Summer

Atlanta, GA

I walked back and forth in the kids room bouncing Dylan as his head rested against my shoulder. I could still hear his sniffles as he calmed down. Today has been hectic for me and the kids and to top it off there's a thunderstorm going on outside making it impossible to put them bed easily.

"It's okay" I said in a low voice while rubbing his back. I looked over at Kayla and seen that she was finally sleep. I said a quick prayer because lord know's she she was fighting her sleep.

My mind wandered at the fact that I would probably have to do this all by myself a few times while in Milan. I made my decision this morning that I would accept the offer and I planned to tell Demetrius today but he's been gone all day long. Making me anxious to form the way I would tell him.

I continued swaying side to side slowly before hearing light snores come from Dylan. I went over to his bed and slowly laid him down before leaving leaving out of the room. Just as I was walking into the living room I could see the front door opening and Meech walking through. I crossed my arms over my chest and tilted my head to the side. Letting him get completely in the house before questioning him. "Where you been at?"

Meech shook his head "Don't start Summer, I told you I was coming back late today"

"No you didn't"

"Yes I did, you was too busy on your phone and shit like you always is" He said while walking past me.

"What is that supposed to mean? You know I work a lot from my phone so what's your point?"

"That's the problem you dont even be working all of the time. You just be on it either posting shit for attention or getting attached to social media too fucking much" He walked into the bedroom and I followed him with my arms still crossed.

"Oh my god Demetrius, Is this still about this picture I posted. I will delete it damn." I took out my phone and opened the Instagram app. I went to my profile and deleted the latest picture I posted which was just me in a thong swimsuit I've always posted myself in swimsuits so Im confused as to why he was acting like this was something new.

"You happy now?" I turned my phone showing him. He moved my phone out of his face.

"It ain't even about you deleting it. You shouldn't have done it in the first place"

I sighed heavily and sat at the edge of our bed rubbing my face while looking down at the floor "This is going to be too much for me while Im away" I mumbled under my breath.

"Away where?" He stood in front of me.

I widened my eyes still looking down, realizing that I had no choice but to now tell him. This wasn't how I imagined telling him. I felt him grab my arm pulling me up so we were now face to face."Away where Summer?" He asked again.

I pulled my arm back from him grip "I got an offer to go to Milan for a year...and I accepted it"

He stepped back some and furrowed his eyebrows "What you mean you took it? You ain't said shit to me about it"

"I know I was just nervous at first but now I feel like, I could really benefit from it. This could continue to take my career to the next level. This is a big deal for me Demetrius"

He still had the same mad facial expression "Fuck you mean a big deal for you. what about us? the kids? the shit you got going on here"

"I don't know I figured I could work out a schedule with he kids and my mom would probably come to help-"

He cut me off "Bro you so fucking selfish Summer that shit is crazy"

I looked down again thinking of what I wanted to say "I'm not selfish Meech" that being the only thing that could come to mind.

"Yes the fuck you are. You just be doing shit without thinking. How you think this shit would work when we get married?" he grabbed my chin and tilted my head up so I was now looking at him again.

This time I had tears at the brim of my eyes, I felt guilty.

"I don't give a fuck about you crying Summer, you knew what you was doing before"

I shook my head and wiped my eyes. "Okay I know it was fucked up Demetrius. Let's just forget about it. I won't take the offer I'll call in the morning"

He sat down next to me "Nah go ahead and accept it. Maybe we need that time apart"

"You wouldn't come with me?" I looked over at him and he shook his head 'no'

"Nah. I don't think that's gone work for us"

I could now feel the tears running down my face at a quicker pace "So why tell me to go ahead and do it if you don't think it's going to work. Make it make sense Demetrius"

"Because thats gone give me enough time to see if we should even continue being engaged Summer" He said looking away from me. I felt like my heart was shattering.

I stood up "What the fuck do you mean!" I yelled "Have you been feeling this way for a while?"

He sighed I could tell he didn't want to argue with me but I needed answers "Yeah" was all he said.

I looked at him in shock "Oh wow. Okay Demetrius" I shook my head going into the living room grabbing my keys out of my purse and putting on my rain boots.

