👑 I dedicate this chapter to king Zayn and his ultimate humor. All hail king Zayn 👑

//past//

❝ L O U I S ❞

"your birthday is in a month!" niall chimed happily. the loudness of his voice caught a lot of students' attention. louis slammed his locker door shut and turned to glare at his friend. "you don't have to shout, ni."

"why not? you are a christmas baby, basically a gift from god." louis rolled his eyes at his words. he's no gift.

"where's taylor and gigi?"

"gigi's with zayn and taylor is... there!" he pointed in some direction and louis followed it. the girl was talking to some guy, blushing a little.

"oohhh..." he smirked. "interesting!"

niall hummed. "he is from america. same nationality,"

"let's just wait for her." louis muttered, curiously watching taylor and the bloke communicate animatedly. after waiting for another five minutes, the girl girl came to them with a usual skip in her step. "what?" she asked the two smirking boys.

"who's he?" louis grinned.

"oliver."

"she's blushing," niall laughed. "taylor and oliver sitting on a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n-g."

"eck ni! so old school." the blonde grimaced.

"old school or not, you have a crush."

"so? it's not a crush, it's mutual. we're just keepin it cazh." she scrunched her nose and smiled cutely.

"cazh?" louis retorted. "really?"

"shut up!"

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louis regretted entering the bathroom. someone was either masturbating or having sex. by the looks of it, it was more of a blowjob. school grounds aren't for such lewd activities. do people have no shame?

with the horrible slurping noise and deep moans, louis almost barfed. he quickly and as quietly as he could finished his business. he was a second away from stepping out of the bathroom when the stall opened at george came out looking really pleased and fucked.

but that wasn't it. his eyes grew wide and throat went dry when the other person stepped out; harry. what the fuck? not that he didn't know harry was gay. it was quite public but he was shocked 'cause george was cheating on chris with his close friend. repugnant. what is wrong with these people?

"wow! this fat freak is everywhere. how much did you hear? you better not tattle anything about this or else..." george threatened. the boy was more of a twink but he was a psycho and that scared louis.

on the other hand, harry looked livid. he was looking at louis as if he was some kind of ghost. louis felt uncomfortable just by looking at harry's messed up hair and glossy eyes.

"i won't." he whispered. george was washing his face and mouth but hummed happily.

"good fatlinson!" the twink turned to harry and wrapped his arms around his neck, and kissed him. all the while harry kept staring at a very embarrassed louis. "it was amazing, h. till next time!" with that he skipped out of the toilet but not before shoving louis.

"i'll leave too.." louis fumbled. his fingers were fiddling with the hem of his t-shirt.

"louis!" ... "i-i.. it isn't what it looked like." harry tried to defend his honor. why, oh why, louis had to come when he was fucking that whore's mouth. now louis' going to think he is some kind of sex addict or a pervert. wait? why does he care what louis thinks? louis is just stupid bait he has to use for his dignity.

"i don't really care, harry. it's okay." louis chuckled a little. he gave harry a thumbs up and scrambled out quickly.

it didn't seem like a jab at harry, but the boy felt a bit sad. 'does he really don't care?' harry frowned softly. all this time when he was thinking louis would at least look a bit sad
or frown, but no, he just chuckled and left. does harry mean nothing to louis?

❝ H A R R Y ❞

the following evening when harry was going to louis' place after his practice, the only thought running around his mind was how he was going to face louis after today's incident. someday, this stupid george is going to ruin his image.

when he reached, as usual, he met louis' sisters, chatted with them and then made his way to louis' room. not-so-surprisingly, louis was already busy solving his work. he even had his glasses perched on his button nose. unbeknownst, he scrunched his nose to contain the fond that was about to appear on his facial features. the feathery haired lad must've  found the following question a bit difficult as he was now, anxiously, nibbling on the back of his pencil. still too much in his world, harry brought his lower lip between his teeth and couldn't help but think how this lad would look as he lips wrapped-

"harry, please come in." 

louis was brightly beaming at him, snapping harry back into reality. the green eyed boy's mouth was open ajar as he took in what he actually was thinking. 'get a grip, harry!' he scolded himself. god, he really needs to get laid or else he'll keep making these obscene scenarios in his mind with every other boy that comes in front of his eyes.

