Shinobu x Jealous! Gender neutral! Reader: Songfic

Requested by: -Hellabasa

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I still remember
Third of December
Me in your sweater
You said it looked better

You sat under a tree, unwavering [e/c] gaze lingering on the two that bickered playfully together. Everyone knew that most of the insults that came from Shinobu's mouth was truly meant, even you. 

Giyuu Tomioka.

He was only a few years old when you met, training together to become hashira. He was always so lonely, so a small part of you was glad he'd found someone.

Although, after your friends died, he drifted away and became the distant person he was now. You didn't know how to help him: until she came.

On me, than it did you
Only if you knew
How much I liked you
But I watch your eyes, as she

Your pain, your suffering, was all blind to the insect pillar's eyes. She only saw him, him, him, him. 

But maybe it was a good thing?

Giyuu was happy at last.

Walks by
What a sight for
Sore eyes
Brighter than a
Blue sky
She's got you
Mesmerized
While I die

Every time Giyuu passed by, you watched Shinobu's eyes light up, and her saunter over to him to playfully tease. He too, knew that she didn't mean most of her words, and would simply shrug it off.

Despite his quiet nature, Giyuu had an aura around him that was com what comforting. It was cold, but drew people in. 

He was the opposite of you.

He was an enigma, bad to decipher and as hard to figure out as a maze. Whereas you were an open book, boring and bland and obvious.

Maybe that was why?

Maybe that was why she chose him..over you.

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half, as pretty
You gave her your sweater
It's just polyester, but you like her better
Wish I were Heather

You sat in a tree branch, watching from the distance as SHinobu snuck up on Giyuu and threw herself onto him, smiling. It was no wonder, that she chose him over you. After all, who'd choose a hashira with a scar across her jaw?

You caught the small smile on his face. 

It seemed like Shinobu had caught it too, because her smile widened. 

She smiled at everyone, it seemed, but her smiles around Giyuu were all genuine. Sometimes, she would smile to mask her anger.

Watch as she stands with
Her holding your hand
Put your arm 'round her shoulder
Now I'm getting colder

It'd been weeks, since you last saw the two of them. Now, as you sat beneath a tree once more, you watched as they got closer and closer, until finally, they were brave enough to hold hands.

At that point, you knew you'd seen enough.

Standing up, you turned on your heel and left, a stranger feeling bubbling inside of you. Was it anger?

You'd gotten angry so many times before, but this time it peeled foreign.

But how could I hate her?
She's such an angel
But then again, kinda
Wish she were dead, as she

Your half lidded [e/c] gaze bore holes into the back of Giyuu's skull, but he didn't seem to notice. You were jealous, you'd realized. 

Jealousy mixed in with a pinch of anger.

One side of you wished that you'd never met Giyuu, that you didn't help him become a hashira. 

But he didn't do anything wrong except pursue his dream, right? He was only trying to complete his goal.

Giyuu, however, took Shinobu away from you. And a small, selfish part of you wanted her back. Your good side, however, left them be because it made them both happy.

Walks by
What a sight for
Sore eyes
Brighter than a
Blue sky
She's got you
Mesmerized
While I die

At last, you finally got why Shinobu chose him over you.

He was so pure, untainted by nothing other than demons, whereas you were the complete opposite. Giyuu was innocent, oblivious to everything other than demons. Time around him was peaceful, and you were loud.

You wondered, if you changed, would Shinobu come back to you?

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half, as pretty
You gave her your sweater
It's just polyester, but you like her better
I wish I were Heather

Earlier that day, you caught them in a short kiss, and you felt like whatever was left of your world had finally crumbled.

It was clear as day, how much they loved each other, but you were jealous nonetheless.

You knew that Shinobu would never go back to you, never mind leave Giyuu, but there was still room for hope. 

Wish I were Heather
Wish I were Heather

You wished that you were Giyuu instead, on the receiving end of all her perfect smiles, small praises and hugs and kisses.

You wished that it was you instead, not him. 

Why would you ever kiss me?
I'm not even half as pretty
You gave her your sweater
It's just polyester, but you like her better

You insecurities came back shortly after, and this time, since Shinobu was with Giyuu, you were left to conquer them on your own.

But you knew why she'd left.

Why stay with you if she can and someone better?

Wish I were 

You really wished you were Giyuu, instead, but you couldn't do anything.

He didn't do anything wrong, and he deserved it, after all the pain and suffering he'd gone through. 

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Ooof, that took 6 days! sorry..

word count: 897

I hope that was okay!!