Author's Confession :
About Her Love Life
and Experience

Loving you is my losing game,
Because as I choose you and decided to spend my years with you
That was the time I tied my self on a chained
Doubt if this kind of love obsessed.

I was tied up on someone and been controlled by someone you loved
Letting yourself in a chained of pain and love
Just to let you feel loved and spacial.

But that's a wrong move I make
In this love he called as a game
Like I'm just one of those numbers exes he listed
As he count me in,

Loving you is my losing game
Because of you my dear
I lost my self , my self worth and my freedom.

I forgot to love and appreciated myself
I stop to love my self because I found my self deeply in love with you
You became my inspiration and my pain in my writing.

You become one of the reason of my sickness I gain
You become the headache and my pain
A unforgettable stain and having hard time to removed the pain that I gain,

Still I appreciated it because its part of love and pain
Still thank you for the time and love that I gain
Because of you I just lost my self
Let me lose you so I can found my self again

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September , 4th of Year : 2021