What do you think about Arjun?

Arjun P.O.V.....

The day after Meera left.....

I can heard s ringing sound but I ignore it.
After few seconds I can hear it again I groan and open my eyes but close it quickly.
I was still laying on my bed. I massage my eyes with my fingers and adjust them to face the sunlight falling on my face.

My phone again ringed and this time I got up and stretch myself. I got my phone and saw the caller ID it Gaurav

"Good morning dude"as I picked the call his voice boomed.
"Hmmm morning " I replied in sleepy voice.

"Wait !!!Are you still sleeping??? Havn't you seen the time" he dramatically panicked.
I turn my head to see the time it's only 8:00am!!!!
"Ummm.... why did you call me???" I asked him in annoyed voice.

"Ym yeah... your jet is ready and Meera safety landed and now may be sleeping too" he said and i hummed in response.

I hunged up he call and returned to my sleep.
There were so many work after Weeding too.
I was doing work continuously.
I was having a full bag of company's work and to my additional this Weeding's work.
Tommorow after I drop Meera to airport after I called Gaurav and told him to watch Meera and take care if her safety.

I slept for an hour and so then I got up.
I went to feshnup.
Today I will be back to Bangalore to continue my work there.

After freshen up I went downstairs. I saw everyone ws sitting on there seats on sofa. I don't know why my eyes started searching for someone.
But soon I remembered that for whom my eyes are searching is not in this house.
I huffed and took my seat on sofa. Suddenly my mood was off.
Everyone wished me good morning and I replied the same. My mood wasn't good today.
I wasn't feeling good I was feeling low lik I don't want to talk anymore. I want to stay alone.

This feeling is really very irritating.

I quickly finished my breakfast and got up to leave.

"Are you leaving now??" My mother asked me.
I nooded and touched her feet. She blessed me and move toward my dadaji(grandfather). I did the same and made my way out.

All time I wasn't feeling happy.
It was lik something is missing which I want urgently.

I didn't want to talk anyone.i just sat on my jet and after few minutes the plan takes off.
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After few hours...

I landed in Bangalore and directly went to my villa.

Yeah I leave here on my villa. It feels more like home than to penthouse.

As I got in I directly went to my room. I just want to sleep.

After few hours I wake up.
I was thinking that I will feel normal if I will rest a little but I was wrong.

I wasn't feeling any good ...
Ughh...
I don't know what I want but I know I want something very urgently...

I sighed and went to freshen up.

I wasn't feeling like eating so I just take a glass of juice and start roaming in my villa.
I live alone here... in this big house which is more that four walls and a roof for me...

Today my feets were going in the direction where I never went in last 4 years...

My paintings room..

Paintings was my passion, my life.
I was so in painting that sometime I use to think I will be a painter in my future.
But not everytime whatever you think for yourself you got to do....

Fate plays game and you are his puppet you just have to play your role whether you want or not...

I open the gate of that room after 4 years. The room was ultra dusty.

Yeah I never allowed anyone to enter in this room not even a maid.
It was my passion my responsibility.
It my source of being clam and get lost all connection from this world.

And I wanted to connect myself to this world so hard that I have to shut myself like this room.
Like my life....

I don't know why I was feeling like this today but I was feeling I am so alone

Alone...

I never felt like this ....
Like this much alone in this house in 5 years....

Its because may be I was with my family few hours before...

But again several time i went to meet then and again at the end of dai i stat here alone but never felt like having anyone company to me....

I have a whole family but still I am alone now. It's not like i don't love then or they don't love me.
But sometime you have whole world beside you but still you want someone more....
It's how I feel right now.

I went inside the room and clear some webs of spider and roam my eyes around this room.

I don't know why I am here after 4 years...
In there years I have urges to go inside and let me my real self out but bounded my self but not today.
Today I lost all my controls.
I am in desperate need of something but I am not getting it.

I was the one who lock this door just to lock my inner self.
But today I was feeling so alone that I wanted to get lost in my own world. I don't when I stand near the painting board and remove the previous cover.
I set the new cardboard and started paintings.

I don't know what I am painting. But my mind was knowing after it was his doing.

I just close my eyes and remember myself and let my mind get done whatever it was doing.
I open my eyes just to get widen.
My heart skipped a beat.
I looked at my creation.

