he's so breathtaking.

heeseung stared at jay while the latter was still sleeping soundly beside him. he let out a sigh when jay moved closer, snuggling on his chest. he hugged him back as he put his arm around his waist.

"hee..." jay mumbled when he felt heeseung's butterfly kisses around his face. "stop that, let me sleep."

heeseung nodded and planted a soft kiss on jay's lips before he sat on the bed, stretching.

"what do you want for breakfast?"

jay blinked. he could feel a slight headache but it's not that bad. he glanced at heeseung who's now opening the curtains to his room.

"anything. don't you have work today?" he fixed his disheveled hair and looked at the wall clock. "it's already 9 am."

"i took a leave," heeseung gave him a smile. "it's the first time that i took a vacation leave so my boss was a bit surprised, but he allowed it."

jay looked at him with furrowed brows. "dude, why? no wonder your eyebags got worse, you don't even take a break at work."

"it's fine, don't worry about me. i'm just saving up."

"saving up for what?"

"for our future." heeseung winked while jay gave him a look of disgust.

"that's ridiculous. besides, i have enough money for us."

jay mumbled, and this time heeseung laughed at him. "wow, i think my boyfriend's too rich. should i just stop working then?" he goes back to sit beside jay again, hugging him from the back.

"no, i'm not that rich yet." the younger leaned towards heeseung. "but we have sunghoon, so i guess we could use some of his money too."

heeseung chuckled as he played with jay's hands. "that's a great idea, baby."

"drop the fucking baby nickname, hee. it's disgusting."

"but i like it- aw! okay fine, jongseong." heeseung quickly changed his statement when jay pinched his arm. "are you feeling okay? no hangover?"

jay shook his head while still leaning on heeseung. their hands are now intertwined with each other as they cuddled.

"very good." heeseung pulled him closer as he nuzzled his neck. "don't drink too much again, hmm? it's bad for your health."

"says the guy who's been smoking for ages now." jay talked back. it's not like smoking is a big deal to him, but he's concerned for the older's health too.

"i haven't smoked in a month."

jay turned around to look at him. "really? why?"

"because you said it'll give me cancer, remember? i stopped smoking years ago. then i relapsed when you were gone, and stopped again when i heard you came back." he sighed, resting his chin on jay's shoulder.

oh...

"but isn't it hard to just suddenly stop?" jay asked curiously. heeseung shakes his head.

"not really. besides, it's not like i'm dependent on it. i just smoke when i'm stressed." he kissed jay's shoulder. "and whenever you're around, my stress disappears so... it's all good."

damn, he's really...

jay bit his lower lip, feeling a bit awkward all of a sudden. he didn't even know he had this effect on heeseung. it's overwhelming to know all of this.

"lee heeseung..."

"hmm?"

when heeseung turned to him, jay gave him a quick kiss before leaving the bed. "l-let's eat breakfast."

"ah, right. i almost forgot about that." heeseung chuckled as he followed jay out of the room.

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jay park @cornjay tweeted.

cooking like a chef he's a 5 star michelin 🗣️

8938 likes | 362 retweets

replies:

@parkwrites wow so domestic 😌 when's the wedding?
↪@cornjay soon, when you finally get someone to date
↪@parkwrites lmfao sure sure i'll take note of that
@sunscript 😭😭 can't believe you two are ok now
↪@cornjay aww don't cry bub 🫂
@itsjimin i'm gonna tell meiji that this is his uncle's husband 😇
↪@cornjay sure why not lmfao

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"jay, tell me everything!" sunoo squeals as he pulled jay away from heeseung while they were walking on their way to a restaurant.

after a few hours of hanging out inside heeseung's apartment, they decided to go and meet sunoo and sunghoon for lunch.

"it's not really a huge deal," jay laughed. "we just talked things out... and we're okay now." heeseung gave him a smile when he heard what he just said.

sunoo grinned as he looked at his two friends. who would've thought that these two would end up being together? no one really knows what the future holds.

when they arrived at the restaurant, sunghoon was already there- sitting while sipping on his coffee. he smirked, waving his hand as his three friends walked towards their table.

"why are you here so early?" sunoo sat beside him, while jay and heeseung sat in front of them.

