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 Hey,

 It's me.

 I know we haven't talked in a long time.

 And I know we haven't seen each other in ages.

 But there's something I've got to say...

 I'm sorry about the way we ended things...

 Please call me when you get the message. 

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...𝐋𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠...

 Oh, how wrong I was... 

 How wrong I was for leaving you.

 I'm sorry. I'm sorry for always getting under your skin and picking fights that could have been avoided.  

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for always treating you horribly when you deserved so much better.

 I regret. I regret hurting your feelings, but what can regret do? 

 I regret. I regret making you suffer for my own good and my selfish "reasons".

 I know. I know how hard it always was for you, to put up with all my bullshit. Now that I think about it, how did you put up with all my mistakes.

 I know, that you cried for me and for me only. I wish those tears could have been of happiness instead of pain now. 

I know. I know you were the best. The best that I could ever ask for. 

 You were always sweet. Kind. Cool. Friendly. Enthusiastic. Positive. Loyal. Trustworthy. The list could go on forever. 

 You were everything that I needed. 

 You were perfect. Something that filled the empty part of my heart that no one can replace. 

But I realize that when it was too late. Why did it take me so long to do that?

I know I treated you horribly. I loved you, but... It wasn't enough. Not for me.

You accepted me. You never saw me as some monster. Trash. Not worthy of living. 

You gave me a big hug and said, "don't worry, I'm here. I'll always be here. With you!" 

You gave me comfort. But it wasn't enough. I changed. And led me to become the true monster.

I know, that you never deserved it. You were a pure angel and I was the devil. And that devil hurt you.

Now. All I think about is you. I think of all the moments, where we were happy. When everything was fine until I started ruining it. 

I remember. Remember your smile when we went to the aquarium, you were so happy to see all those pretty fish.

I remember your eye-wrecking and beautiful H/C hair and how they were slowly and peacefully flowing to the side when we were at the beach and the sky was yellow, orange and pink. 

I remember your sweet, caring hands, that you used to caress my cheeks before telling me how much you care for me.

I remember your E/C orbs, those orbs that always looked at me with love filled inside of them. If only I could look at them again, they would be filled with love when I return the gaze.

I remember how you would always joke about showing our grandchildren this and that, and how we could tell stories about our relationship in the past.

I remember... You, by my side... Treasuring me... But... I didn't treasure you the same way. 

I remember how you were in love, with the possibility of us, while I was stumbled upon us and accepted it. 

That's where I messed up, how I messed you, us both. 

I blamed you. For everything. I pushed you away. So far away, that you couldn't come back anymore... No. You didn't come back. 

I understand why, I really do and I would like you to hear all of the words I want to say to you. 

I want to re-do everything, from the beginning. To have you with me again, by my side, forever.

 But, I can't. 

Because, You're gone forever.

And I can't tell you how much I loved you again... But maybe, just maybe, if I see you in my next life, I'll make sure I won't make the same mistake again.

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 So, I don't really know why, but I felt really sad, so I decided to write this. I'm going to explain what's this all about more right here. It's an AU, where Gaara, is this kind of like, real bad boy or something, and Y/N, his girlfriend that struggles with Gaara's attitude and madness.

It may be really confusing, so if you don't understand something, I'm sorry and I would like you to write me for some advice on how to make this chapter better ❤ 

 The first paragraph is a song that I listened to. It's not really the same, I just wanted to write it down, lmao.

 "Pretty when you cry" 

Special thanks to @-VIOLETTES for checking out this chapter  ✨thanks luv✨

 2020/12/29