...𝐋𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠...

your pov.

It's been a year. A full year since the raven haired Uchiha left the village and went to Orochimaru. Though, who can blame him? Losing his whole clan at a very young age totally gave him a mental trauma. Doesn't help, that his own big brother executed them all, leaving him, the only Uchiha survivor. The pain and hatred is way to big, so he had gone mad. But, I wonder, if I would have done the same thing in his shoes...

Speaking of myself, here I'm standing on top of the cliff, looking down, wondering if I could survive just jumping of down. What am I doing here? Thinking. Thinking about what? How do I feel? Maybe. To be honest, I don't know. This cliff, it's special. To me at least. Why? This is the place when I last saw Sasuke. Standing there, he said his goodbye. It matters to me. This place matters to me. I...I did truly like him. Loved him. As much as Sakura really. Though at first, I couldn't even stand him. Unlike Sakura, I never once got close to him, never talked nice with him, he was my rival, same as Naruto. What changed my thoughts of him? Easy. He saved me. He saved from the hatred I was going through. Since very early of my days, I was hated. Hated by adults, by teens, even children, the same age as me. I was an out cast. Why? It's also easy. I was born with a rare power. Blood Dragon Eye or also known as, Ketsuryūgan. Right. When I say out cast, I mean it. I mean, I'm from the land of lightning after all. I was brought here, to the hidden leaf village, when I was just  born here, because of the war that was going there. My last name, being Chinoike, gets me feared. The third Hokage though, was a sweet old man, he gave me an apartment to live in, for no rent, food, clothes. He helped me survive. Since my visual prowess are strong, going against an Uchiha says a lot, people of course, were scared of me.. But after some time, I got into an academy, where I met Naruto and Sasuke, followed by, Sakura and others. People there in the academy never looked at me like a dangerous person, a devil, out cast, failure. What they saw was a girl with a short temper, usually chill personality. After the graduation to genin, the teams were assembled, team 7, having four members, including the sensei. Sasuke and Naruto would always argue and fight, Sakura would either stay out of the way or go help Sasuke, same with me, only I would help Naruto... It was amusing, fun and playful. Having lots of missions with the team meant everything. There was one mission that we all almost died. It was also a mission in which I was saved by the Uchiha, also falling in love with him...

Now, Sasuke is gone, Naruto is off training with Jirayia sensei, Sakura is also training with Lady Tsunade. And me? Also training. Alone, with myself, no interuptions, every day, 14 hours a day, I do lots of missions. I also became an anbu black op. I decided to become strong. Stronger than before. I'm planning on bringing raven boy back to the village, one day. First, I'll wait for Naruto to come back. Then, with Sakura too, set out to the search....

Naruto finally came back, after such long time. We all met up again, our team 7, just without Sasuke. After some plans on what should we do with Sasuke, we got a new team 7 team up, followed with Yamato and Sai. We set out to the found Orochimaru's hideout where should also be Sasuke....

We found him. After more than two in a half years, we finally set our eyes on him. His eyes on ours. We all wanted for him to come back, we begged him to come back, but he didn't....

he kicked some asses. Our asses. Naruto was laying on the ground, hurting from the wounds he got, while fighting Orochimaru and Sasuke. Sakura was healing him, Yamato  and Sai were standing right behind, while I, mada a clone to stay in my place, myself going to search for Kabuto, Sasuke and Orochimaru. I put some trackers on both Kabuto and Orochimaru,  so after some time, I actually found their other hideout. Sasuke needed help, I wanted to give him some. I knew he wouldn't come home, but all I wanted to do, was to talk....

He was sitting there, on top of a small boulder, looking all gloomy. I don't know. I found him all alone, I want to talk to him, but.. what should I say?...

"Y/N..." Sasuke quietly said my name. It kinda startled me.

"Yeah... hey."

"Why did you follow? I thought you already realized I'm not going back... My only goal, is Itachi-"

"Then what are you going to do after you kill him? Huh?" I asked.

"...."

"I didn't come here to ask and beg you to come back, we already tried that not so long ago. What I'm here for, is that I want to tell you something..."

"And something is?"

"I'll get you after you deal with Itachi... I'll find you, I'll bring you back home, to the leaf village, where all our friends are. Believe me, you'll come with me after that!" I said confidently. He looked at me with shock, disbelief. There was a pause of silence.

"Why? Why you're so hung up to me? Just like Naruto and Sakura... Why do you all want me back?? I told you before, I don't want to come back. Plus, you have that guy Sai. I don't know what am I going to do after I kill Itachi, but I'm not planning on coming back, understand me here Y/N." Sasuke told me straight to my face while jumping off the boulder and coming right in front of me. He is so annoying at times. Why can't he understand? How we all feel and how we  care about him??

"Because..."

"Because? Because what? You don't even know yourself. I bet Naruto got in your head, you never cared that much for me anyway. But now, you're acting like Naruto and Sakura... But you know why I won't come with you? Because I don't care. I don't care that you want me there with you, that you care for me, I have cutted down all my bonds with the village, Kakashi-sensei, Sakura, Naruto, you too! All I have is hatred and pain, so I might as well just have it for the rest of my life-"

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? DO HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HURT I WAS WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOUR FINAL GOODBYE AT THE CLIFF? I CARE FOR YOU, BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SASUKE! BUT YOU'RE SO CLUELESS!....Your words hurt, hurt so bad it feels like I'm being shot over and over and over again...I c-can't...You're such an ass. I want you there... With me... to be with me together... I really hate it.. But, all I've been thinking about was you.." I said actually sobbing for the first time in ages finally opening my heart to him. "I wonder if Sakura felt the same way... Sasuke, I know.. I-I know it's sudden, but that's the second thing I wanted to tell you, just without all the ruckus... I understand you won't come back to the village, but... Maybe just maybe, re-think-" I wanted to finish, but I was cutted down by soft lips being put on my own.. The Uchiha pulled me to his grasp, holding on my waist. I wrapped my hands around his neck and kissed him back passionately. 'but why? I feel so numb, it feels so good... but why is he doing this?'. We've been like this for few moments, but in these moments, Sasuke was able to lick and play with my mouth with his tongue. After pulling away, though he still held me in his arms.

"W-why?" Was all I could say.

"I wanted to shut you up.. Also, your words... kinda... were... too...WHATEVER!..." I looked at him insanely flustered and confused.

"You know, Sakura said almost the same words to me  after parting with me, that you just said. But with you saying them, I felt differently. I don't why, the feeling was good..."

"Are you saying, that you have some sympathy for me?" I asked smiling a little.

"N-no. I think... Maybe. A little..." He answered. "Maybe I do also love you, But that won't change, that I will come back. I'll find something else to follow, but.. You'll be on my mind, Y/N" I of course listened with sadness, but I understood, at least I think I did.

"Okay, I'll let you go there. But... Please, visit me, maybe Naruto, Sakura and Kakashi-sensei too. Deal?"

"...."

"Deal" 

Heyo! I finally  posted N-O didn't I?

First up, Sasuke Uchiha... But to be honest, I don't particularly like it. Especially the end. Tell me what you think down there in comms :)

2020/12/18