"Where you going Summer?" Demetrius came into the living room approaching me. I ignored him grabbed a jacket out of the near by closet. Before I could get to the front door I felt him grabbing my hand trying to pull me back and I shook out of his grip.

"Don't touch me. I'll be back I just need some alone time" I unlocked the front door letting the tears continue to fall freely down my face now mixed with the rain that fell down. My hair quickly dampened and my now perfectly curly hair was a wet and wavy look.

I could hear Demetrius's voice calling my name as I walked down the driveway and unlocked my car and quickly hopped in and locked the doors. The only thing I could hear was the raindrops hitting the roof of the truck as I closed my eyes. Seconds later Demetrius was banging on the driver's side window begging me to open to door.

"Summer please, I'm sorry"

I silently sobbed and started the truck up making him move back some. I quickly reversed out of the driveway and drove away. I knew he probably wasn't going to follow behind me since the kids was in the house.

The weather made the situation even worst. Thunder roared as I came to a stop at the stop sign two blocks down from the house. My mom always told me that Thunderstorms were a spiritual meaning of negative energy being cleansed and purified making room for a new beginning.

I pressed on the gas and quickly hit the brakes seeing a black Ford Explore speed pass the front of my car. I inhaled and exhaled a few times, Get it together Summer.

I pressed the gas again this time and tried to control my breathing as my mind was all over the place. How did I think I had the perfect life? In my mind I thought I was doing everything right and to hear those words really broke me down.

I dug into my pocket to pull out my phone I just needed somewhere to go and someone to talk to. As I opened my phone a call from Demetrius was coming through and I pressed the decline button. My hands being slippery from the rain, I continuously tried to decline to call while looking between the road and the phone.

I looked down a few seconds later and successfully pushed the red button on the screen. Once I looked back up I seen a figure in the middle of the street, my reaction made me quickly swerve out of the way and run off of the road. The last thing I could remember was a tree in the view in front of me before everything went black.

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I opened my eyes and the first thing I seen were curtains. Looking around the room I winced at the bright lights and machines that were beeping.

I sat up quickly and swung my feet out of the hospital bed placing them on the cold floor. Oddly enough I wasn't in pain. I felt absolutely fine. I stood up from the bed and my jaw nearly dropped.

My body was still in the bed instead it had bruises and cuts significantly on my face. I put my hands out in front of me and looked at them before looking back up at the body in the hospital bed, hooked up to the beeping machines.

I was beyond freaked out. This shit was weird. I could hear a loud scream come from the other side of the door. I quickly ran to open the door and as soon as I opened it multiple nurses came running through my body as they entered the room. They didn't run past me but through me as if I was a ghost.

I watched as the machines started to beep rapidly and the doctor came running in. I stood in the door way watching the hospital staff repeatedly make an effort to bring stabilize my body as the sound of  the ECG machine indicated that I had flatlined.

I could feel myself crying yet I didn't feel any tears running down my face at all. The doctors head hung low as he cleared his throat and left the room while the nurses recorded the time of death.

I followed behind the doctor as he went into the waiting area. Many of my family members were there some standing while others sat in chairs.  I could physically see everyone obviously in a sad state of mind. Tears ran down Ma's face as she held both Kayla and Dylan in her lap.

Myles hugged Nikole as she cried into his chest. Myah sitting in a chair looking spaced out. I stood in the middle of the waiting room watching the different reactions yet I couldn't hear anything.

The doctor continued talking to Meech and I tried reading his lips but failed. I knew once he looked down and then back up at him while shaking his head, that he said I didn't make it.

Meech face was damn near red as he yelled. His eyes were already red so I knew he was crying not too long ago. I felt so useless I couldn't hug him, I couldn't hug my sister, my cousin, my mother and most importantly my babies.

I slowly made my way back to the room where my body was. Although I couldn't hear or say anything I could feel a presence following me. I looked back and seen Meech walking down the hallway behind me.

I felt like my mind was playing tricks on me. I moved to the side so I could watch what he was going to do. He stood at the doorframe looking at the lifeless body in the bed and taking it all in.

After a few minutes of just standing there he made his way into the room. He sat next to my body and started talking. I stood on the other side of the hospital bed and looked down watching him just talk. He stopped talking and looked down as he started to cry again.

