༉˚*ೃ 𝐁𝐈𝐎𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐘 ; 𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐓 𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐆𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐓
ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵘˢᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ᵇⁱˡˡᵛⁱᵒˡᵉᵗᵉᵈᵈⁱᵉʳⁱᶜʰⁱᵉˢᵗᵃⁿˡᵉʸ, ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵉⁿ ᵇⁱˡˡᵛⁱᵒˡᵉᵗᵉᵈᵈⁱᵉʳⁱᶜʰⁱᵉˢᵗᵃⁿˡᵉʸᵇᵉᵛᵉʳˡʸᵐⁱᵏᵉᵇᵉⁿ. ᵇᵘᵗ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ᵇⁱˡˡᵛⁱᵒˡᵉᵗʳⁱᶜʰⁱᵉᵇᵉᵛᵉʳˡʸᵐⁱᵏᵉᵇᵉⁿ. ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᶠᵉˡᵗ ᵃˡˡ ʷʳᵒⁿᵍ.

𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 ;

like most of the kids in derry, violet grew up in a pretty fucked up home. her father was incredibly abusive to both her and her mother—in both a mental and physical manner. he was a bit of an alcoholic, but not nearly enough that he didn't know what he was doing. he always knew what he was doing. violet didn't think he ever loved her mother. he'd beat violet around for the smallest things, leave her bruised up and battered. but violet's mother always loved her. she gave vi her love of flowers—her knowledge of them—and was the first to introduce violet to hyacinths.

vi's mother died when violet was young, just eight years old, from a head injury caused by violet's father. she remained in hospital for a long time attempting to recover, but it eventually took her life, even though violet sat by her mother's side every day and brought her fresh flowers from the meadows down by the river. though violet was young when her mother passed away, it still pains her greatly, as her mother truly loved her. at the time, the hospital thought it was a stroke from falling down the stairs and hitting her head, but years later they'd discover it was truly caused by alexander penderghast.

afterwards, vi was left in her father's custody. her mother's death just seemed to make him more violent and angry, and now he took it out on her. but violet got by just alright. she met the losers during this time, in that infamous interaction with henry bowers, and they became the best parts of her life. they detracted from all the bad parts—with them, she felt invincible! and her love for them grew so much. that was the thing about violet, both the beautiful and the tragic thing, how deeply, how unconditionally, how unfathomably she loved. she would have given anything for them. they were the most important part of her life.  she'd turn up to school each day with bruises and broken bones, but the losers were the only ones who ever really noticed, and they looked after her in their own little ways. just like she looked after them, when eddie's mom had gotten under his skin, or stanley's dad under stan's. violet was always the best at that. violet penderghast was a good friend. 

when she was eleven, violet's father beat her so hard that she nearly died. she dragged herself to the tozier household and collapsed on their front doorstep after pounding on it hard with her bleeding fingers. it scared poor maggie tozier half to death, and god knows richie never stopped thinking about that moment. violet was immediately taken to the hospital. (maggie and wentworth tozier had always been more of parents to violet's than her own father). they looked after her for a while, there, and all of the losers came to visit. richie brought his comic books and stan read to her about birds, bill would show her his favourite tv channels and eddie would just sit there and talk to her. even georgie was there, sitting by her side. he was always a little bit like a brother to her. 

she recovered just fine, but things were different. the losers were afraid, now. they'd always known about it, and they'd always helped her, but now it seemed possible her father could really kill her. they'd never thought that much about death before; it worried them. she spent more time at the tozier or denbrough household than her own—in stan's room or eddie's room when she sneaked in night after night, because their parents didn't like her. they were like her real family, and she always felt safe with them. 

later that year, her father upped and left town without her. it should've caused a whole shitload of trouble for the town authorities about custody and all of that, but the derry authorities never really cared about violet or any other kid. she lived with the toziers for a while until her uncle moved into town to look after her. violet's uncle wasn't the best caretaker, but he tried, and he was better than her father in every way. vi loved him, too, and she knew he loved her—in his own kind of way. and the toziers always looked out for her, and the denbroughs too—that was, until, georgie died. they were always a bit more closed off after that.

