I want to write again so here I am writing
At the middle of the night
Thinking if I am alright
I notice how I act lately
It's a far away from being me
I've been sleeping late
Not because I want to stay awake.

But thinking not others
But thinking about myself

I wanna ask my self if I'm okay
But damn I can't even answer it properly
I'm tired of all lies I said
I'm tired of acting im okay
When I'm a messy and confused
On what is happening to me

I found my self crying lately
Not because I'm broken or empty
Because I'm confused on what is happening to me
I am still okay?

NO I'm not depress and have anxiety
What a big fat lie again.

I'm sorry,

- 10:42 PM
Oct . 16 , 2021