Seonghwa spins the empty shot glass around with his fingers. It was his fifth shot in a row and probably the worst decision he could've made right now. But he needed it, more than anything. He is sitting alone at the bar, glaring at the table his friends are sitting at in the corner. As he stares at Yeosang and Minho sitting together, anger is blending together with his jealousy and the alcohol intake, which definitely isn't the best combination.

When he finally returns to his friends, he is way too drunk and way too messed up in his mind to think clearly anymore. He even lets Yerin take his hand and intertwine her fingers with his as he sits down next to her. She is really cute, she truly is. Sweet, polite and so pretty. Everything Seonghwa could ever wish for.

But when he looks across the table and sees how Minho is flirting with Yeosang, he knows that the only one he wishes for, the only one he wants, is sitting just across from him with sparkling brown eyes and the sweetest, softest smile in the world.

Only thing is that the smile isn't aimed at Seonghwa right now. And especially not when Yeosang notices how Yerin is holding Seonghwa's hand. The younger's face turns stone cold and the look in his eyes are piercing straight through Seonghwa, hitting him right in the heart.

"Excuse me for one second," Seonghwa mumbles drunkenly, pulling his hand away from Yerin's before heading towards the bathrooms.

Seonghwa stares at himself in the mirror just outside of the toilet booths, cursing at himself in his mind for feeling like this. Angry, jealous, but worst of all unable to anything about it. He supports himself with his hands on the edge of the sink, while his body is swaying from side to side as the numbness from the intoxication is taking over him.

Suddenly the door opens and Yeosang walks in, a slight sigh leaves his lips as he sees Seonghwa.

"What?" Seonghwa glares at the younger through the reflection when he hears the sigh behind him.

"Nothing?" Yeosang just shrugs, "And why are you looking at me like I'm the bad guy here? You're the one who's been acting like an idiot all night."

"I've been acting like an idiot?" Seonghwa turns to look directly at Yeosang. The younger's careless tone and stare is pissing Seonghwa off and causes him to say something he shouldn't.

"You're the one who's acting like an idiot! I didn't plan this night to happen, so why do you keep acting like it's all my fault? I wanted to leave right away but you sure seem to want to stay now, because of Minho? Did you just tell me to go fuck Yerin earlier, because you actually want to fuck that guy? You know what... Hyunjin was right... you are messed up."

"What... what did you just say? When did you talk with him?" Yeosang takes a step back as he speaks, his eyes widening up as he stares at Seonghwa. A look that is almost on the edge of looking terrified spreads across the younger's face.

"I ran into him after you left the other day. He told me how fucked up you are and that I should just stay away from you." At this point Seonghwa can't stop talking anymore, being so furious by now that he doesn't even care. "And you know what? Maybe he was right! Because you are fucking me up, Yeosang! I'm going insane trying to figure you out all the time! And I'm sick of it!"

Seonghwa stares at the Yeosang while his body is trembling from his angry outburst. Being too caught up in his own thoughts and feelings, he doesn't even notice the small tears showing in the corners of Yeosang's eyes.

"Maybe you should just stay away then!" Yeosang snaps back before turning around on his heels and storming out of the bathroom.

~

"Get home safely, everyone!" Mingi says as everyone is about to part ways outside the bar.

It's late by now and everyone is drunk and but all hyped up. Everyone but Seonghwa. And when his friends try to be good wingmen, with the best intentions, everything just turns into an even bigger mess.

"See you soon," Yerin smile at Seonghwa as they stand in front of each other. She slowly leans in closer to place a soft kiss on his cheek, which Seonghwa's friends notice right away.

"Aww, you guys! Isn't it about time that you give each other a real kiss?" Mingi asks, way too excitedly.

"I agree!" Yunho laughs, "We can look away if it helps!"

"Guys, come on. If they don't want to we shouldn't pressure them," Hongjoong argues, but Seonghwa is still too drunk to even notice.