she moves away from derry in 1994, when she's eighteen, after ben and beverly and just before richie leaves. it's a teary goodbye from the hyacinth girl. it took her quite a while to forget, perhaps because she'd known them longer than bev and ben had, or perhaps because of how much she loved them. she used to send them letters every week—imagining the five left behind craning around the letter in the clubhouse—and postcards and pictures and everything that she could find. and she'd call every night, doing the rounds from richie's house to stan's to eddie's to mike's to bill's, and she'd tell them everything about the college she was going to and how she'd made some new friends, but how none of them could ever be as good friends as the losers were. she promised them it. she called beverly once, and ben too, but neither of them really remembered her, even though it had only been a few months since she'd seen them last, and she'd known them for five years. she'd hung up quickly because it had made her too sad.

and eventually, violet began to forget too. she had a box of old memories from derry under her bed, some pictures of them stuck up on a pinboard: the polaroid from the first day she'd gotten her camera—she kept that in her wallet—hundreds more that she'd taken from the age of thirteen to eighteen, photobooth strips, sticky-notes they'd pass her during class, gifts from them, the necklace from bev, her yearbooks from over the years. then, one day, she was looking at the polaroids on her pinboard and at the faces of the children they'd grown up with, and not remembering who they were. she took the pictures down and put them in the box under her bed, and forgot that it was ever there. and violet forgot derry too. 

as an adult, violet is a florist running her own shop, and she's doing well for herself and she's happy in her own way. though she forgot about derry, she always felt like there was something missing. it was like something just wasn't entirely right in her heart. there was a whole there for billvioleteddierichiestanleybeverlymikeben but she couldn't figure out what yet. she never made many good friends, not real ones, because they never felt right to her, and even though she dated there was always something just not right about her life that she couldn't understand. perhaps it was because she never got to grow distant with her childhood friends like you're supposed to, they never drifted naturally apart, or even sadly. one day they were there in her head, and then they just weren't. she didn't know that she was missing the memories of bright stanley uris, or dramatic eddie kaspbrak, or any of the people she'd loved so much in the world. she just knew something was missing deep in her heart. she never even remembered her mother or father all that much.

but when mike hanlon calls her, she does remember. it's not quick, but it's there, because mike's voice is gentle and familiar and his nickname is already falling from her lips and she remembers all the summers she spent with him and she knows there were more of them. and something—maybe something from the past, that loyalty for big bill and all the rest of them—makes her pack a bag without a second thought at all and head off back to derry, because a part of her knows she could never abandon them again.

𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ;

violet is korean-nigerian, she has brown skin and eyes so dark they seem black. her hair is naturally kinky and she often wears it in two small curly pigtails low down at the back of her head. she's decently tall for her age, as she had a growth spurt young—shorter than stanley and bill, but a little bit taller than richie and all the other losers. violet has a lot of scars from encounters with her father and the bowers gang: small ones littering her face near her brow and eye or mouth; multiple shiny ones on her fingers from having them broken; and some on her arm from having henry bowers' knife carve words into them. they fade as she gets older, but never entirely disappear.

when vi is an adult, her appearance is much the same, and she looks young for forty. she's shorter than everyone except for eddie, and surprisingly bill (who stopped growing young). it's an odd change for her. but it's even weirder not knowing if she'd be taller than stan or not. not much about her changed and she wears the same cheerful and mischevious expressions that younger-her used to wear.

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 ;

vi is a typically cheerful and upbeat, she loves to crack jokes with richie tozier (they're partners in crime) and make the others laugh. she's terrible at controlling her emotions, whether they're happy, sad, afraid, love-filled, anxious or panicked, she simply can't keep them inside her no matter how hard she tries and they often spill out through her words, actions, or facial expressions. it means that whenever she's trying to be levelheaded in a frightening situation she just can't and struggles to keep her cool. the losers have gotten very good at calming her down, however. she's extremely loyal to the losers and bill in particular. it means that even if she is terrified and it's clearly showing, she'd never, ever, ever leave them behind. she'd march into the sewers or pennywise's den or anywhere for them no matter how much her head screamed no. such blind loyalty is also a flaw, but it suits violet well. it makes her brave and strong, she'd go up against bowers or pennywise for them any day. she's very understanding to her losers and is a good listener—she helps each of them with their own problems (eddie's hypochondria, richie's adhd and sexuality, bill's stutter, stan's ocd) in her own way and is always very kind to them when faced with that.