This was probably the most emotion I've ever seen him show. He looked back up at my body and started saying something I squinted my eyes at his mouth so I could try my hardest to figure out what he was saying.

He softly grabbed my arm and shook it. As he repeated the words I mouthed to myself what he was saying 'Summer Wake up!'  He repeated it a few times before finally looking away from the body and up at me. I widened my eyes because I thought he couldn't see me. 'Summer Wake Up!' He now said to me while still holding on to the body in the bed. I closed my eyes not being able to take my heart break anymore

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"SUMMER WAKE UP!" I felt someone shaking my body as I quickly popped my eyes open and took a deep breath in.

"Girl what the hell you scared me!" Nikole said as he looked at me weird. "I thought I was about to have to call 911" she sighed.

I furrowed my eyebrows at her. She looked different. "You cut you hair?" Was the first words that came out of my mouth. Her hair was now back to the style she had almost two years ago.

"Ummm no? I haven't trimmed my hair in a long time.. you okay?" She followed my eyes as I continuously looked around the room.

What the hell? I thought to my self. Why am I back at my old house.

"What am I doin back here?" I flipped the covers back and got out of the bed. Frantically looking at the details of the room. They were spot on. "Is this a joke Nikole?"

"Is what a joke Summer?"

I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My hair was different instead of my tight curls it was straightened and back to it's dark black color. I laughed and shook my head "nah this has to be a joke or something" I said to myself before grabbing my toothbrush and brushing my teeth.

Nikole watched me from the entrance of the bathroom. I completely ignored her since she obviously thought this was funny. Once I was done I wiped my mouth and looked in the mirror again using both of my hands to touch my hair as the bottom of my shirt lifted a little. My heart completely dropped as I lifted the shirt up. "Where is it?"

"Where is what?" Nikole asked looking down at my bare stomach.

"My scar. I had a c-section scar from when I had Dylan. You know that Nikole" I started to panic.

Nikole came into the bathroom and placed her hand to my forehead I guess to check my temperature. "I'm not sure what you're talking about because you've never had a c-section especially not with Kayla sooo" she trailed off and I pushed past her going back into the room.

"Look I don't know what type of shit it going on but I'm not fucking with it. I'm going home!"

Nikole followed behind me "Summer you are home! You're really starting to worry me"

I turned to her and grabbed her hand pulling her to the hallway and down the stairs. I went to the back area where the patio doors were and stopped while looking at the wall. Nothing was there. I ran my hand over the wall a few times "it was right here. I remember it!"

Nikole snatched her hand away from me "what was right there?"

"There was a bullet hole from the time those guys robbed us a year ago and then we sold this house"

Nikole just stood there not saying anything.

"Nikole you have to remember that it was terrifying" I was now mad as hell because she was acting like she didn't remember anything.

Nikole pulled out her phone and dialed someone while keeping her eyes on me. "Hello Ma? Yeah, This girl is fucking crazy"

I smacked my lips and took the phone from her and put it on speaker "Ma would you please tell Nikole that I don't live here. I haven't been to this house in a long ass time. Also I don't know if she used makeup or whatever but my c-section scar is gone. This shit is weird, I'm about to take my babies and just leave I need to call Meech"

She was silent on the other end of the phone.

"Hello Ma do you hear me?"

She finally cleared her throat"Summer are you feeling good?"

I nodded my head as if she can see me "yeah I'm fine why?"

"Because you sound crazy. Babies?? You didn't have a c-sections before. I definitely remember I was in the room while you were pushing Kayla out and what do you mean you don't live there? Did you move?"

I gave Nikole her phone back and leaned against the counter as I listened to the two of them continue to talk.

Once she was done on the phone she came in front of me and grabbed both of my hands "look Summer I'm not sure if you being serious or not but you need to get it together"

"I'm one hundred percent serious Nikole"

She nodded and looked a her Home Screen "okay well I'll let you continue telling me about all of this that you claimed happened but you definitely need to head up stairs and get dressed first. Don't worry about Kayla I'll wake her up and get her dressed so you're not late on your first day. I know you're super excited about this job"

"I already have a job. What do you mean first day? First day of what?"

She smiled "Today is your first day of costume designing for Season one of BMF, Remember?"

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