"harry!" louis called him again, looking a bit concerned. "are you okay?"

"peachy." harry smiled at him, sitting down on the floor. he took his workbooks out of his book bag and opened the practice questions. "i was having some problems with thermodynamics, lou. please help."

"no mathematics today?" louis asked, as he scrambled on the floor with his own study supplies.

"nope."

"okay."

halfway through the lesson, harry's mind wandered off to the morning's incident and louis' carefree attitude towards it. "louis?" he blurted out abruptly, not knowing how to ask his question.

"oh-! am i going too fast? or you missed something? don't worry, i'll start again." louis gave him a reassuring smile, surging forward to turn the page, but harry gripped his hand. "uh- i'm sorry!" was the first thing louis squeaked out in fear.

"wha- louis, why are you apologizing?" harry was caught off guard.

"i thought- uh... your grip is too tight and i- um.. i got a little bewildered. i thought i did some-something wrong to make you m-mad and y-you were going to- y'know..." he trailed off, feeling ashamed.

louis might have trailed off, but harry understood his fear. "i won't hit you, lou." he felt bad. "you did nothing wrong. i'm sorry that my hold gave you a wrong message." he offered louis a friendly smile, however, he didn't make any effort to leave louis' hand, just loosened his grip a bit. "i was just- i have a question."

"oh, oh! yes, please go ahead." louis let out a heavy breath that he didn't know he was holding back. although harry has been quite nice lately, louis couldn't help but worry at times.

"do you really not care?"

"about?" he asked quietly. harry's hushed tone had him freaking out on the inside. "about what happened today!" harry snapped a little.

at first louis appeared to be a tad bit clueless, but then his eyes grew wide in realization. there was a hint of embarrassment in harry's eyes and louis felt bad. "no. why would i?"

wow! harry felt his stomach twist in a peculiar way. "r-really?"

then louis realized why harry was nervous. with a soft chuckle, he gently tapped his knuckles on harry's head. "oh, you silly boy.."

'what?!' harry flushed out a bit. god, he hates this weird warm feeling taking over his tummy. he gave a disbelieving look which was either ignored or louis simply did not catch it.

"i mean, i was a little disappointed," harry's heart filled with joy. "because you did it on school grounds." and once again, harry was taken over by this weird feeling which kind of resemble grief. "but then again, it's your life. however, i would warn you to be bit careful. thankfully, it was me, not chris. you shouldn't do this to chris, but i don't want to judge."

harry ran his fingers through his hair, frowning a bit because louis cared about school grounds, chris and everything, but not him.

"- don't worry, though. this little thing will not affect our friendship."

friendship?! of course, he thinks about harry as a friend. louis does seem like a dense kid who thinks every person who talks to him nicely is his friend. god, what has harry gotten himself into. louis' going to be so hurt.

"now, let's complete this part. as you know, thermodynamics is an important part of both physics and chemistry." and that was it. louis went back to explaining the lesson, leaving harry to frown and drown in his own world.

'why are you making this hard for me?'

and his eyes rested on louis with his heart in his throat. what does his heart want? because even if he should be happy that louis thinks of him as a friend and half of his work is done, but harry couldn't stop himself from growing sad. will he be able to complete his dare?

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❝ Is it wrong that I still don't know my heart? ❞
— Niall Horan

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09/01/2021

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💔 : heartbreak weather or flicker? (not album-wise, i'm talking about the songs individually)
💫 : heartbreak weather for me (again, not the album, the song)

[a/n: niall is such an amazing singer-songwriter and hbw did not get enough appreciation. it is as iconic as walls!]

«VIBEZ IS A BOP ❤️»

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excuse my mistakes. i hope you liked the chapter x