really fast i'd like to say something for those who don't know me. hello, hi i'm the author (aha no shit im writing this lol)

i had originally started this book around 3-4 years ago. so the first one shots are pretty sad but i don't want to unpublish them due to the fact they're my most read one shots along with the fact most people seem to comment most on those.

i write these one shots from the point of view as a girl, even though i myself am a guy. (yea i'm guy smh but i'm not gay, yea ik kinda confusing since i literally write karma x reader one shots) i try to make my stories are believable as possible from the point of view as not only a girl but in japan. i'm korean so my english do be kinda sucky smh.

anyways enjoy.
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(Y/N)'s POV:

It's almost October, and although it's still September, it hasn't felt like it. wow it's almost been a year since then.

how times have changed. last year around now, i would still be obsessed with Asano-kun. now i'm living in a global pandemic haha. Asano-kun...

he was my first crush. i meet him when i was 11, my first year in junior high. at first i didn't like him at all. he was cocky and stuck up, and had some weird god complex. though as the year went on i found myself crushing on the boy, who had used to give me lots of attention. but as i entered my last year in junior high, and was placed in the E-class his affection for me slowly disappeared.

we had no classes together so that makes sense. he broke up with me in october. he made it pretty clear he had stopped liking me awhile back. but me, the dumb little girl i was, still loved him. i remember how numb i felt towards it all. but later the night i cried so hard. it hurt. but not as much as Karma will hurt me. but that's in the future.

Karma...

oh Karma;;;

he was the only reason i got over Asano-kun. because just 2 days before me and asano had broken up, Karma told me that he liked me more than a friend.

at the time, i didn't know how i felt. looking back it was clear i liked Karma for awhile but my feelings towards Asano-kun were stronger, blocking Karma out. plus, before then Karma had always made a huge deal to make it clear we were only friends. i don't understand what made him suddenly confess like that. but i'm glad he did.

we never dated.

but we talked a lot. i do admit, at first i only used him as a rebound to try and get over Asano. but after realizing it, Karma was so much better. he treated me so much better. with Asano i doubted my self worth so much. but with Karma, he made me feel like I was someone. like I was worth something.

I grew attached.

like he was my only source of happiness.

and he was.

when my phone buzzed i always hope his name would pop up on my screen. just seeing that he texted me made me smile no matter how I had felt moments before. talking to him gave me butterflies and id always smile like an idiot at my phone.

i loved him.

then he left. he grew tired of me. like how i knew he would.

oh that hurt.

so much more than Asano leaving.

while it's true, i had used Karma as rebound from Asano... he never cared about me. Asano even told me to go for Karma. maybe it was karma (not Karma Akabane) coming back to me

because, he replaced me.

a week later that Karma left me i found out that he had completely replaced me with Rio Nakamura. and the thing was, we were lowkey friends. that's how i found our actually.

we were talking and her phone buzzed and started to text someone. that's when I realized it was Karma. my heart broke that day. i remember exactly how it felt. it felt like it physically broke.

part of me will never forgive Karma for what he did.

but another part of me still loves him. i always will love him, im just no longer in love with him.

i know they may not make that much sense, but basically what i mean is, if he ever needed me, i'd be there for him. even if he just wanted to use me, i'd let him. because i still care for him.

as long as he's happy. :)

somi mint

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aishhh i haven't written anything in awhile. i'm too lazy to look it over so eh

my english isn't good WE BEEN NEW JZNSKAA

anyways so
please note all my stories are based off of my own love life.

Date: Saturday, September 19, 2020
Word count: 845 words