"i was around the area when you texted. plus, i'm bored since jay didn't come home last night." sunghoon made a sad face but jay just rolled his eyes.

"weren't you the one who dropped me off like a fucking parcel?"

his friend gasped. "i did that? i seriously cannot recall."

jay glared at him before changing the topic. "anyways, where's ni-ki? i thought you'd bring him here."

"i wanted to, but he's busy with his new project." sunoo sighed, "i also wanted to invite jungwon and jake-"

"to make us suffer?" sunghoon cuts the statement off. look at this dumbass just saying what he wants.

heeseung snickered, resting his arm behind jay's chair. "you mean to make you suffer? i'm cool with jake anyway. i don't know about you though."

sunghoon raised his two hands as if he's surrendering. "this isn't about me, brothers. i'm only here to have a good time. you can invite them if you want." he looked at sunoo like he was challenging him.

"you think i'm stupid? you're not the one who's going to suffer if i do that." sunoo opened the menu in front of him. "let's just order food, i'm starving."

jay shakes his head in disbelief while seeing how sunghoon smirked. of course, his presence is enough to make everyone around him suffer.

when the food arrived, they ate as they share about their life- catching up with whatever's happening in their career and adult life. as they listened to each other, jay couldn't help but be proud of his friends' achievements in their chosen fields.

we were just college students years ago, but look at us now. he smiled at the thought.

suddenly, he felt heeseung's hand reaching to intertwine with his left hand. when he turned to his side, heeseung is already looking at him with warmth in his eyes.

"i'm still eating here you know," sunghoon cleared his throat to interrupt the two's own bubble. "just don't do romance in front of me, it's very disrespectful."

jay scoffed. "you should go find someone then, or else you'd die an old hag." the three of them laughed at his remark.

"or maybe i can set you up with someone i know? what's your preference?" sunoo added.

sunghoon made an x mark using his fingers. "nope, i don't need tha-" he didn't get to finish his sentence when heeseung cuts him off.

"oh i think i know his type very well." sunghoon fakes a smile and throws a rolled tissue at heeseung's direction.

"shut up and let's eat lunch in peace."

"we'll shut up if you pay for our food."

"fine, jay. i'll pay for our food since my friends are acting broke like cinderella."

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oosun @sunscript tweeted.

with my three sources of stress 🥰

15827 likes | 2938 retweets

replies:

@nishi_rk i'm glad you're enjoying, hyung 🤍
↪@sunscript i missed u already 🥹
@parkwrites you should also add me as your source of money bc why am i paying for yOU THREE
↪@sunscript ily (your money) bff 🫂
@cornjay ur my source of happiness bub 😚
↪@sunscript haha ily roomie 🫶🏻
@userunknown102 who's the one in the middle? is he taken? 👀
↪@cyberlee he's my boyfriend :)
↪@parkwrites LMFAOOOO HOE'S MAD

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[ lhs 🫀]

lhs 🫀:
hey
are you sure you'll be okay on your own?
maybe i can leave work early to join you

jay:
hee
i told you i'll be fine
i'll just wait for jake at the park
no worries

lhs 🫀:
okayyy
text me if you want to go home so i can come and get you

jay:
haha ok ok
u won't be jealous right? 👀
i mean i'll just meet my best friend

lhs 🫀:
ofc not
he's just your best friend
whom u liked for years
and who also liked you
i'm not jealous

jay:
HAHAHAHA
okay if u say so
focus on your work now

lhs 🫀:
okay
:(

jay:
????
what's with the :(
lee heeseung

lhs 🫀:
**:)
that's a typo
go enjoy your date with jake

jay:
jfc am i talking to a toddler
i'll text you later
byeee
i love you

lhs 🫀:
i love you
don't forget that

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jay chuckled as he put his phone back inside his pocket. heeseung and his mood swings will always make him laugh. he's so cute when he's acting like that.

he stopped thinking about his boyfriend when he saw a familiar figure running across the street, towards where he was sitting at the local park.