I was just awestruck because what I have made.
I-I made Meera portrait.

Why???
But after looking at this picture I was feeling clam.
My loneliness was somehow gone.

I suddenly smile and looked at the beauty in front of me.

But then I realised what I was doing.
I composed myself and run out of the room after locking it again.

My mind was like forest how. So many questions so many that I don't even know.

In my mind just Meera was running... her smile,her cry ,her tears filled eyes, her curious eyes roaming here she there, her sweet voice.
Her soft hand, her soft and tiny waist , and at last her glossy pink plumby lips.
That I have tasted..... once...

I was angry on myself but why???
I was annoyed but why????

I just ran to bathroom and splashed water on my face to get rid of her thoughts.

I was frustrated why she is in my mind why???

My heart ws beatings like I ran in marathon.

Not for once any girl has this effect on me but this girl has her powerful effect on me.
She isn't here but in my mind she is there continuously.

Without doing anything you are doing many things with me Meera!!!!!

After drying my face I just went to my bed and I lay down and close my eyes.
She was still there....
Smiling.....

I wasn't in peace.
But I was for few minutes when I ws making her painting.

With a blank face and full of emotions mind I again went to that room and opened it.
I looked at her painting and smile.
My heart , my mind we both were so clam.

I again started making paintings and this with open eyes.

I completely my paintings with a smile on my face and I know what I ws missing.
What I want !!!!

Why I feel alone!!!
I miss you Meera....
I want you Meera...
I want you for myself....
You are mine Meera....
I will take you soon.....

I said all this in my mind and stare at the both painting for few seconds.

With a smile and feeling happy I went to my bed and drift to my sleeps.
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After one month....

As I entered in my house I directly went to the room where I have kept Meera's painting.

"I am coming to you... soon" I said and kiss the photo of Meera which I have made. aftr looking at picture for few mote second I made my way to my room.On the way to my room remember that how my mother called me today and said that we will be leaving for delhi as its urgent.
I ask her the matter and she told me that we are going for fixing my marriage date.
I don't know but I was way more happy with this news...

I know I forced Meera in this marriage and I know why I did this. But now I have made my mind to make her mine.

I don't know what I feel for he but I this one month...
Yeah one month...
One month from siya's Weeding...
One month from I saw her in front of her...
One month and she became my obsession.... yeah!!!she is my obsession my possession.
Something I can't explain but she became the part of my life..

After I made her painting I went to that room regularly and lost in her picture for long.
I know I kinda clingy...
Its like I am crazy but I don't know but i feel relaxed when I stare at her painting.
Once I tried to lock the door again but I failed. I was restless that day and just found my peace looking at her.

I even don't know if I am going to say all this to Meera...
That how I feel because I am also confused what I want but I know one thing clearly

I WANT HER....

Thinking about all this I went to my sleep.

Next Morning I catch my flight to Delhi. My family took the flight from rajasthan.
I told them to take our jet but they refused saying they don't want any showoff...

After landing I was greeted by my mother big bear hug.

After that we went to my penthouse in delhi.

After little rest my mother told to get ready we were going.

My heart bounces in my chest in exciting manner but I kept my face neutral.i don't want want anyone to detect this.
There was a wired feeling in my chest. To ignore this fact I just keep working on my laptop when my mother approaches me.
She said the appropriate date for the union.
She said there are two dates on the basis of our horoscope.
I don't believe in this bullshit but I stayed silent not wanting to hurt.

After few minutes my mom announced that are leaving.

I got up from my seat and went toward my car.

I know we can go in a single car but I was with my family. I can't just risk there life.
As we went down my mother rolled her eyes after watching how many cars were placed.

I can't help.

After 30 minute drive we were standing in front of her house.
And to be honest my heart was beating fast like a teenager boy going on a date with his ling time crush!!!!
I ignore that fact.

My bodyguard ringed the bell and her mother came to open the door.
A wave of disappointment runs to me but I cover it quickly with a blank expression.

Her mother look surprised but then she alo cover it with huge smile and greeted us.

Both the ladies hug each other and the we all settle to our seats.
I roam my eyes around the house just to have a glimpse of her but found nothing.

I was behaving like a teenager going on first date with his crush and she is being late.

All were talking about there respective topics but I wasn't interested. I wondered where she is??