violet's defining characteristic is her unfathomable love for the losers. the way she loves is unique, as even though it's purely platonic, she loves so deeply and so unconditionally that it is a bit like the experience of true love. she has blind love for them, she'd do anything for them and she loves them so much in her chest that it takes up all of her heart (in this way, she's a lot like my other oc, sar). she loves quickly—like how fast she gets attached to bev, bill and mike—and over the years it just blooms and blossoms until it really is like they're all her soulmates in a platonic sense. she can't imagine being friends with or loving anyone else, and not having them destroys her. this doesn't change when she's an adult. (it's why their deaths hit her so unfathomably hard).

she's very physically affectionate with the losers in a platonic way, and often holds their hands, flops over them, sits in their laps, or kisses their faces. still, there's nothing romantic in it. she gets a lot of this from richie. it doesn't bother any of the other losers and they're used to it.

violet is very much the same in her forties, at least when she reunites with them. there's a lot of her childhood still within her when she returns to derry—probably because she forgot all about it and was never really given the chance to grow up with derry in mind. she would still go to the ends of the earth for them. grief eats at her over stan—so much grief that she can barely withstand it; believing she should have been there for him, that it was all her fault—and then eddie. she knows that she'll have to live with it for the rest of her life, that even though she wanted them to all last forever, that she lost them. that maybe they weren't invincible and immortal like they thought when they were kids. and though she does live with it forever, the other losers are there with all their love to help her. (but she'll see them again in the afterlife, so that's enough for her).

𝐅𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐎𝐍 ;

vi's fashion sense when she's young is filled with innocence and naivety. she wears pinafores and bright colours mostly, and always socks with flowers on them. violet also draws on her sneakers and boots, usually flowers or quotes of poems she loves. she wears jeans as she gets older, and wants to get a tattoo, but forgets about that hope when she leaves derry. after the encounter with pennywise, violet resorts to wearing solely only the type of doc-martens-like-boots she wore during the fight, as she loves them so much and they make her feel strong. she grows her hair out as she gets into her later teens and puts it in all kinds of interesting traditional hairstyles, and becomes more adventurous with makeup as they head into the nineties. she still adores those boots, though, and she draws all over them too.

there's still part of this left in her as an adult. she still draws on her shoes in pen when she's bored, decorates them like an art project, and it's one of the very violet things still notable when she returns to derry. though her fashion sense has gotten more mature and evolved with the times, she still usually just wears jeans and colourful blouses, sometimes suit jackets. she's a rather fashionable adult. 

𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐖𝐒 ;

ᵘⁿᶜᵒⁿᵈⁱᵗⁱᵒⁿᵃˡ ˡᵒᵛᵉ—though one of her greatest attributes, it's also the most tragic. violet loves so much with her whole heart that it is destined to break her, and it does in the time that she returns to derry. you cannot love people that much without it ending in tragedy. the kind of love that she has for the losers is so incredibly deep and unconditional, they mean everything to her. it's unlike any kind of love than most will experience in their lifetimes.

ˡᵒʸᵃˡᵗʸ—another admirable attribute that becomes a flaw. her amount of dedication means it may be blind or misplaced on some occasions, or put her in danger. and though sometimes she may step down, like after their first encounter with pennywise in neibolt house when she chooses to follow richie, she knows that there's nothing that could keep her away from the losers for long. the fact that she would follow the losers through hell and back just to keep them safe is damaging and dangerous to her. she'd rather die than let any of them get hurt.

ˡᵃᶜᵏ ᵒᶠ ᶜᵒᵐᵖᵒˢᵘʳᵉ—violet is unable to stay calm in dire situations as her emotions just become too much. it can get her in trouble when she becomes angry as she'll viciously stand up to her friends against henry bowers or even pennywise because of her rage. if she's afraid, even though she follows the losers anyway, she's unable to control it and will shake and tremble and may become prone to panic attacks. she panics when her friends are hurt and cannot keep in the tears when they are, even when she's trying to comfort them. 

ᶜˡⁱⁿᵍʸ—though not a large part of her personality, violet can come off as clingy because of her affectionate nature. it's usually not a big problem, but can sometimes annoy the losers if she's being too much.

ᶜⁱᵍᵃʳᵉᵗᵗᵉ ᵃᵈᵈⁱᶜᵗⁱᵒⁿ—she weans herself mostly out of it when she gets older, but vi smokes a lot when she's young which can lead to some withdrawals. she used to swap cigarettes with richie and beverly all the time.