Seonghwa just sways a bit back and forth, not fully aware of what is going on. He doesn't want to kiss her, but at the same time he kind of does. But the final push he needs, or didn't need, is when he catches the sight of Minho and Yeosang standing a couple of steps behind the others. Minho is standing way too close, slowly wrapping his arms around Yeosang's waist, pulling him closer.

"I-I had a great time tonight..." Yerin's soft voice breaks through Seonghwa's thoughts.

He looks at her, and only a second later he presses his lips against hers. Kissing her is definitely different than kissing Yeosang. Her lips are cute and small, soft but it's... Different. Seonghwa tells himself it's just because they are both drunk, he won't dare to admit the real reason.

When he lets go of her, she looks surprised but happy and he feels guilty that he in no way feels the same way as she does. But he doesn't even think twice before giving her a small kiss on the forehead as well before she leaves with her girl friends.

Seonghwa's own friends couldn't be any happier for him and for a brief moment he feels happy too. It quickly dies as Seonghwa peeks behind his friends to see how Yeosang is standing, leaning against the wall, his arms around Minho's neck and their lips locked together in a deep kiss. The quick glare which Yeosang sends Seonghwa, while still kissing Minho, is enough for Seonghwa to almost walk right over and pull them away from each other. He clenches his fists while staring at the two, pain spreading inside his chest as he just can't look away.

"I guess Yeosang will find his way home later," Wooyoung giggles as he looks over his shoulder. "You guys wanna go? I'm so tired!"

Seonghwa unwillingly follows his friends, but the image of Yeosang kissing someone else is burning every other thought in his mind. Everyone else is still having a good time on their walk back to the dorm, but Seonghwa excuses his strange behavior with him just being drunk and tired. He doesn't really pay attention to the conversation the others have, but he does manage to hear when Mingi says he didn't know Yeosang was into guys. Wooyoung simply replies that it has always been like that, for the five years he has known him at least, and asks if anyone has a problem with that. The others shake their heads but Seonghwa isn't too sure whether it's true or not. He is pretty damn sure they wouldn't react that calmly if he chose to tell that he in fact liked Yeosang too.

When Seonghwa has parted ways with the others and is heading towards his room, he hears Wooyoung call out for him.

"Ah, Seonghwa! Sorry! Can I ask you to do me a favor?" Wooyoung asks as he catches up with him.

"Sure?"

"Yeosang asked me to hold his phone for him, but I forgot to give it back when we left. I am going to visit my parents early tomorrow; can you give it back to him for me? Please?"

Such a small favor, but there is nothing in the world that Seonghwa wouldn't rather do than have to face Yeosang. But he nods as response to Wooyoung's question, since saying no would seem very weird.

~

Knocking on Yeosang's door the following morning has never felt so nerve wrecking. Seonghwa almost holds his breath while waiting for the door to be opened. What if it's Minho who opens the door? What if Yeosang isn't even at home, because he went somewhere else with that guy?

"What do you want?" Yeosang asks as he opens the door. He is alone in his room to Seonghwa's big relief.

"Wooyoung asked me to give you this." Seonghwa hands Yeosang his phone and his action is followed by a heavy silence.

Yeosang spins his phone around with his hands, just staring at Seonghwa with this unreadable look.

"Did you fuck him?" The words just fly right out of Seonghwa's mouth.

"Did you fuck her?" Yeosang instantly fires back.

"No."

"Okay." Yeosang flips his hair back and turns his face to look away, giving Seonghwa a small chance to take a good look at him.

The dark hair is messy from sleeping, but other than that nothing else seems that suspicious. But Seonghwa still can't stop himself from staring at Yeosang's neck and exposed collarbones, searching for clues if anything else happened last night.

"No, I didn't sleep with him! So you can stop looking at me like that," Yeosang suddenly says, rolling his eyes.

"Why did you kiss him?"

"Because I'm fucked up , right? So why waste your time on someone like me?"

The look in Yeosang's eyes is new and different, like he is both hurt and angry at the same time. Seonghwa can feel the words burning in his throat, as he thinks and rethinks what to say, but before he even gets to say anything at all - Yeosang is closing the door.

"Thanks for bringing me my phone," the younger says without any emotions in his voice, before shutting the door between them.