Song of the chapter: LEAVE A LIGHT ON by TOM WALKER

THIS BOOK IS PUBLISHED AS ORIGINAL DRAFT, IT'S NOT EDITED SO THERE'S A LOT OF MISTAKES BECAUSE I DIDN'T RE-READ CHAPTERS OR CHECK GRAMMAR BEFORE. I AM ALSO REWRITING THIS, I'M STILL NOT SURE IF THE NEW CHAPTERS WILL BE POSTED HERE OR AS SEPARATED, NEW VERSION.

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Tuesday

I was at the work. Matthew did let me stay home, but it was boring so I left around noon. I was making an ice cappuccino when I heard a very familiar voice.

"So you work here also? Harry didn't mention that. Well, it's not like we talked."

I pretend like I don't hear him. "I want to apologize for yesterday or better said: this morning. I didn't know it was you and I know some guys like that kind of approach. So sorry, if there's any way for you to forgive me, please tell."

I turned in his direction. "Actually there is. You can leave Harry alone; I saw how he doesn't want to have anything with you."

He chuckled. "No can do, Louis. I have some business to discuss with him. Tell him to call me when you see him. Goodbye."

Wednesday

I didn't saw Harry for whole next week, but we were talking on FaceTime and through the texts. I had to force him to call his father. They may not like each other, but it's their companies we're talking. They could lose a lot of money.

It was now Wednesday, the day of their meeting. I was supposed to stay in the office with them, but his father didn't want me there so I left, much to Harry's displeasure.

I was scrolling through my Twitter feed when I heard yelling. Oh boy, this isn't going to be good. I just hope they won't kill each other.

The voices were getting louder and louder, even some workers came to see what's going on. The door busts open and out came furious Harry. His fists were clenched and eyes wide. He strode to me, pulling me up in a hug.

His head fell in the place between my neck and shoulder. I could hear his loud breathing while his hold on me tightened. For a moment, I didn't know what to do.

We were hugging in front of dozen people, from whom nobody knew about 'us' except his dad. I didn't even know what we are. We aren't a couple, we aren't official but we are something, right?

I placed my hands around him deciding to put aside my thoughts for now. The crowd soon left to do their work, minding their own business again.

"You're going to hug him or are we going to discuss the matter?"

"We have nothing to discuss. My answer is hell no."

His dad, whom I still can't remember the name and have seen once or twice when I was young, laughed. "Very funny, Harry. Now let's get in the office and continue the conversation."

He left back inside. "What's his problem?"

"I really don't know, Lou."

Harry sounded like he's trying not to cry. All I wanna know is what they talked about that made Harry so angry and sad.

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They did the talking for 10 more minutes and then we left his dad. Harry didn't want to stay there anymore. Harry drove us to his house on the little hill outside of the city.

It was uncomfortable ride, I'm not going to lie. Silence was suffocating, the tension killing and it was awkward as fuck.

When we got in the house, Harry sat me on the couch, not giving me time to look around the house. He was really nervous.

"Listen, Lou... Desmond wants me to... To marry some woman named Kendall so we can have more publicity, money and all that's coming with that."

I didn't say anything. He was just looking at me but I didn't do anything. I was... I don't know what I was. Shock, I guess.

"And if I don't do that... He's gonna out me to the whole world and I'm not ready for it. Sure, some people knows I'm gay. But you don't know what will be the consequences if... If I come out. I just... I'm not ready for all to know.

It was supposed to be easy, romantic relationship between us and look at us now. We didn't even make it official when the problems started. I - I think we need to take some time off.

I know we didn't really become boyfriends but it's the best we stop seeing each other for some time. At least until I sort this out. Please, understand my point, Louis. Please."

My eyes watered when I saw his face. I let the tears fall, making his to do the same. I was becoming numb, I just nodded at him. I can't believe I'll let him marry someone. Maybe I can come to their wedding and be like 'I object to it!'. Yes, that sounds like a good plan.

Hopefully he'll be able to find a solution before that happen. "Umm, I called you a taxi when I went in the kitchen for water. It should be any min-"

He was interrupted by the sound of a car horn. "Text me when you come home, I still care for you, ya know," He finish with a smile.

I gave one sad back and left. The taxi driver immediately drove of, saying he already know address and the drive is paid. Harry.

Why can't Desmond be more like Robin? He's cool, from all that Harry said.

We were around half way to my flat when the flashing lights were seen and suddenly we were in the air. I could hear some screams, someone asking if I'm okay, but I was going in and out of concussion. I suddenly don't like black color.

All I could think was: please, will someone turn the lights on.