(changing ryan to be jons husband instead just for more heartbreak)

Ryan's anxiety went down a little while waiting for the doctor. Don't get him wrong, he was still uneasy. They were getting Jon a new doctor and it would be rather odd to have Jon's doctor treat Ryan first.

When the doctor did come, Ryan tried not to worry himself. He was tall with blue, not-so oceany eyes that were somehow still welcoming. Brown hair, lanky, and a kind smile. Ryan had always looked very closely at the details of everyone, a habit he picked up in highschool when his hearing was hanging by a thread. Jon was the only one that didn't tease him for it, which was one of the many reasons Ryan had loved him. To think highschool sweethearts wouldn't stay together. (Major foreshadowing js)

"Ah, are you Mr. Walker-Ross?"

Ryan only responded with a nod. The doctor had written something on his clipboard, flipping to a different page to look back at Ryan.

"Nice to meet you. I'm Dr. Weekes. Now I heard you weren't feeling too good, how bout you elaborate on that"

Dr. Weekes got a styrofoam cup and a jug of water that came from the small fridge inside the room. He listened intently to Ryan while Pour ng him some ice water.

"Um, I just... I asked him to squeeze my hand and it was a really really small squeeze but then his heart monitor went off and-fuck, he could've died because of me, and then I just got really dizzy, even after they told me he was ok"

Ryan's leg bounced up and down, causing a creak from the chair every second. Dallon handed him the water, sitting at the chair in front of Ryan.

"Alright, I see. Of course you don't ave to answer this but, do you have anxiety-or anything that falls under that umbrella?"

Ryan paused for a second. He wasn't sure, though Jon and his friends had always encouraged him to get it checked. Ryan was scared to. He didn't want to be diagnosed because he thought he was fine. He thought that people would judge him, laugh at him like always, put him down for it. So he never got tested. He never thought about it. This was a first to really figuring it out.

"Um, I dunno"

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