"Wait what? Okuda-San likes him...?"

"Yea, I said that like 5 times already. She wants me to talk to him for her, I'll be back in a sec"

I watched as Toka walked over to the red head who was stuffing appetizers into his mouth. I couldn't help but soften up by looking at how cute he was.

He was wearing a light blue collared dress shirt and black dress pants. Unlike the other boys, he didn't have a tie or the nice jacket. (It's not the school uniforms this is not a school setting)

I'm currently at a party. Not the boring ones at friends houses, but the ones where you have to be dressed nicely. The ones at a country club with a DJ and cool lights. Basically like a bar/bat mitzvah.

I watched as Toka told him what I was still in shock about. Karma looked at her blankly before finally swallowing all the food he stuffed into his mouth.

I couldn't hear what they were saying, but that didn't matter to me. Because from where I was, I could see that he was turning red and was smirking.

karma likes okuda-san doesn't he....?

no... why her of all people. im so sick of being compared to her, and now this?

i was about to cry.

Recently I've been crying over him too much. Just last week at another party, I started crying just be watching him walk.

Now I know I've fallen in deep because I need him here with me...

I grabbed Rios wrist, forcing her to come to the bathroom with him. The moment I opened the door, I burst into tears.

"Hey hey, (Y/N). What's wrong? Did Karma do something again?"

I looked up at her.

"does Okuda like him...?"

She was silent. She sighed and looked down at her phone. She texted something before looking back at me, holding my knees to my chest and crying in the corner of the perfume scented bathroom.

"Yes, Okuda likes him."

"HE LIKES HER TOO THEN!! AND LEMME GUESS THEYRE GONNA START DATING BEFORE THIS STUPID PARTY IS OVER!"

"Hey hey, chill out. Okuda isn't even here-"

I screamed so loud while the tears going down my face almost made me gag. And I was so loud, a woman dressed in the country club uniform came in.

I immediately got up and started washing my hands. Hoping that she hadn't heard me. But it was way too obvious that I had been crying.

At least i knew how to put on an act and how to stop crying and just smile like everything was ok... thanks to him...

"Are you girls alright in here?"

Thankfully Rio answered for me and without hesitation.

"Yea we're fine, it's just the scents in here. My friend here is allergic to perfumes and it makes her eyes flare up that's all."

"Hmm, ok then. Just know you can talk me ok?"

I was silent as I continued washing my hands for like 5 minutes straight. When she finally left I turned to look at Rio but she was gone. Wtf

I quickly ran out of the room back to where the dance floor was and when I saw her, my heart dropped. Oh no.

She was yelling at Karma. The expression on his face was something I've never seen before. Rio suddenly stomped away and walked over to where I had sat down still crying.

"What did you do?"

"I told him that I'm sick of how he doesn't realize what he says and how it impacts you so much. I hate how he seems to be leading you on and flirting with you but then goes and flirts with other girls. And about time I did, he looked super guilty."

She got up again when back over to talk to him.

I stayed there and looked down at my phone, pretending to text someone. And when I looked at my messages I had actually gotten a text from a certain someone.

"are you ok?"

I thought for a second. Should i just leave him on read like how he usually does to me?

I decided to just leave him on read, but in like 5 minutes I went back and texted:

:)

"Hey (Y/N), are you ok?"

I was silent as I felt a coat being wrapped about me. I didn't answer, but i knew that he knew I was crying.

He sat down next to me and hugged me. "It'll be alright"

I got up and walked over to a mob of where one of my close friends and her crush were talking. I kinda just stood there not wanting to be weird.

Asano followed me...

I don't know how to describe him. He's cute, and it's the exact definition of my perfect dream boy. If I talked to him more and actually was something to him, I'd be able to like him.

But he's kinda the type who doesn't necessarily have a crush. He just is generally nice to all girls and flirts with them. Aka he's not loyal, but as he wrapped his arms around me from behind, I couldn't help but feel safer.

Suddenly Rio came running back up to me, and with this weird smug look on her face.

"What did you do now...?"

"First off, I slapped him. And not like those playful punches and kicks you call flirting with him, I actually like full on slapped him. He deserved it after the shit he's put onto you this year and last year."

Last year... I can't tell which year was better. Both years put me through pain but then again other things went down last year.

Rio turned her head and looked at Asano with a somewhat glare in her look.

"Can you like leave? We're trying to have a girl conversation"

She narrowed her eyes at him and his arms around me suddenly vanished as I watched him walk away. Even though I was still wearing his coat.

