| 𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗙𝗙 𝗜𝗡 𝗠𝗬 𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗗 (𝗘𝗡𝗚!!) |

my dad said im good for nothing, not even for the household.
he wants me to fall my exams.
"u will miss your baccalaureate anyway" he said.

alright, I will fall my exams this year,
for u.
thats what u want, ok.

I wouldn't call it a daddy issue,
but maybe.

when i got a warning for lack of work, he didn't punish me.
but, he wants me to repeat next year.
friends told me that my dad is broken.
maybe

does he know that all this
won't change anything?

he said that Im good just in english,
what is true.
does he know that
I don't like where I am?

he doesn't want me to
change "school"
or type of high school.
because there is nothing
that suits me.

bro i just wanna
go away.
2 words.
and be alone.
or happy.
or both.

USA are one of my big dreams bro.
u said that u wants me happy.

but he said no.
cuz "u can't do much with just English",
he said.

im not the kind of "'lil girl" I was (??).
no, who was she? 
did I really have long hair one day?

dad you don't have a daughter.
but I think I hide it too well.
should i become an actor?
I would be richer than you.
surely in Hollywood.
in a relationship with 75yo Brad Pitt
and Orlando Bloom at the same time.
( sugar daddys hihihihiii )
oh no sorry they're straight.

I know he loves me as his daughter.
but I know he's not going to love me
as his son.
he said he have 1 son and 1 daughter.
not 2 sons.
dude, you're one of the
biggest clowns of this world.
put on ur makeup.

sometimes I want to change my body,
my organs.
bc of my physical health,
and it worsens my mental health.
but nobody can do anything.
and nobody does anything.

I want to spend time with my bf,
and we can't really.
I think we're like
Romeo and Juliet.
but this time,
it's Romeo & Romeo.
because the're no poisoning,
who will die first then?
nobody?

but its always
he and I
always
and forever.

my dad said
I do unnecessary things.
because I give likes and advices
on social medias.
but bro, im just writing
my feelings on wattshit.
and u call that "useless & dumb"?

okay I try to be funny with others
here because I want to make them happy.
so I want them to laugh and never be sad.
so i show my dumb side every time.
and try to make bad jokes, and most of
the time it works.

some of u knows a hot,funny
or soft Mingay.
like some of u knows the 3 sides
or more.
or none.

what I say most of the time
doesn't make sense, when I use French.
dad said, as I dont know how to express myself, I wouldnt
achieve anything.

he said that, as I don't speak
much (not at all) , I wouldn't get
anything.
dad, you tell me every day,
every hour.
Yelling at me won't help.
I still wouldn't talk anymore.

and
u use my deadname,
it's normal that you
wonder if I know
who you are talking to.

im ghosting some ppl
on socials medias.
and I'm sorry
I'm not doing it
on purpose.

I find that I hide a lot of things,
but always here to help.
and never here to talk. 

parents don't understand me
and don't try to understand.
my mom almost said
"are you trans? ok my daughter."
(she still doesnt know it, for them
I would remain a girl
and I couldnt
be anything else. )
so writing helps sometimes.

waiting for T again.

feliz navidad.

I CAN FEEL THE EVIL COMING
BUT FELIX NEVER BAD🤪🤪

aye mingay can never be serious for long :)