"sorry, did you wait too long?" jake huffed, catching his breath. "my boss just had to give me a task before the end of my shift, so i got busy."

jay shakes his head. "it's alright, jake. coffee?" he gave him the other cup that he bought from a café. jake sat beside him, glancing at his best friend as he sipped on the cup.

jay looks so happy.

jake smiled at himself- he couldn't ask for more. he looked up, silently thanking the skies.

"how are you?" jay asked softly. although these past days were a bliss to him, he's been thinking about jake too.

he wanted to reach out to his best friend, but he was hesitant to contact him until heeseung urged him to do it.

"go talk to him, jay. after all that happened, he still needs you as his best friend."

"i'm doing better these days." jake stared at him, "i know what you're thinking, jay. stop worrying about me. i'll be fine."

"but you know that whenever you need someone, i'm here right?"

jake nodded, smiling. "of course. i know i can count on you always."

silence enveloped them before jake spoke again.

"i'm just glad that i can see you happy again. i always knew that heeseung can give you the love that you deserve," and the kind of love that only him can provide. the kind of love... that will never come from me.

"happiness looks great on you, jay."

jay sighed before pulling him into a hug. and i hope to see that happiness on your face too, jake. please be happy too.

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busy 😪 @simjake tweeted.

thank you for spending your time with me today, @cornjay 😁🤘🏻

7363 likes | 522 retweets

replies:

@yinyang spend time with me too hyung !! 😾
↪@simjake ok ok lol let's meet up soon
@cyberlee nice pic 😊
↪@simjake thanks, that's my bff right there 😌
@yeonjuned aww look at their friendship still going strong, unlike me and @soobean 's relationship 😭
↪@soobeans ?????
↪@yeonjuned i wuv u 🥺
↪@soobeans 👍🏻
@parkwrites nice nice... @cyberlee u let him borrow your boyfriend? LMAO
↪@cyberlee unlike you who doesn't even have one. wanna borrow my baby too? :)

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"sunghoon's being an asshole again," heeseung reported like a child right as he walked to his boyfriend.

jay was waiting for him at the park while jake went back to his office to finish some task. heeseung took jay's sling bag while he also held his hand.

"let him be, he's just grumpy because he can't get what he wants." jay chuckled before kissing heeseung's cheek. "how's your work?"

the older shrugged. "it was an ordinary day. how's jake doing?"

"he's doing fine i guess, i told him he could reach out to me anytime. he's also looking great-"

"oh really? he looks great in your eyes?" heeseung's tone was laced with sarcasm so jay raised an eyebrow at him.

"will you stop that? you sound like a kid."

"i am a kid. i'm your baby- aw! stop hitting me," heeseung lets out a laugh when jay repeatedly hits his arm. they stopped walking for a bit as he hugged jay from the back, putting his hands inside the pockets of jay's jacket.

"you cold?" jay murmured, craning his neck a bit so heeseung could put his head properly on his shoulder.

heeseung shakes his head. the air at this time of the night may be freezing, but jay's warmth is enough for him.

"by the way, meiji wants to meet you."

"me? why?"

"jimin told him about you, and that he's excited to meet his uncle's wife." jay laughed when he saw heeseung's confused look.

"i'm the wife?" he asked for confirmation, and jay nodded at him. "i mean, i'd still be married to you either way so i guess i'm fine with being your wife."

jay laughed again, this time he pinched heeseung's cheek. "meiji's going to like you so much."

"you know, i'm glad that you had jimin by your side when you left years ago." heeseung spoke with a gentle tone. "i couldn't imagine it if you were alone during those times. i might've gone crazy."

"milan would've been so lonely without them." jay saw pain flashed behind heeseung's eyes.

"and i'm sorry that you had to wait for me..." he cupped heeseung's face, "i'm sorry that i got scared, i'm sorry that i'm too much of a coward t-"

"no, you're not." heeseung ruffled his hair then kissed the side of his head. "you did what you had to do, at that time. i don't blame you, jay. it was for your own good."

"right now, i'm just too damn happy that you're here in front of me." heeseung grinned, pulling him close to kiss him.

he's right. the only thing that matters the most is lee heeseung.

there isn't a world where i could live without the man that brings me peace and chaos, all at the same time. i can't imagine it.

for worse, and for better- the answer will always be him.

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END

see you in book 3, everyone!