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the three sat in the living room, resting on the couch. each one on a different end of it.

jungkook glanced at taehyung while taking a sip from his banana milk.
what was he thinking?
it hurt jungkook that the elder won't listen. he just wouldn't let jungkook explain himself. on the other side, what could he say? that he had something going on with minseok while they were together? but they weren't together at that time! they made things official after minseok left.

jungkook kept on asking himself why on earth did he even start all of this with minseok. he must admit that he just used the boy for his own needs, but the playing got a little too far, probably, if it all ended up with minseok confessing to jungkook.
if only taehyung listened, jungkook would've explained to him that he had rejected minseok and everything they had going on was before taehyung and him made things official.

was taehyung even thinking about jungkook? what if he never really loved jungkook? what if he used him...

minseok looked concerned. jungkook sometimes wished he could read thoughts. wouldn't that make everything a hundred times easier?
minseok was probably thinking about this entire situation... it was technically his fault that he decided to kiss jungkook out of the blue.

"did you seriously like taehyung's blowjobs more than mine?" minseok asked all of a sudden staring at jungkook.
jungkook on the other hand, chocked on his drink after hearing such an unexpected question escape minseok's mouth.
okay maybe he wasn't thinking about being the guilty one in this whole thing.

"where did that come from??" jungkook shrieked.
what on earth happened while I was gone?
jungkook looked at taehyung who was looking at the two with a bitch face.

"don't dodge the question, jungkook." taehyung said and jungkook gave him the most confused look. and here he thought taehyung would be on his side and say some shit like "nobody cares, shut up" or just ignore the conversation.

"what do you mean?! what kind of question is that?" jungkook whined.

"a question we all know the answer to, don't we?" taehyung looked too intimidating for comfort.
"with all that begging... you obviously liked my blowjobs more, and not only blowjobs, must I add..."

"omg stop!" jungkook blushed and grabbed a pillow next to him to cover the embarrassment on his face.

"I never thought you would be a bottom." minseok butted in.

"i am not-" jungkook protested.

"bwahaha! jungkook, please." taehyung laughed loudly and stood up from the couch, slowly walking over to jungkook.
he bent down to get on jungkook's level and lifted up his chin with his finger.
"I don't know what relationship you have with others, but for me, you will always be a bottom."

and with those words taehyung left the room, disappearing somewhere upstairs.
jungkook sat frozen in place for a good minute and then realised that he had been holding his breath all this time.
what was that?

jungkook bit his lip, not knowing if it was because of nervousness or an indefinite desire for something rather unholy.
probably both.
god, he missed taehyung... how much time has passed? only a couple of days, and he already missed taehyung even though the boy was right next to him. that was because he missed the real taehyung, the taehyung who was his, now, ex boyfriend.

this shit hurts.
jungkook thought to himself while clenching the pillow in his hands.

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"you can sleep in the guest room, the couch is shit. it has one bed but ... I'm pretty sure you won't mind sharing it ahah.. don't fuck in my house though." taehyung said with a fake smile on his lips, while handing them two clean towels.

"taehyung! don't say that!" jungkook exclaimed and looked down at his feet. taehyung just walked away without saying another word.

jungkook exhaled.
"don't worry. I am sure he will come around." minseok said quietly, patting the elder on his back.

"I really hope so, I really do." jungkook replied in a whisper and gave out a small smile.

in the late evening, or more like night, after showering, the boys went to their rooms: taehyung went into his own, and jk with minseok – into the guest room. 

jungkook lied on the soft bed and stared at nothing. it was was dark, but not pitch black because of the bright moonlight that broke through the curtains, bringing into light specific parts of the room.
he sat up and looked at the wall to the left that had a full length floor mirror. jungkook looked at his self and frowned.

"what is wrong with me..." he whispered.

"nothing."

jungkook yelped and turned around abruptly after hearing a voice next to him.
"jesus christ..." 

"sorry far scaring you." minseok giggled. "can't sleep?"

"yeah... you can't either?" jungkook asked.

"yes. too many thoughts fogging up my mind..." minseok nodded.

"I'll go get myself a cup of water..."
jungkook stood up from the bed and exited the room, leaving a little gap instead of closing the door fully to not create much sound.

as he walked down the hallways, jungkook noticed parts of light that were escaping taehyung's room. was he is also not sleeping?
jungkook bit his lip nervously and took a deep breath, then, knocked on the door slightly.

in a matter of seconds the door opened and jungkook was greeted with an embodiment of pure beauty. taehyung was wearing a loose shirt that slightly fell off his shoulder and big pajama pants. his hair was messy and fell over his hooded eyes.
he looked at jungkook who stood there with his mouth slightly opened and after a while walked away, back into his room leaving the door open.
jungkook took that as an invite to enter.

"why aren't you sleeping?" jungkook added quietly as he slowly walked into taehyung's room, observing the place that was filled with dim lighting from a lamp on the night table.

"can't." taehyung replied nonchalantly and went over to his closet to place something inside.

jungkook walked over to taehyung's table and noticed a drawing and a bunch of pencils lying around. it was a portrait but jungkook couldn't see who it was since the drawing was doodled over with a marker and ripped into half.
he tried to take a closer look, but taehyung suddenly came up and flipped the paper over while giving jungkook an annoyed glance.

"oh, sorry... I didn't know you can draw." jungkook said and chuckled uncomfortably.
"anyways um... taehyung? we need to talk."

"we have nothing to talk about." he replied sternly.

"taehyung, please, why won't you hear me out?"

"if we were to switch roles, would you want to listen to me in such situation?" taehyung questioned.

"yes! yes I would!"

"well then, i guess we're not as similar as we thought we were."

"taehyung!" jungkook whined out and heard how miserable and desperate his voice sounded. he grabbed taehyung hand and pulled him over, making him look straight into jungkook's eyes.
"w-were you ... were you crying?" the younger whispered as his own eyes filled up with tears after seeing the red, swollen eyes on taehyung's face, that made his heart clench.

"please leave, jungkook." taehyung said and pulled his hand away. he walked over to his door opened it, only hinting jungkook to get out.

"taehyung..." jungkook exhaled as he walked over to the elder and tried to grab his arm again without success.

"I said leave, jungkook."

jungkook gave taehyung a last glance, hoping he'd return it, but after seeing that taehyung was still staring at the floor, jungkook gave himself a little nod and left.

after getting himself a cup of water, he came back in their shared guest room with minseok and placed the emptied out glass on the night stand. minseok was sleeping peacefully with his head buried in the pillow.
jungkook walked over to his side of the bed and lied down, falling asleep in a matter of minutes.

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minseok heard knocking and immediately thought that jungkook, instead of going to get a glass of water, went to taehyung.

he stood up from the bed and went over to the door that was a little bit opened, creating a good view right onto taehyung's door.

he eavesdropped on the entire conversation and after, watched how jungkook went downstairs to the kitchen.
he quickly ran over to the night table and grabbed his phone.

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2:06 a.m.

yoongi 🖤

minseok
yoongi? are you awake?

yoongi 🖤
yeah, what is it?

minseok
there is something I need to tell you...

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