WARNING !! This can get a little deep ⚠⚠

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It was Jackson, yep, Jackson Felt. He's my ex boyfriend, we dated for 9 months and I broke up with him 3 months ago. I never talked about him since he cheated on me with another girl.

I'm really sensative about this topic, my friends never talk about him in front of me.

Especially Chase and Payton, they're REALLY close friends with him. When I mean REALLY close, I mean it. They treat each other like brothers.

My eyes went wide when I saw him walk in. I made eye contact with him, he gave me a weak smile. My breathing was getting faster, my anxiety was getting worst.

My friends stared at me, and back at Jackson .

"C'Mon Kayla, let's go", Michael said. He layed a 50 dollar bill on the table for the waiter and we all left.

Chase followed behind and whispered something to Jackson. I don't know what he said, but idc.

I wanted to cry at that moment. Can't believe I haven't seen him since we broke up, I never thought I'll see him again. After Jackson broke up with me, he texted me he was mooving away for a while and he'll be back soon. Then, Jackson deleted my number.

He never said goodbye, he was the only one who helped me through hard times in the past. I would always run to him and hug him. We would cuddle for hours. He was the only one I told everything to. The only one who understood me .

Who knew the person I loved the most was going out with another girl while we were together.

I always wonder If he actually loved me, or if he just played with my feelings. I wonder if he meant every word he said to me. If those kisses meant anything to him. I wonder if I meant anything to him.

When we got outside, my heart slowed down a little. I feel much better being away from Jackson.

I felt tears running down my face. I threw myself to the ground, my friends got closer to me and hugged me tight. People were staring at us but we didn't care or moved away.

I sometimes regret saying "yes , I would love to be your girlfriend", to Jackson. That was the worst choice I made in my life.

(bruh ya'll are probably cringing or something . Sorry if this is kinda depressing or weird)

I asked everybody if they can plz take me home, cuz I don't feel good at the moment. I just want to go home and be alone. They said ofc and we hoped in the car.

I layed my head on Chase's chest, he was rubbing my back trying to make me feel better. The whole car ride was silent, no one was talking. It was like if everybody was frozen, not able to move.

When we arrived at my place, everybody gave me a last hug and they said they hope I feel better soon. I nodded softly and got out the car.

I walked inside my house and dropped my stuff on the floor. I just started crying, my knees on the floor.

Idk what to do with all this pain inside of me.
I feel myself drown inside my thoughts.
I just want all this to be over.
I need my old family back.
I want my dad back.
I want my nice, sweet and funny mother again.
I want my happy me back .

I walked upstairs to my room and cried on my bed. I just wish this was all a dream.

Since the moment I saw Jackson walk through the door, that's when everything came back to me.

That's when my sadness came back inside of me.

A/n

Hey guys !! Sorry If this chapter was a little sad :( Comment and vote plz!