I AM  TIRED AND TERRIFIED
A free verse poem written by :
Marianie Villaceran
[ YanieWrites ]

Growing up, is an exciting part for me back then
I always want to become an adult in just a snap when i was sixteen.
I thought growing up is a best thing will happen.
But it's totally mess up and everything is complicated.
My expectations are too far from today's reality just how i feel so lost and tired of everything.

Im tired and terrified.

It has been my goal to become
successful one day,
Why its too hard to achieve it
as i become college student.
To dream big and doing want i love like when it comes on writing
Nor how my life sucks and its all
complicated again and again.
Its not just school , writing , my self make everything seems out of my hand.
Its how i think and how i cried everytime.
I  feel anxious and tired

is this really the adulting life?
is this really the adulting life?

Im tired and terrrifed.

Always in pursuit of happiness
but why i feel not happy about it?
It's feel like everything is turning up side down.
I worked hard and always pushed myself to strive harder everytime.
When it comes on my academic and writing career all the time. I always push my self without limit at least i did something for myself.

Im tired and terrrifed.

I was juggling my physical and emotional struggle or breakdowns at the same time.
Not knowing what to mend first or what should i do next.
I was this close to giving up my dear life in my thoughts all the time and just want to die in my mind.
All because I was so lost and tired every single day as time passes by.

Do i need to be strong everytime?
Im tired and tirrrifed.

We are afraid that we won't be enough.
That we cannot provide anymore.
for ourselves or make our self happy when we need to feel loved or happiness if everything is difficult.
and to the people we love how can we able to face them with smile when we struggle a lot and we fake it all for them not to know.
Im so afraid to fail and disappoint them.

Im tired and tirrrifed.
And here I am again, struggling and tired.
I have enough.

I feel so burnout, pressured and it feels like nothing is going right in my life now.
Every seems too difficult to deal with.
Its too much to bear, too much for me.
May we all find the courage after i wrote this poem at this moment.

Im tired and terrrifed.

I ask for rest so i can still fight for it everytime.
Everytime i rest i need to breath,
  To breathe and dream bigger after it and continue how my life is.
Continue my dream and for my successful future or what ever is awaiting me in this journey.

Im tired and tirrrifed.
Lord please guide me always
Im tired of everything but
Help me out when i need
Someone or give me courage
to do so and be brave.

Im tired of everything but still
I born a fighter, and always keep
this fire burning inside me.
With your guidance Lord.

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• 6:16PM • 5|21|23

This poem is connected to this post of her, credit to the owner. I feel so lost and want to wrote a poem so i decided to make her post a guide to make a poem just to feel better.

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I hope you enjoy reading!