"Aaa Meera will be coming.... she is in hospital " her mother said as my mother ask about her.

"Arjun go...pick her up" my mother said to me.
I don't know what to answer I mean I wanted to go but......

I nooded at her and her brother give me the address of her hospital.

I huffed and made my way towards her hospital.
On the way I was just wondering what will be her reaction!!...

I was waiting for her in front of her hospital gate. I have her number . I have dialled it before when I ws in Bangalore but before she pick the call I ended it.

But today I wasn't going to call just wait. After 15 minute she came out wearing a beautiful pink high neck kurti with her phone in her hand looking absolutely gorgeous.

I was looking at her without blinking.
Can't help she always did this to me.

She havn't seen me yet but I am watching her every moves.
I saw she was going to her car when I approached her.

"Come with me wifey" I tried my best to sound normal but I came put husky.

She frozen on her spot I can sence it. She didn't move so I have to turn and command her again.
"Come" I said again this time she follow me quietly.
We settled in the car and I started driving. The drive was quite. Nobody utter a single word. From corner of my eyes I can see she was thinking something.but I didn't interrupt her let her roam in her own world.

As we reach to her house she literally jump out and run to hr car.

I chuckled at her reaction she always behaved like i am a monster who will eat her alive.

When I entered in her house again she was talking to my family members.
I quietly watch her out.
She is more comfortable with my family than to me!!!

Her mother take her with her to freshen up as she just returned from her work.

She came in a black dress looking epitome of beauty.
My heart skips several beats. She really know how to stop my breath without even giving me a glance.

When we were having our dinner dadaji started the topic but she coughed so he dropped it there.

I know the dates and I also know that if she got the choice she will chose the last date but just a thought of staying away from her again make my heart clench.

I have stayed away from her in this whole month and I know how painful experience is!!!, and I think it's enough....
How restless I became...
I don't want to experience it again...

In my mind suddenly a thought started running and that was that someone will take her from me if I leave her.

I won't.....

I am a selfish man and I will be selfish again here.

I feel like having her near me all time as soon as possible but here she rejected this.
It felt like I am losing her.
I will not let her away from me. So the best thing this come in my mind to agreed her for this marriage is to threaten her. And I will.

She is my peace, my light, I will not let my peace to run away from me...

I know I am quite harsh on her but I can't help.
Here I am being crazy for her and there she not even look at my direction for long.

Here she is becoming my peace and there she run away from me like I am some monster.
Her continuously rejection fuel my anger and the result is in front of you...

I also wonder somtime there is something else that's why she runs from me but what???...

I am willing to know about her at this point because not once a single girl reject me....
I never went to them they always came to me but this girl...
She is different.
She didn't throw herself on me. Didn't want my attention for long.
Her this quality increases my respect for her.

After I threaten her she agreed and announced her decision...

I can see her face she ws controlling hard not to cry. But I can't help but when she said yes I was so happy and relifed that I lean down and whisper to her
"We will get married next month"

I really want to know about her more I admit that I invested about her after our engagement but it was only for knowing her. But I want hr to tell her about herself
I was in inner turmoil to ask her out or not as i didn't have done this before!!!!...
After long discussion to myself
When we were about to go I found myself asking her mother to take her out. I know if I will ask her she will immediately reject my offer or will not say anything!!!
So her mother is best option!!!
Her mother immediately said yes and looked at Meera.
She didn't said anything just nodded I know she is scared.

Afterwards we all drive to my penthouse and went to our room directly.

I lay down on my bed and was thinking if I will tell her the reason of this sudden marriage may be she understand.
May be she didn't reject me anymore.

I better know she will ask many questions but am I ready to answer her every question???
Do I trust her that much.... with that secret that I have hidden inside me that secret that I haven't even shared with my mother!!

I don't know nor I think I ready to share that....

I know I like her she is something more than anything in me....but again do I trust her that enough.

So I just will take her out and try to fix a little between us.

Without thinking I grab my phone and open it.

And I really wanted to type good night or something but I stopped myself as I don't want to appear as a creep that threatens her sometime before and now sending lovely good night messages.
After thinking I send her message.
I really like her calling wifey...

So I message her " see you tommorow wifey"

Her you goo...
Another update..
I am late I know...

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