"He likes you, (Y/N)"

I looked down... I know most people would be all happy. But after what he's done and said... I don't know what to believe anymore.

Just last week i made Rinka tell him I liked him and that I was wondering if he had a crush. Apparently he turned red and said he did with a smirk on his face.

And then the next day he said, "I only said that because I'd feel bad if I said no"

"He's lying..."

"Wh- no he's not."

"He's lying! If he can't come up to me and tell me face to face then he's lying. I'm so tired of his sorry ass behavior!"

Rio sighed and said she'd be back so I went and sat down again. He was looking at me... I turned my entire body around, for once I actually wanted him to know how mad I was at him. I've gotten so mad and upset at him so many times but he doesn't even seem to notice.

Ok so, a quick overall summary of what happened last year... he liked me and I knew. I didn't like him but after awhile I started to like him. Yea I know stupid love story, maybe I'll talk about some other time. (Part 2 ;)))

Rio suddenly grabbed my arm, lifting me out of the chair.

"Wait-"

"COME ON!!"

She suddenly shoved me into a room where a red headed boy stood there blushing awkwardly and was looking at the ground.

"Now then, this dumbass here is finally gonna tell you he likes you to your face and we're just gonna be standing behind the doors listening. And don't do anything dirty k?"

She suddenly closed the door and when I looked back at him, my face lit on fire. Fuck nuggets

He was now looking at me, blushing and smiling weirdly. Yea no... you see, after last year... I've become VERY self conscious on my physical appearance. Aka, he called me ugly once and I stated to notice how I actually was really ugly.

And being stuck in here ALONE with him, BHAHAHAHA I think not

I quickly turned and started pushing on the door.

"Are you guys serious? Let me out-"

"Here,"

Suddenly Karma moved in front of me and pushed the door open easily. Now I wasn't necessarily in awe on how "strong" he was. But just amazed he could actually move it. Maybe it was because I was in my socks.

I followed out and there was Karma trying to hide behind a different door. But the door was glass... so we could all see him.

And also, not trying to be cocky or anything but literally the entire grade knows he liked me and we were shipped together. And Rio isn't the best at keeping secrets so now everyone at the party was kinda just following us, wanting to see what'll happen

"TELL HER ALREADY YOU DUMBASS!"

I was looking down as I heard him whisper something into my ear, so only I could hear.

"What rio told you was true..."

I was quiet for a second, what did rio tell me...?

"Huh..?"

"When Rio said I liked you, it's true"

And this time I wasn't the only one who heard. Rio suddenly started screaming along with all the girls.

My thoughts: he's such a fucking pussy he can't even say "I like you". Damnit this boy is super shy when it comes to love smh

"It doesn't matter, you're not gonna do anything about it...."

|~~~~ 30 minutes later~~~~~~|

"(Y/N), Karma wants to talk to you away from the uh... dance fool. Or whatever you wanna call it."

"Will you go out with me, (Y/N)?"

those words echoed through my ears. the same words that I've been dreaming of hearing, for 3 years now.

I had been looking down, being protectively hugged by another boy while also wearing his jacket. the boy who had just asked me the question I've always wanted to hear him say to me, tilted his head to the side in attempt to see my face.

Embarrassed, not wanting him to see how i looked from crying, fell onto the ground in a crouched position.

The boy who was hugging me, came down with me, still clinging onto me. The sounds of the music became white noise.

"ASK HER OUT YOU DUMBASS!"

"I just did!"

Rio sat down and looked at me. I just hide my face in Asanos chest crying... I'm so pathetic.

"Hey... (Y/N)... listen to me... you've never told me what happened last year. And I know how much it hurts you. I don't know what Karma did to you to make you this hurt. But I just want you to know this. Karma actually likes you for real ok? And he wants to date you... are you going to?"

"i guess..."

"SHE SAID YESS BAHAHAHAH"

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Hope_full

Bruh... I've been died. And yea that was crappy. Idec at this point. This is literally only part 1 of like 4. I might rewrite half of it because I'm literally too lazy to read it over and edit it

Anyways, I hope you liked it and don't worry All ur questions will be answered in the other parts. AND IF THIS MADE NO SENSE WITH LIKE AUTOCORRECT THAT MEANS I HAVENT GOTTEN AROUND TO EDIT IT

I JUST WANTED TO POST SOMETHING

Date: May 20, 2019

Words: 1930 words

(It's short I'm sorry😩)