appa.. you was the Best thing Happened in My life.. it was so difficult to bid you Bye..

He took promise from Kritika Aunty and Nikhil Uncle, to look After me..

Though, I really don't want to become burden on Uncle and Aunty but Still I just can't make Both of them sad when they decided to shift me to Malhotra Mansion..

After coming here, I didn't talk with Anyone.. it was like , I wasn't having any energy to do anything.. the strength I lost which I always gets from Appa.. but today, As he gone he also took my strength with me..

I Wish Manik, you must be here..

But I know, you were Still fighting with your Heart and mind to come to me or not..

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You are right Nandini.. I was Actually Fighting with My heart and mind and was stuck in between them.. but that day I do heard of My heart.. I did come to you at night just to see you.. though, I didn't look at your face but as the First time I touched your cheek where I felt wet Tears still laying on your cheek.. I felt my heart breaking..

I was confused with my feelings and was hanging in between what to choose.. if I choose you I won't be able to concentrate on my career.. that's what it's going on in my mind..

So , I just left from your room all frustrated with myself..

And when the whole month you didn't come out from your room.. I was all restless and worried about you, unknowingly..

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#Feb/4/2016

Today, Kritika Aunty.. talk with me about me getting married with Manik..

I don't know what to say?

What to feel!?

I already know about his Rule of the life.. " No commitments and love "..

I so wanted to talk with you first.. so that I can actually prepared myself to face him..

He's really important to me After Apps, Now.. and if he doesn't want this marriage I'll surely talk with Kritika Aunty and Nikhil Uncle..

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#Feb/8/2016

I tried really hard to have a talk with that " Murat Of Ignorance "..

The Stupid Fellow..

I so wanted to show my Marshall Art moves on him but then I always stop myself.. because the last thing is in the world that I wanted to see is " the hurt him "..

I can never see him in Pain..

*Sigh*

Okay now I'm leaving this on Ayiyappa.. he better Knows what he store for me in My life..

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#Feb/12/2016

Today was My Marriage with him.. I was waiting for him eagerly in our Room.. but only if I know that I have to wait for him don't know for how long!!?

He left..

Just leaving a single letter for his parents..

I actually don't know how to feel about this .

To feel happy that he's going to follow his dream or to be sad that he left me just after our marriage!!

Kya Isse hi Kehte Hai Pehle Pyaar Ka Pehla Gum!?

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Main yahaan hoon muntazir
Tum wahaan ho bekhabar

Main yahaan hoon muntazir
Tum wahaan ho bekhabar

Aur halke halke se mann chahe
Manga jisko woh mil jaaye

Yeh raat tham jaye sau saal ko
Aur ek ho jaayen hum tum

Main yahan hoon muntazir
Tum wahan ho bekhabar

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Sorryy For the borring Update..🙈😣

Muntazir Means - expectant, one who waits.

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